Cream's Journey

[cream _(DNW)]

I have come back after being gone for a while.So I wanted to say hi to all the new people here and let them get to know me a little better:icon176:

[retsam6]

wb and hope to find out alot about you in the future

[MrDom]

wb Brook

MrDom

[Rhabbi]

wb Brook

[angelic.zest]

wb Brook

[MitchC]

Welcome back, Brooklynn. I'm new since you left. Hope to chat with you and get to know you a bit.

Mitch

[bad_kitty_77]

Hi BrookLynn! :)

[Dorkalicious]

Hello :D

[nk_lion]

Wb

[Pertez]

Welcome Back ! BrookLynn :wave:

[Logic1]

welcome back from one of the new guys :)

[cream _(DNW)]

thanks all for the nice welcome backs and hellos as well

[cream _(DNW)]

Last night I met a guy here in the chatroom and we hit it off really good.With him things are alot different.With him I am not a Dom or A sub I am just me as myself.I am able to let him the real me.With others I am on guard and keep up a bad ass mind set.We talked all night long to about 7 am this morning.Please if anyone has some idea of whats happening let me know.I don't understand it myself

[MitchC]

BrookLynn, I'm happy to hear about the guy you met. Congratulations to both of you. I hope it works out for you both.
In regard to your question: I believe that sometimes, two people meet, and just click. Even if one of them is on guard, as you say you are, or has had a bad experience in the past, there are just certain people that even those who are on guard feel comfortable with. Apparently, things that both of you said, and especially that he said, during your conversation, caused you to feel comfortable. As to your question of "What's happening". My answer to that would be that the first seeds of trust are being built between you and your gentleman friend, hopefully on the way to a greater building of trust and bond.
Good Luck to both of you. I hope it works out for you.

Mitch

[Ozme52]

It seems to me that within a bdsm chatroom, people tend to fall into traditional role behavior. When you're lucky enough to find someone interested in talking to you about you... it's refreshing.

That kind of conversation will lead to you two determining your natural pecking order and if you're both comfortable with it, you will find yourselves having a much more successful online relationship that if you had just fallen into your traditional online roles.

Realize you may or may not find yourself in a role with which you are familiar, but regardless you might find out you're happier.

[Logic1]

to be able to let the guard down is good. Just be glad it happens and that the guy what he says he is.
The walls we build up around us is for protection and the more hurt we have gotten in the past the higher and tougher are the walls. It is a real nice feeling to meet somebody you can really talk to and not just having to sit there guarding your thoughts and feelings.
hope good things comes from it.
congrats to you for meeting somebody you could let your guard down with.

[cream _(DNW)]

well ever since I got my tongue pierced I have to lick everyone,I don't know why really why just do.And I like to lick other stuff as well hehe.I love playing with the ring and or making others feel it.Maybe I have an oral fixation!!!But is just now finding out,thanks to the tongue ring?

[Iron_Lynx]

More then likely, it's not that you have a previously undiscovered oral-fixation, but that you're thrilled by your new adornment.
How long ago did you get this tounge-ring?

[Rhabbi]

I agree with Iron_Lynx, it is not a oral fixation as much as it is a desire to show off your new ring, combined with a healthy kinkiness.

[gagged_Louise]

I remember reading a review (in US Keyboard mag) of a ca 1990 disc called Being Led Around By The Tongue, by a band named Master/Slave Relationship (with a woman lead singer). Graphic and unforgiving lyrics, it seemed.
When I saw the title it kind of made me think of a subbie girl literally being dragged around by a chain clipped to a tongue ring (jeez...) though I guess it was rather meant: by the words of the Dom/me's commands. :)

[cream _(DNW)]

More then likely, it's not that you have a previously undiscovered oral-fixation, but that you're thrilled by your new adornment.
How long ago did you get this tounge-ring?

about 31/2 weeks ago and I love it

[Dorkalicious]

I'm happy that you like it :) I don't have the guts to get it done.

Do you have a lisp from it?

[Logic1]

/lick

btw Dorkalicious.. arent you a somewhat sated sub now? ;)

[MajesticFae]

They actually sell tongue barbells that you can attach things to, like leashes and ropes...etc. I'm going to post the link to where you can buy it, if it's not allowed, please remove it, I'm really not trying to sell anything, just proving they exist.

On Tribalectic.com it's called a "Jeweled Slave Straight Barbell"

[cream _(DNW)]

They actually sell tongue barbells that you can attach things to, like leashes and ropes...etc. I'm going to post the link to where you can buy it, if it's not allowed, please remove it, I'm really not trying to sell anything, just proving they exist.

On Tribalectic.com it's called a "Jeweled Slave Straight Barbell"

well thank you very much,I will look into it and let yall know what I have done:icon176:

[Dorkalicious]

Yes, Logic my dear, I am "somewhat" sated ;) lol.

Btw, cream...Did you see my question? A lot of my friends ended up with a lisp from getting theirs pierced.

[Lick me]

*shakes booty* I'll take a lick! ^.^

Sounds cute, I'm with Dork though, not enough gutsies to get one myself =^.^=

[Sir_Russell]

In college we played a game called get the guest all it amounted to was landing in newbies lap and wide tongue licking them from chin to forhead

[cream _(DNW)]

Yes, Logic my dear, I am "somewhat" sated ;) lol.

Btw, cream...Did you see my question? A lot of my friends ended up with a lisp from getting theirs pierced.

I do talk a little different now with it but everyone says it's cute so not a big deal with me

[cream _(DNW)]

I was looking online at some things and found this little toy out.I am gonna give it a try.I am looking forward to the day I get it.I have 3 more days till it comes,smiles.I am really starting to try more and more of the whole bdsm stuff out in r/l now.Before I was scared not any more.I wanna try lots more of bdsm things out.Now that I am willing to.I also hope you all will like hearing about it because I will be sharing it with you all.
Here's a link to the toy I am getting


:wave:

[Hime]

Oooh, fun. :)

Generally this site doesn't allow linking to retail sites, though, so your link will probably get removed. For those who get here after the link is taken down, it's a thigh strap to hold your iPod while playing with a music-sensitive vibrator.

Tell us how it went. :D

[Logic1]

that is one sweet looking toy.
hope you find it real enjoyeable *smiles*
I bet that thumping hiphop is great with it hehe.

[angelic.zest]

i really like that site, nice and quailty products on there!...seems like a fun toy

[Logic1]

that lisp you get IS cute lol.

[TomOfSweden]

well ever since I got my tongue pierced I have to lick everyone,

I just have to ask. Do people get annoyed when you lick random people in the streets? Is there some special part you aim for? The bald spot on elderly men?

[cream _(DNW)]

*shakes booty* I'll take a lick! ^.^

Sounds cute, I'm with Dork though, not enough gutsies to get one myself =^.^=

licks you all over.want some more hehe

[cream _(DNW)]

I just have to ask. Do people get annoyed when you lick random people in the streets? Is there some special part you aim for? The bald spot on elderly men?

lol nope I do it to ppl I know only.Like here in chatroom I lick ppl all the time

[thezigg]

well ever since I got my tongue pierced I have to lick everyone,I don't know why really why just do.And I like to lick other stuff as well hehe.I love playing with the ring and or making others feel it.Maybe I have an oral fixation!!!But is just now finding out,thanks to the tongue ring?

If you like to lick, let me introduce myself, I can be there in 15 minutes.

[Masterdarkone2000]

mmmm I would be happy to let you use that tongue ring and get some practice with it..

[cream _(DNW)]

If you like to lick, let me introduce myself, I can be there in 15 minutes.

just look for me in the chatroom anytime

[cream _(DNW)]

mmmm I would be happy to let you use that tongue ring and get some practice with it..

I bet you would hehe

[Requiem]

Congrats on the new piercing. I've often thought about getting my tongue pierced as well as my nipples...but seeing as I had pierced ears (did them myself too, the lobes and in the cartilage) 2 times and got bored with them...I'd probably do the same with the others.

A few of my friends have gotten them and they have a slight lisp for a short time until they learn to adapt their speech, and now they talk normally. Also your dentist will hate you if you leave the metal bar in there all the time, it'll wear away your enamel on your teeth. Plastic ones won't do that, but you have to keep an eye on them to be sure they're not stripping...would really suck to swallow a bar or ball....no pun intended. Just imagine the fun you could have with the vibrating tongue rings though ;)

[cream _(DNW)]

Well let start off by saying that I love it here.A few months back I was online looking for different types of sex.I cam across a few BDSM sites.I had never heard of BDSM before.I cheeked them out and liked what I was reading.As I am wrighting this I should say I have a live in boyfriend (but we have been having problems) So I came across the forums here.I signed up.I was happy about being able to talk with other people who were into BDSM.As I logged into and out of chat more and more my personal life was falling apart.My boyfriend was a heavy drinker.He drank more and more everyday,So I talked more in the chatroom,wanting to avoid him.Well it worked for a little while.Then he was like "what are you doing in a sex chatroom"I had to explain to him that there is a part of me thats needs this and wants this badly.Well he let me keep chatting here.He got ready to go to NJ for a month.But only problem was he was not going to pay for the internet while he was gone.So he left for the month and I slept and went to school.When he came back he got it turned back on.I was very happy for this.AS soon as I could I logged in here.When I did it was ok at 1st with him.Cause I did it while he was away.He found out.I told him to leave me alone"theres a need I need,be happy I don't wanna try this stuff out on you".He was like ok no problem.I then changed my name from BrookLynn to cream,seeing how I was feeling more like a sub then a switch.As for now I have an online Master and I long to have one in real life soon.well as for me and boyfriend we are getting worse everyday.Now he is talking about me becoming a escort for him to make more money.I have told him hell no."I don't wanna be a whore".So now he is saying we are just room mates are 3 long hard years.I am sad and angry about this.But I am not letting it get to me so much,or I will cry all the time.So if you happen to see me in chat and wonder whats going on with me cause I don't seem like myself this is why.I am gonna be looking for a new house soon.Well thanks for all your help,with talking to me.For now I am gonna go

smiles

[angelic.zest]

*hugs cream*

[Logic1]

warm hugs for you cream *smiles*
I really hope you get back on your feet real soon.

[cream _(DNW)]

I hope I will too.I am moving out of our house soon as I find another one.But I will still be here keeping busy

[Rhabbi]

wow

*hugs*

[John56{vg}]

Hon we are here for you. Stay strong and thanks for sharing your story.

If you want to talk feel free to PM me.

Hugs to you

John

[Requiem]

A real man would never ask that (referencing him wanting you to be an escort) of a woman he cares about. If he was that hard pressed for money he'd get second job, sell off some junk he's got lying around, or cut back his bad habbits or eliminate them all together.

*<HUG>*

if you just need a room or someplace to stay check craigslist for a room for rent, you might be able to find one that you can stay at till you can find a more appropriate living arrangement

[jeanne]

Gosh, that's hard - being in a relationship that's falling apart. I hope you find other living arrangements soon.

[cream _(DNW)]

ok I am off for my weekend,I might not be online this weekend at all.I have a plan set up if some thing goes wrong.I have my sis and a good friend that lives near him so they are one call for me anytime day or night,I will be back on Monday some time see you all then.
huggs and kisses

[Logic1]

held og lykke as they say in Dennmark. means good luck
have a good time and take care :)

[John56{vg}]

Good luck sweetie and glad you are being safe. Hope you are both so happy!!


John

[cariad]

Ohhhh, a weekend can be such a long time to wait to hear...

[Logic1]

Ohhhh, a weekend can be such a long time to wait to hear...

damn..
you are soo right..

[tired.of.vanilla{DJ}]

I hope you are having a blast right NOW.

[Sir_Russell]

We will want details and photos if possible ;-}

[cream _(DNW)]

I am having problems with my log in and so I had to make a new acc.I hope I will get my acc fixed soon cause I have a BIG post to do about my weekend I had with my r/l Master

[creams_slut]

glad to hear from you while he slept Maam. Glad You had an awesome time.

[Logic1]

/wave

[mysc]

heya!

Was waiting for you to check in... good to hear from you!

Hugs,
mysc

ps.. anxiously awaiting your story

[cream _(DNW)]

well Master paid for me to come and see him,my car wasn't working right so he got me a round trip ticket on greyhound lol.When I got to his town I got a cab to his house he came out and paid for it.Help me with my bag.We hugged and went in the house and I met one of my subs (it's his room mate) I talked to him for a little bit but wanted to lay down cause I have not slept at all.I went to his bedroom and but my bag down and layed on the bed.He came in and shut the door and got on the bed too.he leaned down a kissed me sweetly,I kissed him back hungrily.We were kissing for about 10 mins just getting to know each others mouth.Then he ran his hands down to my legs pulling them around him.Rubbing my pussy getting me wet,but I ask him if we can wait I wanna take a shower and relax.He said yes,so I went and showered and got changed into a short skirt and a tight shirt.Came back to the bed and layed down next to him and kissed his back licking him.He rolled over and pined me down and kissed me hard and deep.He told me to take off my clothes,I told him to make me.He pulled the skirt off and pulled the shirt up over my head.pulled my panties down and tossed them to the floor.Took his fingers and started rubbing my clit and making me wet.I looked at him smiling at how good I felt.I took one finger and slipped it in my pussy and began moving in and out going faster and faster.By this time I was not so quite I was getting loud now and he was telling me shhhh luv.When I was wet enough,with one swiff move he pulled off his pants and boxers.And pushed in to my pussy,going deep.I cried out and he kissed me.He was moving fast wanting me to cum with him.I was running my hands up and down his back as he was going deeper and faster now.I started to cum and he had to cover my mouth with his,cause of how loud I was hehe.In a few more mins he came as well.He gave me a sweet kiss and got up and move out of my way.I went to get cleaned up.When I came back to the room he said we have to go to the store and get some thing.I said what do we need.He told me lube,I looked at him and say ok then go get it.(feeling scared)He got dressed and we went to the car and went to CVS for the lube,and he got me some cigarettes too.
We went back to his house and chilled in his room.I was watching t.v and he was fixing his pc(which is a crappy one btw)I was feeling myself going to sleep and then the next thing I know is that I feel some one slap the hell out of my ass.I sat right up when he did that.He told me he was getting us some pizza.I hugged him for not having to cook.I told him let me take a small nap till the pizza gets here,he was like sure baby girl.So I cuddle up next to him and fell asleep.He slapped my ass,and I woke right up cussing him out for that,He said pizza's here laughing.I go 2 slices and ate them and drank my Dr.Pepper and then was feeling much better.I told him I will be right back,I was going outside to smoke.He was watching me out the window.I came back in when done and but the butt in the trash like a good girl.Went back to his room and sat down on the bed he was in alt.com talking about how I was there.I told him to tell everyone there I said hi.I layed my head in his lap and watched what ppl were saying to him and watched him talking with his gor slave girl.Then he slapped my ass and I asked why you did that and he said cause I can.I reached up and kissed him.I told him to please let me get some sleep .He said ok baby girl.I woke up the next morning and found he fell asleep with his ps on and his salve girl still on asking to please leave lol.I jst sat there and watched t.v not wanting to wake him up.I watch a whole movie by the time he woke up.I told him ok I am gonna take a shower and get dressed.He said ok.I came out with just a towel wrapped around me and got dressed in his room.I was looking to see what I was gonna wear today,and I was thinking maybe no panties today.So I grabbed so lose pants and a big shirt and put them on and jumped back into his bed with him.I was laying there with my eyes closed and I felt him kissing me so I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him back.He was playing with my tits making the nipples hard and I let out a soft moan.I wanted him right then.But he went to the bathroom and took a shower.He came out in his boxers and I was laughing at him.His boxers were so cute.He showed me the rope he got for us to play with my eyes were big as hell.I took a deep breath and said ok Master.He walked over to the bed and got his pc and was downloading some new music so I watched more t.v. but was thinking how I want him off the dam p.c.
Latter on that day he got a chair and placed it in the middle of his room and told me to get naked and sit in it.I look at him saying please do I have to.He said yes you do.I took my clothes off and sat in the chair looking up at him.He walked over and got the rope and walked back over to me and asked for my hands.I gave them to him,he tied on hand and pulled it behind my back and took the other one and did the same pull the rope tight making sure I can't get out.Then he took the rope and wrapped in around my chest and under my tits and then around my tits pulling tight.I looked down at what he was doing to me my tits were kinda hurting but not to bad,He took the rope and went doen to my legs and tied them to the legs of the chair.He got up and went to get a flogger.He came back to me and was slapping my on my tits with it.He was trying to get a pic of this but I said please no not ready for that just yet.He said it's fine and he looked at me all tied up and smiled.He untied me and I went to the bed and sat down asking him if I can get dressed now.He said no you can not,he got some of the lube and got on the bed said to me to relax and let it happen.He put some on his fingers and rubbed it all over my pussy and ass hole too.He slipped a finger into my pussy then one in my ass hole I let out a cry of pain but soon forgot cause he was playing with my pussy.
I had never felt something like this b4 and I liked it very much and he slipped another finger into my pussy.He was going in and out of my ass hole faster now and I was moaning and begging for more.He saw how much I was liking it and slipped another finger into my ass hole and I yelled out.He pulled his fingers out of my pussy and told my to lick them clean,I sucked on them eating my own juice for him.He pulled the fingers out of my ass and took off his clothes and rammed his dick in my pussy.Feeling him deep in me was so good.I couldn't get enough of his dick,I was begging for it.He fucked me so hard that I screamed out and he cover my mouth with his so no one can hear me.Kissing him moaning in to his mouth as he fucks his sub.He asked me where you want me to cum ,I told him where ever he wants too.He came right after that,filling me up with cum(we used condoms)He got up and pulled his boxers on and I went to take a shower and got dressed in a big shirt and my panties.I layed down on the bed with my head down at the bottom and my feet at the top watching t.v.HE was back on the pc again doing some thing.I told him I am thinking about cutting my hair,He looked at me and said no you can't.I want it long from now on.I said ok np,and layed my head back down and closed my eyes.I woke up about 3 hours latter and he was out side,I pulled some pants on and went out side to smoke.He was playing with his remote control car.I told him it's cool that he has some thing fun he likes to do.I went back in and got on his pc tried to log in to the bdsm forums but couldn't my pass word was messed up.SO he came back in and I asked him to log in and use his log in to pop into chat.They night he got some pizza ans wings and got more soda and we watched a movie.We both fell asleep and woke up the next day.That day we didn't do nothing till the room mate left the house.As soon as he left he got the lube out and came over to me and told me to get all my clothes off and get on all fours.I did just that.HE lubed up his dick and my ass hole and told me to relax and slowly pushed it into my ass hole,I cried out in pain,this pain wasn't gonna go away.As he started moving faster the more I cried but he said it gets better and better as I do it more.So I bit my lip and let him fuck my ass.After a few mins he stopped and told me to relax.I could not even sit down on my butt it was so sore.He went to the bathroom and came back and told me to lay down and I did.He came up between my legs and pushed his dick in my pussy and fucked me hard.Well when we were done I went to bathroom and got cleaned up.Get dressed and went outside to have a smoke and his room mate came home and we were talking.He was kinda mad at me for that and told me not to talk with him anymore.I said ok.Well latter on I went back out to smoke and the roommate was out there and telling me all kinds of shit about him and what he has said and done.I got pissed off and went to his room and put on his head phones and listened to music so I didn't have to hear him.But I could still see him,so I told him I was gonna go watch a movie in the living room.Well after about 5 mins of me bing in there he came out and said when you get back to your home your on your own and went back to his room.I went out side the front door and walked around a bit.He came out and I went back in and grabbed my smokes and came back out.I asked him what the hell is up.He said cause your watching the movie with my roommate and I told you about that already.I told him what was said and he said it's not true all he wants is a fast fuck with you.SO I told him I was sorry I was just mad.I kissed him,he kissed me back and we went back inside.We went to bed.He had to work in the morning.
I woke up the next morning took a shower and got all my stuff together to go back home.He got up and got dressed and got his stuff ready for work.He told me it was time to go,I had to spend the day at his job till it was time for me to go at 3:30pm.So I listened to his mp4 player and smoked and sat outside all day.When it was time to go I kissed him and told him I would im him on yahoo when I was home.My bus left at 4:10pm I would get to Orlando at 6pm.
But I did walk in my house till 8:30pm lol.All sunburned and hotter than hell.And as soon as I got to the pc I logged into my log in and started yahoo messenger up and I got a im from saying welcome home baby girl.I also was told a few rules.He told me to never talk to his room mate and take him off my yahoo list and in the bdsm forums not to say one word to him.I told him fine I can do that.We went into alt for a while but he was sleepy and so was I.So we logged out and went to sleep.

Well I liked it alot and please don't ask for pic's cause I won't show them

[Logic1]

sounds like you had a lovely weekend dear *smiles*
good to have you back here and telling us about it.

[creams_slut]

Sounds like you had an awesome time Maam...truly heart warming too.

[Rhabbi]

Nice post cream.

[TomOfSweden]

Congratulations. I'm always happy when subs here find their Masters. I can't explain why. My selfless nature or just willing to share the happiness I have found.

Take care and good luck.

[MsCream]

well this is cream_(DNW) I wanted to let yall know I was working with a mod and this is what we came up with about my acc.No matter what we did I couldn't get ter cream_(DNW) fixed so I made this one up.Well thanks for bearing with me while I tried to fix my acc.
Thank you kisses & huggs

[Logic1]

creamy is way better than your "extra account" anyways.
welcome back :)

[Pertez]

Welcome Back creamy :wave:
Btw Great avatar ;)

[MsCream]

I have been talking to a friend to a while in here.And I knew from the get go he had a gf.But we played and got closer to each other getting to know alot about one another.Well some how I ending up liking him and I knew I shouldn't.Well last night we were talking and I told him about what I was feeling.We talked about it for a while.I made him feel like shit cause of it,because he has a gf.Well today he cam into chat and we were talking again and I told him that I want us to be friends but we can't play anymore.He said that sounds good.He asked if he can still hug me I told him yes.But it is still hard.Mainly when I see him in chat and we are talking.I am not used to this and I am trying not to be a silly love sick girl
If you guys can help me in any way let me know I am open to ideas

[Austerus]

creamy,

That's an unpleasant situation to be in :( Sounds like you made the right choice by stopping the play. If your feelings are really getting in the way of your being able to be friends with him, the best thing might be to take a break from talking to him for a while. Just explain to him that since you -do- have these feelings you need a little time apart, without daily chatting, hugs, etc. to get your head together.

Then once you are feeling like you are on more solid ground and have gained a little emotional distance from it all (and have had more of a chance to strengthen your connections with other people) perhaps you will be able to pick up your friendship with him?

[ElectricBadger]

Good to have you back...and yes...your avatar is yummy.

[Logic1]

Sure sounds like the right decision even though it isnt a pleasant one to take.
The funny thing about love is that it creeps up on you when you least expect it or want it. You cant "will" love to come when it isnt there nor can you control it.
Hope you find a good way to deal with it.

[TomOfSweden]

The cat is out of the bag. If I where you I'd break all contact with him, and get back to him in six months when the love has hopefully died down. ...the other option is go for it. Love and peace....no rules. ATTACK!!!

Staying in contact like you're doing now, isn't that a bit like stabbing yourself repeatedly with a knife? A one way ticket to depressing land?

edit: ...and here's my slave's take on it. "If he had a girlfriend but still chose to play with you he's a despicable scumbag loser that you should stay away from."

[Logic1]

good points Tom (and slave)

[moptop]

(unless said g/f is aware & ok with it, then he's not a scumbag, just in a non-exclusive relationship)

But I would recommend getting away from him completely, because it is making you unhappy and uncomfortable.

[mysc]

Dear creamy,

It's not weird at all that you develop these feelings for a friend with who you have shared such intimate experience. It is a very deep and emotional thing to do. And it could get very awkward when you realize your feelings go deeper then just the friendship thing.
I think you made the right choice to distance yourself from him (and tell him too when he comes to close, because the line is easily crossed). I think it would be wise to just let go for a while and not contact him at all just to give these feelings a chance to fade away again.

*hugs*

[Rhabbi]

Feelings for people are part of life. There are some who think that BDSM should never involve them, but they tend to be people who have emotional problems themselves.

I would suggest that you either do what you did, i.e. step back and stop playing. Or perhaps look at your position on poly relationships. I would have told you that is was a bad thing to be in a poly relationship before I got involved like I did, but if I still held that line I would be no where near as happy as I am now.

[rach]

I personally would stop, because the attachment will grow if you don't, and somewhere down the line, you'll get hurt or the g/f will get hurt.

[Tigerjosh]

i think that you made the good choice in stopping the play because even without the play you still can be friends and you dont want to hurt him or you or the one he is with so you towo should step back pause the play and try to un wind the way you feel but there is no reason to stop talkin to each other esecialy sence you two are good friend hope i could help

[MsCream]

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sex me
sex now
I want your sex
S.E.X.
I want it now
your sex allnight
I want your sex
S.E.X.
I want it now
your sex allnight
sex me now

[Uncle_Ed]

umm-could you possibly be a little more specific?

[Guest 91108]

I think cream is obsessed with a three letter word.

chuckles.

[MsCream]

I was talking to someone and doing some thinking as well.I took at test "Are you submissive"Well my sore was very very low it said that I am only like 33% sub.
So I am going to try being all Domme.I think I might like it better and I make a bad sub in my opinion cause I don't wanna do what I am told.I wanna do own thing.I wanna be able to say no and say what ever I please.So while I am doing more thinking too,I must now also look into Domme name and not a sub one but I will let you all know when that happens.

[rach]

I wouldn't lay all that much credence on the test if I were you as I came up low and I'm certainly not a Domme in any shape or form. But if you feel your nature lies in the direction of being a Domme then you should explore it. Or you are liable to be unhappy.

Good luck in your exploration!

[Euryleia]

I make a bad sub in my opinion cause I don't wanna do what I am told.

I think you've captured the essence of why I don't sub full time. Sometimes being made to do what I'm told is hot. Other times, telling other people what to do is hotter.

You've got to go with what turns you on and not worry so much about labels. Humans are a splendid species with differing tastes and I'm sure you'll find your niche.

ER

[MsCream]

well as yall can see I got my name Changed and a new ava as well.
I am happy with my choice

[Logic1]

congratululations.
It always feels great when you really get your mind together and make decisions about the life you are living/going to live.
good luck to you MsCream :)

[tribalspirit]

As long as your happy I say run with it :)

[Rhabbi]

Just be yourself.

[crazy_grrluk]

Is always good to seek out all options...and find what is best for you.

Remember...Your destiny is already mapped out for you....you just need to find it...smiles

cg

[John56{vg}]

Good luck, hon. And yes, it is all about what makes you happy and you feel comfortable with.

[Austerus]

That would seem to resolve your recent troubles rather neatly. All the best on your path forward. :)

[gumby]

Like SpartanPhoenix said, as long as you're happy, run with it. I'm glad to see you've gotten this all sorted out, and I'm very happy for you MsCream.

[angelic.zest]

its already been said, but map out all your options and take a deep breath and good.

[creams_slut]

very nice MS Ceam Maam..simply stunning...follow your heart Mistress

[MsCream]

I have met a Master I am willing to serve full time. I am going to keep my name the way it is. (Don’t worry no more name changes) I am going to
Move up to where he lives. I am going to move there on the 1st. I know for me with all that I am he’s right for me. And one thing he does with me is tell me how he thinks and feels and I do the same for him. We talk everyday on the phone and on yahoo messenger voice. We even do web cam with one another. For the both of us it’s more than sex and him being able to control me. It goes deeper than
That. With him I am really letting my guard down and letting him see the
Real me. (Which for me is not easy?) I am going to still come in here and talk and have fun. But maybe not as much. Seeing that I will be with him
And can have a lot more fun with him in person than in a chat room. I know this is a big step but with him I know I can do it and I want to do it. We know each other from here. Some of yall know him but I will not say his name I will let him tell yall if he wants to. I will always be on my on yahoo
For those of you that I talk to there. Please don’t give me any crap for this
I am a big girl; I can make my own decisions. And for me this is a step in the right direction for me. Getting far away from my ex and his family.
My only thing I am scare of is flying there (seeing I am scare of heights)
And the fact that in r/l I can be shy giggles. Hard to think I am shy but I am.
I told him how to help me get over it real quick. And he has said he will do it. And the only thing that’s going to bug me is that we will have to share a pc. So right now he is up grading it and getting it ready for me. (But he’s not as good as I am with pc’s) So with that I will be his Master lol. Hmmm
He is 5 years younger than me and has been married already and I am ok with that. Him and his wife are no longer together. And he knows I have a
Son (who lives full time with my sister) I am not going to forget about my
family I will still talk to them. I told them what I have been up to online.
They were shocked but they are behind me 100 %. Pretty much as long as
I am happy there good with what I want to do. The only thing they told me was to pack a lot of condoms laughs. So that way we don’t mess up right
Off the get go and have a child. For me that right now is not a good idea.
Oh I almost forgot I am going to get pics of us together and post them in here for yall to see. And I will do a lot more post as I live this life style
In r/l now, so that way yall are up to date on what I am doing. And I am sure
he’ll do post as well. I have spoke with his mother who lives with him, and
And she is looking forward to meeting me. The closer it gets to me going I am getting anxious. We talked more today and he does want children, but I told him I will tell him when ever I want to do that. He is ok with the way I
am with some of my other things I do. I am happy he’s ok with how I am and represent myself. I guess for now I am going to say I’m done.
Huggs & kisses

[sub-butterfly]

AAWWWW hun im so happy for u n speaking from personal experiene(the little i have) its gonna b so great. My Sir and i live together at the mo n its just great. He is an old friend and we know an awful lot about each other but it doesnt matter how you get it just that u do get what you want. My Sir and i love each other a lot and have more than just a bdsm relationship and we have a lot of fun. I wish you all the happiness in the world hun and keep me posted.
Love
Butterfly

[Logic1]

absolute congratulations from me. You are worth the very best dear and I definitely do wish that for you.
Good luck with your new life :)
dont forget about us though hehe.

[gagged_Louise]

Sounds great for you, Cream, our best wishes are with you! It's good your parents and family are accepting this and keeping in touch with you as well. *huuugs*

[Arria]

All the best wishes and good luck from me, creamy, you really deserve it!
Big hugs
Arria

[Rhabbi]

Congratulations Cream. Hope you find the happiness you desire.

[TheVampireMistress]

Aww... cream. I hope that things work out well for the both of you and that you find even more happiness than you have. Keep in touch w/ everybody and the flight sleep through it. If you're not tired grab some mags, music, and def. get some gum. *winks* Take care of you sweetie.

[annie]

*tosses in a word or two of caution*

Wasn't it just a few weeks ago that you decided to go completely Domme because you didn't like someone telling you what to do? Based on that are you sure this is what you want? I care and just want to make sure that you are truly thinking this through and not rushing headlong into something. He may seem the one now... but perhaps a bit more time to make sure?

Sorry... never been a big fan for the "if your happy" line... I truly want you happy so feel I have to ask these questions....

Hope you understand!

[jeanne]

*tosses in a word or two of caution*

Wasn't it just a few weeks ago that you decided to go completely Domme because you didn't like someone telling you what to do? Based on that are you sure this is what you want? I care and just want to make sure that you are truly thinking this through and not rushing headlong into something. He may seem the one now... but perhaps a bit more time to make sure?

Sorry... never been a big fan for the "if your happy" line... I truly want you happy so feel I have to ask these questions....

Hope you understand!

Ditto. Thanks, annie, I was wondering the same thing and couldn't have put it as eloquently as you.

Take care, cream and the best of luck to you.

[pixie_dust]

Congrats! Best of wishes to you.

[gagged_Louise]

Ditto. Thanks, annie, I was wondering the same thing and couldn't have put it as eloquently as you.

Take care, cream and the best of luck to you.

Honestly, I've been so confused by Cream's changes in name and online/eye-to-eye relationships that I wasn't quite clear about how her orientation had tilted a bit, but still would feel the best way for you to get a grip on this - sub?switch? Dominant? - at this point, is to try out for real what it's like to be a 24/7 subbie/slave since that seems to be an idea with a good pull on you. Even if you get bruises and feel bowled over sometimes you'll have learnt something vital.

Very good that you'll remain in touch with your family, too.

[MsCream]

Ditto. Thanks, annie, I was wondering the same thing and couldn't have put it as eloquently as you.

Take care, cream and the best of luck to you.

yes while I waited to find the right Master for me.And I have

[angelic.zest]

Congrats cream, so happy to see things are working out in ur favour, sometimes its hard to let down our guard and let someone in on out deepest,darkest inner person, so happy you found someone to share that with *hugs*

[Austerus]

Good luck with your new endeavor MC. I hope it works out well for you. I would just caution that in case you have not been in a 24/7 relationship before, keep in mind that it's not all pissing sunshine and crapping rainbows. Life doesn't work out like a story in the library, so be ready to put a lot of mental and emotional -work- in before you get where you want to go.

[Ozme52]

I don't mind the rushing in... although it often sounds like infatuation, with not enough time to develop or discover love. But the real problem with this need to announce and lock in plans (sometimes changing names, sometimes not) is that you create a situation with no graceful way out if it doesn't go as planned.

So many here have experienced the same conundrum, they go into hiding, reenter as a new identity, or proclaim woe is me... and then do it again.

I wish you well Cream. Good luck... and I hope you've come to know each other well enough to get through the learning about the foibles stage.

[princess_of_pain]

<----- Feels a rather strong desire to blow Oz a raspberry. :)

Live your life as you see fit MsCream. My best to you and your Master.

[jeanne]

As much as I hate to admit it :rolleyes: , I've got to go with what Oz said. It's hard to think clearly in that first rush of wonderful, heady, overwhelming emotion. It tends to subdue intellect and even that thing we call "instinct". I, too, have gone with the rush of emotion in the past, and I've got to say, it feels great! The only difference between then and now is that I've got enough sense of self-preservation to be cautious at the same time and to listen to my gut, not just my heart and hormones. I define my instincts as God talking to me. He'll tell me what to do when I can't think clearly, I just need to listen. And I don't always, but lately I've been very good about listening, because it always works out the way it's supposed to when I do, even though it may not be what I really want at the time.

Again, best wishes to you and have a great time!
jeanne

[Tigerjosh]

HELLO my sweet lil creamy i cant wait for us to be together and thank you all for understandin that all we want is to be happy even though someof you dont when i talk to you creamy i feel truely happy and i know that when we are together in 2 days i will be even happier i may be your master but from me you will get all the love and respect that you would want and need i will hold you close and kiss you too and if you like i will paddle you too what i say comes from inside i will make you happy in everyway and help you to smile everyday


hope to talk and see you soon your one and only tigerjosh
love you my one and only creamy

i wish i knew what else to say but i am not good at writein things
:rose::11_2_102:

[annie]

HELLO my sweet lil creamy i cant wait for us to be together and thank you all for understandin that all we want is to be happy even though someof you dont when i talk to you creamy i feel truely happy and i know that when we are together in 2 days i will be even happier i may be your master but from me you will get all the love and respect that you would want and need i will hold you close and kiss you too and if you like i will paddle you too what i say comes from inside i will make you happy in everyway and help you to smile everyday


hope to talk and see you soon your one and only tigerjosh
love you my one and only creamy

i wish i knew what else to say but i am not good at writein things
:rose::11_2_102:

Some of us aren't saying we don't want the two of you to be happy... that is what we want more then ANYTHING! We are just tossing out bits of advice and caution to go along with that happiness...

[Austerus]

Aye josh, we all want you to be happy. Nobody is wishing unhappiness on you. All the best :)

[MsCream]

Thank you all so much for what you have said I take to heart what everyone says to me thinking it over and seeing If I can use it.Tigerjosh I can't wait too.
I will help you with the wrighting from now on lol

[Logic1]

absolutely. Nobody wishes you unhappiness here.
happiness is definitely what we want you two to have.

[MsCream]

I was not able to leave on the 1st as planed.So I planed on going on the 5th.Well I am leavening for MO at 12pm my time and get there at 1:35 my time.
His time it will be 11am I leave and 12:35 I get there.I am all packed and ready to go,might not be online for a few days so I will see yall when I get online again.I am thinking I am gonna be very busy for a few days,and might need alot of sleep.hehe ok see all of yall latter

[angelic.zest]

tc and have a good time!

[Logic1]

have fun H.
:D

[annie]

Good Luck Cream