sipgirl
09-06-2007, 09:50 PM
Hi everyone. I dont post often, but am here reading and absorbing the amazing stories, information and debates.
Things have been very much "on" here as of late. We had a bit of a lull in the M/s relationship, but things seem to be getting right back on track nicely.
Anyway..to the point. Last night during an extremely heated session he said something to me that really caught me off guard and my feelings after he said it shocked me even more.
We were (as I said) into a very heated session and he was whispering in my ear about some recent disobedience when he said, "You want to please me dont you? You dont want to disappoint your master." Those words hit me like a ton of bricks when I realized "Holy crapola I really DONT want to disappoint him and I want to please him more then anything." So here I am tonight contemplating the whole thing and realizing that maybe Im slipping further into this M/s..D/s aspect of the relationship. This of course pleases him greatly. By the way he reacted to my response last night I certainly am not left to wonder how he feels about this. (The wide grin and satisfied nod gave it away.)
I am wondering if the next level is fast approaching...maybe taking this whole D/s aspect of things a bit further. We generally keep it behind closed doors (we also have young children)he often tells me what he expects, what he wants, what to wear, requests dirty texts at work, exquisite pictures of me naked in various places (which lately has been the tanning bed). I always fulfill those requests. It just seems that more recently I am extremely concerned about pleasing him.
Im not really sure that theres a question here, but I had to let it all out somewhere and as you know its not something that those in the nilla world would understand.
Anyway thanks for listening, sorry for rambling and again thanks for all the knowledge and experience.
Things have been very much "on" here as of late. We had a bit of a lull in the M/s relationship, but things seem to be getting right back on track nicely.
Anyway..to the point. Last night during an extremely heated session he said something to me that really caught me off guard and my feelings after he said it shocked me even more.
We were (as I said) into a very heated session and he was whispering in my ear about some recent disobedience when he said, "You want to please me dont you? You dont want to disappoint your master." Those words hit me like a ton of bricks when I realized "Holy crapola I really DONT want to disappoint him and I want to please him more then anything." So here I am tonight contemplating the whole thing and realizing that maybe Im slipping further into this M/s..D/s aspect of the relationship. This of course pleases him greatly. By the way he reacted to my response last night I certainly am not left to wonder how he feels about this. (The wide grin and satisfied nod gave it away.)
I am wondering if the next level is fast approaching...maybe taking this whole D/s aspect of things a bit further. We generally keep it behind closed doors (we also have young children)he often tells me what he expects, what he wants, what to wear, requests dirty texts at work, exquisite pictures of me naked in various places (which lately has been the tanning bed). I always fulfill those requests. It just seems that more recently I am extremely concerned about pleasing him.
Im not really sure that theres a question here, but I had to let it all out somewhere and as you know its not something that those in the nilla world would understand.
Anyway thanks for listening, sorry for rambling and again thanks for all the knowledge and experience.