One Lie

[snowflake]

One Lie

by snowflake

Magets and beetles of lies and deceit
crawl through my mind and heart
through words that flow from lips
Feasting on my emotions and sole complete.

I feel them crawling inside me so deep
swirling in my in sole
like ravaging animals
and i lay here doing nothing but weep.

Their rivers of lies flow out of control
from the first drip
to the next drip
So many now they have taken their tole.

My loving heart i once had for you
now reaks of rage
full of ice
Where did the love go once so true.

Hurt turns to rage i can't contain
making me sick
it hurts so bad
I feel i am truly going insane.

Why did you lie one after another
what was the gain
do you feel the pain
I feel the rage as it smoothers

I wish the love would come back
the softness of it
the tenderness i feel
But now all i think of is the black

The emptiness of hugs that use to be
don't touch me
don't come near me
I need them back can't you see

I am torn between the love and hate
i can't take it
the snakes twist in me
the rage builds to another state

Why did the lies ever have to start
i tense in a ball
afraid to move
Can't you see you destroyed my heart

What did i do to make you hate me this much
it tears me
one small peice
The yearning i had was just for your touch.

To hear you say them with a care of tone
you tell more lies
freinds leave
and now you have left like this me all alone


I finally confront the lies and deceit
rage strikes
loss of control
and i feel the pain of each hit of heat

What happened to our trust along the way
love gone
suspicion lurks
One white lie then another but now we pay

Now i find a calm moment alone today
tears fall
numbmess takes over
I go silent quiet with no more to say

[Pertez]

:wow_nbs: Beautyful Thank you , Loved it !

[WyldWyl]

Sitting here with tears in my eyes as I read this.
Wondering how to find the words to make you see that it will all be better.
Knowing exactly how hard this is for you.
Promising to always be there.

[snowflake]

Thank you glad you enjoyed Pertez...

I am so sorry Wyl it got you upset . but i was pretty upset when i wrote it at another..Hugs you tight

snow

[denuseri]

gosh snow, i am so sorry things didnt turn out better, at least you can be really free of him now, hugs and hugs and hugs,, and he should rember the ole adage, hell hath no fury like a subbie scorned, just lemme know when ya want me to come X hunting with my guns boo,,

again, hugs my sista,, be strong i know yu can overcome this,

oh and ps,, i really liked the poem too, i would give it one of those credidation college lit critiques but i think that would just eviserate and detract from its beauty,,

[mandy77]

wonderfully written -but so very sad. I'm sorry -wish I could give you a big hug --I'll send one instead.

hugs, mandy

[kitara]

So sad, but amazing; I'd kill to be able to write poetry even half as well as you! :p

[Warbaby1943]

Damn I hope this isn't the way you feel but it may explain your absence around here. If it is your true feelings I hope things change for the better real soon for you. Hugs and stuff

[steelish]

Wow. A lot of emotion there.

[snowflake]

Just thought i should let you know that we are trying to work through things but it all takes time

Thank you all for your comments.. i didn't even think of how the poem read .. i just had to get my emotions down somewhere..Blushes


But it is true i still hurt and it will take time to heal.. but i will get through it somehow..

Thankyou for your support kind words and especially the hugs

hugs
snow

[denuseri]

hugs boo, i am with ya, heart and prayers

[arden]

snow,

lass, deciet oft' leaves us wi' no' thing to say. and so oft' a million things to say get lost and there lass is all we 'ave left then to walk away and find our own solace.


arden

[snowflake]

Thanks you arden very much for those words..

Denusrei just thought i would let you know things are working out and are coming along .. Time is our friend right now and it seems to be helping each day that goes by..

hugs
snow

[thrall]

thank you for sharing...

[Meena]

I am sorry, but I guess it will be better if 'sole' is replaced by 'soul' in line
Feasting on my emotions and sole complete.
and others!