true punishment

[~d~]

it started out so easily. Master gave me a little assignment. He knows i love to read porn and He knows i love to let me fingers do the walking. So i was to read three stories and send Him reviews. *grin* That sounded easy enough. i should have known better. There were three conditions... One while reading the first two... i could do no touching. After the end of the second one i could find release but during the reading of the third i was to touch and touch and touch.... and never find release...I was to have it all done in a timely fashion and have the work done before our next session...

my body over ruled my mind as He knew it would... i have a greedy little hole and well He knows it. Additionally, i chose poorly. Thinking i would have lots of time... i chose long stories. I wanted truly hot ones... ones to test my resolve... *grin* just as He knew i would. When the opportunity arose to met earlier than planned... i knew i was in trouble... the assignment was not completed and i had let my puss over rule my mind.... and i knew that He would ask... and i also knew that i would give Him the truth...

So when W/we met to session, i knew i would be disciplined but i didn't foresee the route it would take. See i am a slut to my body... and a slut to His will... so punishment and pleasure has a way of blurring in my mind. The harsher He is the deeper i go into my submission

Being tied down with my body open to Him... blind folded so i can't see what's coming... hands squeezing and prodding...fingers testing... Master's and the others who are tools of His will... taking me on a journey of discovery. Then it happened... i realized that the tools of Master were being given release. They took their pleasure while in my body, but i was being give just enough pleasure that i was living on the razors edge of release... but i was not to let it happen... i was to be left hanging... unfulfilled...see when your Master calls you an anticipation slut... then is this place just a place of never ending pleasure or a place of punishment. To spend hours wanting...*shiver*

That is why the next thing took away all doubt... see through it all... whether in moments of discipline or moments of extreme pleasure... one single thing showed through... Master took his release in me... the power of his seed was my reward...for being his slut in all things...only not this time.

I was forced through His will to watch as he took pleasure in another's body... i watched as lips that were not mine closed over His flesh. I met the eyes of the other as the taste that is Master became his... i felt the lunge of his body as Master took him... and i watched Masters face as pleasure took over and feeling became everything...all the while my wet cunt wept at the eroticism yet i felt envy and pain... and regret and resolve... there was no blurring of lines this time... no blurring between the lines of pleasure and pain... meeting the pleasure filled eyes of the other as he became the receptacle of Master's cum hurt...

that was the true punishment...

[nikki]

...i don't know what to say.... probably the most effective punishment i've ever heard!...beautifully scripted too, wow again

nikki x

[write4jetc]

This is excellant! It re-inforces my belief that, for a sub, one of the worst punishments is being denied time/pleasure with your master/mistress.

I like that phrase - anticipation slut. I never thought of it that way, although Sylvie fits in with the blurring between pain/pleasure. Anticipation slut ... I'm going to let that perculate through my brain for a little while ... I think I feel inspiration coming on ...

[BDSM_Tourguide]

Orgasm denial doesn't work for my wife. She could live with or without them.

[write4jetc]

Oh, you poor man! There's nothing nicer than just sitting back, denying someone an orgasm ... especially when they've worked hard for it, they deserve it, they've begged and pleaded for it - and still, you just keep saying no!

[Swashbuckler]

Wow, I think that it was excellently scripted. Congratualations, ~d~, it sounds like you have had a terribly, wonderful experience.

I personally look forward to reading more of your experiences.

[Finding_Fantasy]

Originally posted by write4jetc
Oh, you poor man! There's nothing nicer than just sitting back, denying someone an orgasm ... especially when they've worked hard for it, they deserve it, they've begged and pleaded for it - and still, you just keep saying no!

*chuckles* Don't get him wrong, I like orgasms as much as the next person, I just don't hold as much weight to it. *shrugs* I have told him that if he enjoyed himself, if he was able to reach his climax, then that is anough for me. Call me weird, but I find just as much satisfaction in the orgasm as hearing/watching other people have one due to what I did. That is satisfaction enough for me.

To be honest, I feel better about myself when I am able to bring sexual pleasure. I guess it is aboost to my self esteem and make me feel that perhaps I am not as repulsive as I sometimes see myself.

[write4jetc]

it's true, there is great satisfaction in bringing another person pleasure in whatever form they want it.
Although, there's even more satisfaction in making them work hard to get that pleasure :cool:

[Finding_Fantasy]

I guess it also depends on what end of the spectrum you are on. :) I am on the submissive end, so I get pleasrue from giving it, wether I climax or not. Not that I don't get to often, but if it so happens that I don't get to, I'm not heart broken over the fact.

[BDSM_Tourguide]

Hormone treatments...


I, personally, wouldn't mind it if you started acting like a wanton slut. My ego would get nice and big if you would beg for sex once in awhile.

But, as this is a thread on punishment, I'll leave that alone here.

[BDSM_Tourguide]

We will be "discussing" your seeming lack of ability to follow the house rules when you wake up tomorrow. I think we might be beyond the point of spankings now.

I might get to try that hot wax idea I had after all.

[BDSM_Tourguide]

So I think I'll give it a :bump:

[~d~]

So I think I'll give it a :bump:


this not worth the effort of a bump TG..lol.... this has always been posted in the right catagory to me.. but under the rules of this forum... its always been in the wrong place...*grin* as i said in another post... i never quite fit... this just sort of proves the point...

peace
~d~