Jade's Master's thread

[Jadetiger]

Master,
Thank you for your praise. It really does mean a lot to me. I never once thought that the task was designed to cause a negative reaction. These issues are mine to deal with. The fact that I know your intent is not to cause me harm, makes them easier to overcome and face. I am truly an introvert and very shy. I live part of my life through fantasies and you are now helping me make them reality. I need to learn about myself and overcome the obstacles that are holding me back. I understood when I started down this path that there would be times where I would be extremely uncomfortable. I can handle it, Sir. If I couldn't I would have deleted the pictures. The fact is you are helping me do things that I could never have accomplished on my own. Master, you deserve my deepest praise. :applaus: :goldcup:

Your explanation of the real intent of the task has made your slave just that ‘anxious, horny and wet’. :eek:

Your Tums eating slave,
Jade

I really do have a warped sense of humor, which does not seem to translate well in my posts. I find it kind of funny that a woman who posts explicit photos on a forum gets a bellyache because someone will see them or make a comment. Guys, I do believe that is the purpose of posting them. :rolleyes:

P.S. My tummy is feeling much better, but my clit aches like hell. :D

[ProjectEuropa]

I find it kind of funny that a woman who posts explicit photos on a forum gets a bellyache because someone will see them or make a comment. Guys, I do believe that is the purpose of posting them. :rolleyes:


I think to post your photo was a very brave thing to do and if it is part of your master's request and you overcame your natural inclination, then I think congratulations are in order.

Yes I have looked as I assumed your photo was there to be looked at :) !

I really really hope you enjoy your journey of discovery. Congrats and enjoy!

[Ruby]

Jade,

You are both beautiful and brave. The pics were great.
Someday, perhaps I'll be brave enough to uncover myself
and join you. Someday.

Wishing you all the best on your journey,

Ruby

[Chuckdom19]

Jade, dear,
I respect and commend your courage. As has been stated, "Beautiful" and "Brave" are certainly words which apply to you, pretty lady.

Your Master has a wonderful opportunity to share your life, and it sounds as though you are fortunate in having him as Master.

Chksng19

[Jadetiger]

Posted as commanded.
Task 1 hour tied naked in a chair with pictures at intervals of the process.
15 mins. Butt plug
30 mins. Vibrator on clit
45 mins. Cum
60 mins. Untie myself

Follow up tasks.
I would also like you to sleep with my collar on this whole week. I want to know how you felt being tied to the chair. And what went through your mind while you were doing this task.

He wanted me to imitate Darklady’s poise, since I thought it was so hot. I explained that I did not have anything pretty like that and he said to do it naked. I was scared because my master really wants me to do something that I can’t. I was very frustrated that he wants to see all of me naked. Everybody has seen my tits, ass and pussy. But he has known all along that this is something I can’t do. Please do not mention how illogical it is I all ready know. I really don’t know the reason, maybe this is something that I am keeping just for my husband. So my new task is listed above.

This only added to my frustration. How in the hell was I suppose to get all that done while tied in that awkward and painful position. The answer is painfully.

The butt plug really hurt. Taking the pictures only left me with one arm to stop my body. I tried very hard to control how fast it went in but my weight impaled me on it. The neckties I used to tie my legs to the chair were cutting into my skin. Not a happy slave. Completed this part of the task and emailed my master his pictures.

The vibrator on my clit really didn’t do anything for me except keep my mind off how much my ass hurt. Completed this part of the task and emailed my master his pictures.

Now for the real fun. In that position I couldn’t even get the vibrator inside myself. The butt plug was blocking it. So I tried the work my body higher up on the back of the chair. The neckties were cutting off my circulation and the pain in my ankles was horrible. I finally got myself up high enough to insert the vibrator. The neckties were cutting off my circulation and the pain in my ankles was horrible. The vibrator scraped against the butt plug and it really hurt. I focused on getting master his pictures and trying to get the vibrator pass the plug without tearing myself.
I was thinking only 15 more minutes and it would be over with. I keep driving the vibrator inside of me and watching the clock. I really hated everything about this task, but a part of me must have liked it, because at the end of 15 minutes my pussy was like a water facet. I did not totally completed this part of the task because there was too much pain for me to cum. I emailed my master his pictures.

I untied myself. Completed this part of the task and emailed my master his pictures.

Follow up tasks.
I want to know how you felt being tied to the chair.
I hated it. It hurt like hell.

And what went through your mind while you were doing this task.
Pain, angry, fright and the horror that I might fail but the thought of running you over with a car did bring me a little pleasure. Maybe that's when I got all wet. I was even more frighten and angry when I almost passed out removing the but plug. Only to find out that I was bleeding from my rectum. Most of my angry is being reserved for myself at the moment. I should have realized in that position the task could not be accomplished safely with only one person. I should have said no.

I would also like you to sleep with my collar on this whole week.
I will obey.

[wannabeXopsed]

Jade,

You are amazing! :bravo:

I have yet to learn how to obey as well as you. I would have not had the perseverence that you did. It take a tremendous amount of discipline to follow through as you did. Great Job

You should be very proud of yourself!!! :applaus:

T

[Ruby]

Jade,

With every post I learn from you and thank you for sharing with the rest of us. You are a true gift.

Ruby

[Jadetiger]

WannabeXopsed and Ruby,
My Master will be pleased by your praise, but I do not feel proud, I see this as a failure. I should have stopped. I have spent all morning thinking about it and what I realized has left me shaken.

My fantasies have always involved someone else causing me pain with me enduring the torture. What happened last night was I causing me extreme pain for the pleasure of another. This is something that never even crossed my mind. I would call me stupid but that would be too generous. In an online relationship it will always be me that has to cause the pain for the pleasure of my master. This fact has me on an emotional roller coaster ride right now. I do not even know if I can report to my master this afternoon.

I will try to dry my tears and head back to work. It will only add to my shame to cry at work. They have only seen me cry once in my life and that was when my father died. Hopefully the emotions will relent and I can try a figure out why this has upset me so much.

P.S. I will draw my strength from you wonderfully ladies because right now I am all out. I really wish I could understand why this is making me cry. I hate crying it is so illogical and I just want it to stop.

[Nightstriker]

Jade I too will aplaud your loyalty to your Master. Though there are a few things that I will say.

From your descriptions I thik that you may have made your ties a little to tight. For doing all of that type of stuff by yourself.

I am also curious if you have talked with your Master about possibly getting a smaller butplug and use it untill your ass gets used to it and then slowly move up in sizes? From what I have read about anal play with those toys people new to them should start off small for it can become increadibly painful.

[Chuckdom19]

Posted as commanded.
Task 1 hour tied naked in a chair with pictures at intervals of the process.
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I respect your courage, dear lady, and thank you for sharing your beauty with us all (whichever parts...)

I believe I could help you with problems with the plug; PM me if you'd like some free advice later.

Sending you hugs for the memory of the pain, and kisses on both cheeks for your bravery and loyalty.

Chksng

[Jadetiger]

After the wonderful responses to my post, the private PMs with encouragements and medical help. Followed by an email pep talked from my Master. I find that I am feeling much better and my warped sense of humor is back. The fact that it had not come to my rescue earlier had me very distressed. Humor even bad humor is always preferable to tears. :)

I really think there should be a place like DMV for BDSM toy operation. You should have to take classes on how to own and operate a butt plug safety and when you passed the class. They could give you cute little picture of your ass with your first successful insertion. Speaking of those toys they should come with an owner’s manual for us not so knowledgeable beginners.

There are other issues I am dealing with besides improper use of equipment and those are the ones that really made me cry. Finding out that I may actually like causing myself pain is a real shocker. I probably would not have be so upset if I had cum, but the fact is there was no sexual pleasure in it at all. The fact my pussy was dripping like a facet makes it pretty obvious even to me that my body was extremely aroused. If I could only get my mind to jumped aboard I could really have some fun with this new discovery. I will have to give myself time to accept this new information about myself. I will also have to be careful not to be to over zealous in exploring this aspect of myself once I accept it. :confused:

Visions of hot wax, clothespins and bonded breasts dance in her head. :eek:

Lions, tigers and bears oh my. :D

[Mobius]

After the wonderful responses to my post, the private PMs with encouragements and medical help. Followed by an email pep talked from my Master. I find that I am feeling much better and my warped sense of humor is back. The fact that it had not come to my rescue earlier had me very distressed. Humor even bad humor is always preferable to tears. :)

I really think there should be a place like DMV for BDSM toy operation. You should have to take classes on how to own and operate a butt plug safety and when you passed the class. They could give you cute little picture of your ass with your first successful insertion. Speaking of those toys they should come with an owner’s manual for us not so knowledgeable beginners.

There are other issues I am dealing with besides improper use of equipment and those are the ones that really made me cry. Finding out that I may actually like causing myself pain is a real shocker. I probably would not have be so upset if I had cum, but the fact is there was no sexual pleasure in it at all. The fact my pussy was dripping like a facet makes it pretty obvious even to me that my body was extremely aroused. If I could only get my mind to jumped aboard I could really have some fun with this new discovery. I will have to give myself time to accept this new information about myself. I will also have to be careful not to be to over zealous in exploring this aspect of myself once I accept it. :confused:

Visions of hot wax, clothespins and bonded breasts dance in her head. :eek:

Lions, tigers and bears oh my. :D


So are you saying that your body betrayed you not to use an over worked cliché.

Just out of curiosity you said that the butplug hurt and you had bleading etc
Did you use enough lubrication? Not that I am an expert in butplugology.

How about posting a pic of the ofending object. so the judges and see how
big it was?

Maybe Dracubius will abduct you and try varing sizes of butplugs on your vertual self

[Nightstriker]

Bears? What? Who is talking about me now?

[Jadetiger]

So are you saying that your body betrayed you not to use an over worked cliché.

I would not call it betrayal. It is just my mind could not enjoy it. I still can't understand why my body responded like it did when my mind was saying just the opposite.


Just out of curiosity you said that the butplug hurt and you had bleading etc Did you use enough lubrication? Not that I am an expert in butplugology.

The butt plug is size medium and I put a ton of lube on it. I image the fact that I was tied in an awkward and painful position kept me from being able to relax. I have only used it twice before. The accident was compounded by the fact I could not control how fast it got inserted.


How about posting a pic of the ofending object. so the judges and see how big it was?

Picture attached


Maybe Dracubius will abduct you and try varing sizes of butplugs on your vertual self
Please keep him away from me. LOL I want to play with Lord Mobius and Lord Chuck. Dracubius is not my kind of Dom. Now if you want to remove a branch from your family tree just have Dracubius play with Jade. You can always tell grandma it was a work related accident. ;)

Nightstriker, you seem like a teddy bear to me. Excuse me a teddy bear with whips. :D

[Ruby]

Jade, honey,

What a big learning day you've had. So sorry to hear about the emotional roller coaster and happy your sense of humor is back.

The hardest part for me about experimenting with my likes and dislikes is finding things out about myself that I might not have ever guessed or even thought of. In theory, we can all say, no, I wouldn't like that or sure it sounds great, but then reality comes crashing in and whoa - it's often a surprise.

Forgive yourself and do take some time to think about what you liked, what you'd do differently and what you don't want to repeat.

"I really think there should be a place like DMV for BDSM toy operation..." - Perfect analogy.

Big hugs and kisses to brave, beautiful you,

Ruby

[Jadetiger]

Ruby,

Yes it was a big learning day for me and you are right I was totally taken by surprise. Master and I chatted for a while this afternoon. This new knowledge about myself is pretty scary but I am finding it kind of exciting too. We decided for my own safety that it would be best if I let him decide how we precede. Like you he says we should take it very slowly.

I did realize today something Master has been trying to get me to understand for quite sometime and that is that I am not alone. I have people who will help me whenever I need it. That more than anything is the real lesson I learned today.

My only task if I chose was to stay off the computer, take a bubble bath, put on a comfy robe, eat something and watch a little TV for part of the night. I decided to obey. He also suggested an early night, which I believe I will obey that too.

It is amazing how a very bad day can turn out to be one of the best days of your life.
It doesn’t happen often to me so I will always treasure this day and the people who made it special.

[craftygirl]

*big hugs* for you Jade

[spirit]

I would not call it betrayal. It is just my mind could not enjoy it. I still can't understand why my body responded like it did when my mind was saying just the opposite.

i can totally relate to this Jade...i'm dealing with the same feelings myself at the moment....stick with it, you're an inspiration...hugs

[Mobius]

I would not call it betrayal. It is just my mind could not enjoy it. I still can't understand why my body responded like it did when my mind was saying just the opposite.



The butt plug is size medium and I put a ton of lube on it. I image the fact that I was tied in an awkward and painful position kept me from being able to relax. I have only used it twice before. The accident was compounded by the fact I could not control how fast it got inserted.



Picture attached


Please keep him away from me. LOL I want to play with Lord Mobius and Lord Chuck. Dracubius is not my kind of Dom. Now if you want to remove a branch from your family tree just have Dracubius play with Jade. You can always tell grandma it was a work related accident. ;)

Nightstriker, you seem like a teddy bear to me. Excuse me a teddy bear with whips. :D

Maybe it was the pic but it does look pretty big to me. Cuto's to you for taking it.

[Jadetiger]

It seems I have busted a capillary in my eye. It started in the far corner of my eye and I didn't notice until I got home from work. It really would have been nice if someone had mentioned it at work. You can image my shock when I looked in the mirror. The blood is all the way to my pupil now. It seems to have stopped growing. Well I am crossing my fingers. I looked like a vampire in a movie who only has one eye filling up with blood. :eek:

And I have no idea how it happened. I have not had an injury to my eye.

Here is question how long before it goes away? I need to know if I should by a cute pair of sun glasses to wear to work on Monday. ;)

[Nightstriker]

I have no idea as to how long it will take to go away, but you may have done it because you may have been rubbing your eye a little to much. From to much abrasion, the capillary may have ruptured.

[wannabeXopsed]

Ah, Jade I hope you are feeling better by this evening, you have been through a lot and have been tested. I believe you have surpassed a huge mile stone in your journey just relizing and validating your emotions. That is a big step in a finding how far you will go to please Master. I was once told that "Master knows what is best for me"

You have given him that role so let it be, and know that the next task will come easier to you maybe, and believe you haven't failed in anyway. Sounds to me that your Master is caring and very proud of you.

Crying is good for you to release those emotions and then you can go forward with a fresh outlook.

Again big hugs, and loving thoughts to you!

T

Ps I also think the these products should come with more instuctions than,
WARNING: This is a novelty product. :confused: But look we have more in different colors and sizes. ( I went shopping today) to buy a new butt plug, looked for instructions NOPE not one word about how to use. Not to mention care for these products, Thank goodness for the employees that work there, as embarrassing as it is, to look at someone and ask how much lube do I need or do you think it is to big :eek: Oh yea one last thing, I have to use special soap? :rolleyes:

[LBoolean]

It seems I have busted a capillary in my eye. It started in the far corner of my eye and I didn't notice until I got home from work. It really would have been nice if someone had mentioned it at work. You can image my shock when I looked in the mirror. The blood is all the way to my pupil now. It seems to have stopped growing. Well I am crossing my fingers. I looked like a vampire in a movie who only has one eye filling up with blood. :eek:

And I have no idea how it happened. I have not had an injury to my eye.

Here is question how long before it goes away? I need to know if I should by a cute pair of sun glasses to wear to work on Monday. ;)

This has happened to me too, I went to see the doc about it and he said as long as it does not get bigger or hurts it will go away by itself... it did after about a week.... even with both eyes back to normal I still scare chlidren and small animals, go figure...

L

[Jadetiger]

I have no idea as to how long it will take to go away, but you may have done it because you may have been rubbing your eye a little to much. From to much abrasion, the capillary may have ruptured.
Nightstriker,
I was rubbing my eyes a lot the day before this happened so you have the solved the mystery for me Sherlock Holmes. Please take this as a great compliment. I am a great fan of detective mysteries.

Ah, Jade I hope you are feeling better by this evening, you have been through a lot and have been tested. I believe you have surpassed a huge mile stone in your journey just relizing and validating your emotions. That is a big step in a finding how far you will go to please Master. I was once told that "Master knows what is best for me"

You have given him that role so let it be, and know that the next task will come easier to you maybe, and believe you haven't failed in anyway. Sounds to me that your Master is caring and very proud of you.

Crying is good for you to release those emotions and then you can go forward with a fresh outlook.

Again big hugs, and loving thoughts to you!

T

Ps I also think the these products should come with more instuctions than,
WARNING: This is a novelty product. :confused: But look we have more in different colors and sizes. ( I went shopping today) to buy a new butt plug, looked for instructions NOPE not one word about how to use. Not to mention care for these products, Thank goodness for the employees that work there, as embarrassing as it is, to look at someone and ask how much lube do I need or do you think it is to big :eek: Oh yea one last thing, I have to use special soap? :rolleyes:
WannabeXopsed,
My master was extremely proud of my obedience and the completion of the task. He was not happy that I did not stop when I hurt myself. He also said it was his fault that it happened and not mine. I remember telling him he was a great Dom for me and that most other Doms would have sent me into hiding along time ago. I have been thinking about it and I am not an easy sub to work with. I now realize my inability to show him my whole body hinders him from ensuring for my safety. He has been trying to use logic, patience and even command to help me over come this but none of it has worked. My master is not my husband and my husband is not in this life style. As illogical as it sounds keeping my body from my master makes my husband the true master of my heart. This has allowed me to explore my needs and desires without having my heart laden with guilt.

I am sure my master is trying to figure out how to proceed with this limitation. His pleasure comes from my willingness to serve and watching as I discover news things about myself as I take my journey into submissiveness. It was suppose to mentally and physically arouse me, but enduring extreme pain was not part of this task. Like my master I have some things to figure out. My safety is a great concern for him and I need to help him so he can feel confident that it will not be an issue in the future. I believe my master’s slave will be adding a couple of pretty corsets to his toy collection. This should give him the access he needs to ensure for my safety and still keep the promise I made to myself.

I agree with you on surpassing a huge milestone here and I am lucky to have a master who will make sure I take baby steps in exploring this side of myself. I can image his pleasure when he finally gets my body and mind in sync and has me orgasming from my pain as well. I am making myself hot just thinking about it.

This has happened to me too, I went to see the doc about it and he said as long as it does not get bigger or hurts it will go away by itself... it did after about a week.... even with both eyes back to normal I still scare chlidren and small animals, go figure... L
LBoolean,
It would seem I will get to but a pair of sunglasses after all. Thanks

[Nightstriker]

It was not a problem Jade, though I really would appreciate it if next time you use a N as opposed to a K when spelling my name.

I shall take the compliment for it is not every day that I get called Sherlock Holmes.

[Jadetiger]

It was not a problem Jade, though I really would appreciate it if next time you use a N as opposed to a K when spelling my name.

I shall take the compliment for it is not every day that I get called Sherlock Holmes.

Sorry I fixed it. I put Knightstriker first and removed the wrong letter when I thought I was fixing it. I must be having trouble seeing this morning. ;)

[Nightstriker]

It is alright. Just one of my slight twiches.

[Jadetiger]

It is alright. Just one of my slight twiches.

To bad I can’t spanked for my mistakes. :p ;)

[Nightstriker]

I am pretty sure that can be arranged Jade.

[Katmandu]

Awww, this is so mushy you 2. I'll handle it Night. Here 'ya go, Jade: :spank:

[Jadetiger]

Awww, this is so mushy you 2. I'll handle it Night. Here 'ya go, Jade: :spank:


Bends over and grabs her ankles. Can I have another please. ;)

[Jadetiger]

I have been order to stay off the forum for 24 hours, except to check mail. Please feel free to use virtual Jade for Mastermike's birthday party. I hope eveyone has fun especially the birthday boy.


Hugs and Kisses,
Jade

[Wontworry]

Hey .. what did you do to deserve that Jade ?

There's punishment and then there's PUNISHMENT. Not being able to read or post on the forums is just plain cruel !!!

[Nightstriker]

WW. I personally would not call that a punishment, I would call it a test to see how loyal she is to her dom. Nothing more and nothing less. Thoug if it is a punishment then....well I will be haveing egg on my face sooner than expected.

[Big_Nee]

It certainly is a hard test. Seeing how much Jade adds to the forums I believe it will be tough. I think it is an inspired idea.

[Jadetiger]

The task was hard but not for the reasons you think. I was still able to talk to some of you guys through PM and emails.

WW - It was not a punishment.

Nightstriker - It was not a test of loyalty. Good thing too because I don't like people who play those kinds of minds games. I give my respect, trust and loyalty to a very few people so using them in a mind game is the best way to lose them. Sorry if my domme side is shining through.

Big_Nee - Yes it was hard. I had to deal with some old issues to perform this task.

My master’s task has been performed and I learned how to set a hard limit so the day has been very productive.


Thank You Master
Jade

[Nightstriker]

Jade my words may have been mischosen. But if I were to hand down a task like that it would be to see if she would follow my command, just like with any other task that I would give her. It in essence being a test to see how much she trusts me, how much she loves me, in essence how loyal she is.

I see this task is no diffrent from any of the others that you have done. It has tested the same things that any of your other tasks have tested.

[Ruby]

I see this task is no diffrent from any of the others that you have done. It has tested the same things that any of your other tasks have tested.

I thought this task was very different, because to accomplish it meant that Jade had to NOT do something and that not meant that she didn't have access to information. Even if that information was just new postings or old threads that she might want to read.

To not do is much harder than doing.

* Pink Elephant at ten o'clock! No, wait you can't look. No you can't even think about a pink elephant. Nope, you can't. *

* Hey, you two, no eating of the forbidden fruit. *

You get the idea.

Jade - congrats on turning this into a huge learning experience!

[Chuckdom19]

Jade,
I am impressed and proud of you for being so careful to follow the instructions of your Master.
Every task is hard: the ability to follow an order takes character and desire to please.
I'm glad for you, and hope your relationship with your Master is caring and rewarding.

Lord Chuck

[Jadetiger]

Nightstriker,
I was much too hostile to your response than I should have been. I want to apologize and explain why this task was so hard for me. I have suffer child abuse as well as beatings and rapes from my first husband. All the people who have hurt my daughter and I have been the ones who we should have been able to trust. While you guys say to listen to your gut instinct when determining where a task can go I can’t listen to mine.
This task immediately had be thinking about how my husband isolated me from my family and friends before he started to beat me. The thought that I might let myself fall into a trap where I would be controlled like that again was frightening. I let it happen once and have always feared that it could happen again. I have spent my life making sure I was never in a position where that could occur. That was my gut reaction and I fought with it all night.
I knew my master did not mean for me to feel this way and it was not his fault that I had this reaction. Even if I couldn’t have completed it. I knew he would have supported my decision. It is his patience and understanding that made me try to complete this task for him. So in completing this task I was able take back some things that where stolen from me along time ago.
It was extremely difficult to perform this task with the demons from my past chewing on my ass but with my trust in my master and Ruby’s help the little bastards ended up starving. The fact that I am stubborn as hell and can’t stand to let my past direct my life is also a big help.
What I learned about myself from this task. Besides my family I keep to myself. In truth I put myself in isolation. It felt safe. No friends meant that I had less people I had to worry about hurting me. Please realize I am not a social creature by nature so this wasn’t hard to bear. So my big lesson was that everyone needs friends to help work through their issues and I must thank you all for your support. Sharing yourselves and experiences on the forum had helped me open up.

Ruby and Lord Chuck,
You two have especially given me the strength to stand my ground and face my fears. Confirming that my reactions are normal and that if I need help I can come to you has been a great comfort. It has kept me from running and hiding when things get hard.

Master,
I must thank you again. When we first meet you asked me about my friends and you were shocked when you learned I didn’t have any. I think you were even more shocked that I like it that way. As you already know while I will answer direct questions I do not freely supply information about myself unless it is in the guise of virtual Jade or commanded to do so.
I have reviewed your previous task assignments. The majority of them involve me sharing my feelings and myself with others on the forum. I didn’t realize my lack of friends was such a big concern for you. I am guessing you realized I would need them if I was to succeed in over coming some of my issues and the truth is you were right. I would have run away along time ago without their support.

MY REWARD
You have know idea how excited and honored I was by my master’s gift. And wet. :o I just wanted to share my present. With my master’s permission of course. In the Personal Photography.

[Nightstriker]

I thought this task was very different, because to accomplish it meant that Jade had to NOT do something and that not meant that she didn't have access to information. Even if that information was just new postings or old threads that she might want to read.

To not do is much harder than doing.

The difficulty of the task dose not make it much diffrent in what resolve is being tested. It is just a more difficult task to perform.

[edit because I posted it while Jade posted her last one.]

Jade
I can understand what you have said. I have no doubt that this was increadibly difficult for you, but like you said yourself your Master had no malicious intent in getting you to do it. From what I read your trust and loyalty pushed you through so that you can accomplish the task. He forced you to confront one of your fears and you have come out stronger for it.

Jade do not worry to much about being defensive, I took no insult or the like from your words. Our defenses help to keep us safe.

[Jadetiger]

The difficulty of the task dose not make it much diffrent in what resolve is being tested. It is just a more difficult task to perform.

I do not have a problem with not doing something. In fact my master has not let me play with his toys in forever now. First he has me buy them and when I start to get use to them he takes them away. Poor me. I guess I will have to learn how to use my hands. ;)

[Nightstriker]

*Pats the tora on her head* From what I see you are doing great, and have been a wonderful sub for you Master.



p.s tora is Japanese for tiger.

[Ruby]

Nightstriker said, "The difficulty of the task dose not make it much diffrent in what resolve is being tested. It is just a more difficult task to perform."

Excellent point! Nightstriker, thanks for putting that into perspective for me.

Jade - what a great reward! Whew!

[Jadetiger]

Nightstriker said, "The difficulty of the task dose not make it much diffrent in what resolve is being tested. It is just a more difficult task to perform."

Excellent point! Nightstriker, thanks for putting that into perspective for me.

Jade - what a great reward! Whew!

Yes it was and it meant a lot to me.

[Jadetiger]

I figured out how to post my reward here too.

[Katmandu]

WhooHoo! A Man in the Forum!! Thank you Jade!!!!!!

Also, sorry about everything in your past. You have brought tears to my eyes, not because of what you survived, but because of your ability and desire to continue down this path of BDSM, despite.....

You are a true heroine in my heart, from this day forth! :kiss:

[Darkgirl]

Jadetiger.....
I feel that I could give you a..........
HUGE HUG!!!

You've done so well. You're a big inspiration to us all including myself.
For a long time I've felt that sex was not an enjoyment but an actual punishment and to feel pleasure made me feel so dirty and disgusting. To gain this new experience of being in BDSM now allows me to bring out the
feelings that I 'thought' were impure and release my emotions in a way that I feel 'clean' afterwards.
You have shown such courage and determination. I feel that there is no
way that you should even feel that you have failed in any way. Each time we procceed in a task, we learn something new and the next time, we do it better.
Sorry if I've dribbled on a bit but I had to get that out my system.

[Jadetiger]

Katmandu and Darkgirl,

I have drawn my strength from the caring people on this forum. Without you I would still be in my self-imposed cage hiding from my past and myself. The truth is I am inspired by all of you. You guys are the true heroes. This forum has freed my in a way I didn’t even realize was possible. I know I will get surprised and fall many more times as I move forward. But that doesn’t matter any more because I know if I can’t get up by myself there will be many hands helping me up. You guys are the greatest. The sense of freedom, power and control I have now is a direct result of my having the privilege of knowing you all.

I can’t believe I am crying. I am being such a sap, but if they are happy tears I guess they are okay. You people are making me into a wussy. :iluvu:

Smiles and blows her nose. I guess being all sappy can have its benefits since I get to snuggle with all you guys. Speaking of that.:idea: We can all go to the Gary’s Lap thread I hear they have lots of beanbags. Clothing is optional. :strip1: Darn that would be considering thread highjacking. :(

Pssst We could always highjack GW and bring him back here and have our way with him.:cuffs: Now that would definitely dry my tears and get my juices flowing. :Tasty:

Hugs and Kisses
Wet Slave Jade

[Nightstriker]

*Walks up behind Jade and pokes her shoulder gently.*

[Jadetiger]

*Walks up behind Jade and pokes her shoulder gently.*

Jade kneels. How may I assist you sir?

Wonders why she asked such stupid questions. She is kneeling in front of a man. :o

[GaryWilcox]

Speaking of that.:idea: We can all go to the Gary’s Lap thread I hear they have lots of beanbags. Clothing is optional. :strip1: Darn that would be considering thread highjacking. :(

Pssst We could always highjack GW and bring him back here and have our way with him.:cuffs: Now that would definitely dry my tears and get my juices flowing. :Tasty: It's not me that minds the hijacking... go wild! :D

[Nightstriker]

Jade kneels. How may I assist you sir?

Wonders why she asked such stupid questions. She is kneeling in front of a man. :o


*leans down and quickly licks her nose, then falls back and flops onto a couch.*

[Jadetiger]

*leans down and quickly licks her nose, then falls back and flops onto a couch.*

Thank you sir. I needed that. LOL :)

[Nightstriker]

Can't be serious all the time Jade. For is you do you will accumulate far to much stress, and that can be unhealthy.

So relax and just enjoy the moment.