Desperadosong
09-12-2006, 01:21 PM
"Trust"
A crack in the wall, a glimpse of light, and you stepped right in.
walking through the shattered parts, of a wall that had once been.
Without care or a tender touch, you seemed to kick the parts away.
until they became so far from reach, that they would have to stay.
With trepidation I lent you trust, wich you weilded like a toy,
playing with it not as a man, but more that of a boy.
And when I tried to pull back some trust, guilt I was made to feel,
for nothing that you had ever said, have I found was real.
You stole my trust, you stole my life, you took it without thought,
never thinking a day would come, when you would be caught.
Well, these weeks gone by, have shown me true,
that I was so wrong to have trusted you.
Each day I struggle hoping to find, pieces of that wall,
so I can once again be safe from everyone after all.
I know true, the time will come, it's nearer every day,
when my chin will proudly lift above, and say what I need to say.
Each day I look back over my life, and see one thing is always the same,
the only pain ever felt by this heart, trust was always to blame.
It shouldn't be a dirty word, it shouldn't freeze a grown girl's heart,
but you knew it did that to me, even from the start.
Oh! What a mighty weapon you found within your grasp,
and now I bet your only sorry, you couldn't make it last.
But this grown girl was so much stronger, than you had ever dreamed,
you never though I could walk away, or that's just how it seems.
I revel in your anguish now, your confusion brings a laugh,
as I watch you try to figure out, just how to get me back.
It will never happen, as I am strong but true,
and will always only do, just what I have to do.
You can ponder for your whole life, just how it could have been,
but you will never know for sure, you gave it up back then.
My life is mine once again, trust safley under lock and key,
first I protect my children, and then I protect me.
There is no thought that I still have, of you within my world,
that all stopped when away from you I was harshly furled.
You never really cared for me, I was nothing to you then,
so stop your childish thinking, about what just might have been!
You say that I am heartless, you say I am cold as ice,
but being burned this time by you, made it happen thrice.
I stumbled hard, from the blow you sent, walking in a daze,
those days have now all have passed and gone, as I step along my way.
A warm, bright sun now warms my face, now that I'm wild and free,
a smiling face that I know, you will never see.
4-15-03
Ds
A crack in the wall, a glimpse of light, and you stepped right in.
walking through the shattered parts, of a wall that had once been.
Without care or a tender touch, you seemed to kick the parts away.
until they became so far from reach, that they would have to stay.
With trepidation I lent you trust, wich you weilded like a toy,
playing with it not as a man, but more that of a boy.
And when I tried to pull back some trust, guilt I was made to feel,
for nothing that you had ever said, have I found was real.
You stole my trust, you stole my life, you took it without thought,
never thinking a day would come, when you would be caught.
Well, these weeks gone by, have shown me true,
that I was so wrong to have trusted you.
Each day I struggle hoping to find, pieces of that wall,
so I can once again be safe from everyone after all.
I know true, the time will come, it's nearer every day,
when my chin will proudly lift above, and say what I need to say.
Each day I look back over my life, and see one thing is always the same,
the only pain ever felt by this heart, trust was always to blame.
It shouldn't be a dirty word, it shouldn't freeze a grown girl's heart,
but you knew it did that to me, even from the start.
Oh! What a mighty weapon you found within your grasp,
and now I bet your only sorry, you couldn't make it last.
But this grown girl was so much stronger, than you had ever dreamed,
you never though I could walk away, or that's just how it seems.
I revel in your anguish now, your confusion brings a laugh,
as I watch you try to figure out, just how to get me back.
It will never happen, as I am strong but true,
and will always only do, just what I have to do.
You can ponder for your whole life, just how it could have been,
but you will never know for sure, you gave it up back then.
My life is mine once again, trust safley under lock and key,
first I protect my children, and then I protect me.
There is no thought that I still have, of you within my world,
that all stopped when away from you I was harshly furled.
You never really cared for me, I was nothing to you then,
so stop your childish thinking, about what just might have been!
You say that I am heartless, you say I am cold as ice,
but being burned this time by you, made it happen thrice.
I stumbled hard, from the blow you sent, walking in a daze,
those days have now all have passed and gone, as I step along my way.
A warm, bright sun now warms my face, now that I'm wild and free,
a smiling face that I know, you will never see.
4-15-03
Ds