My slaves writings

[MrJoshua(dhy)]

You all know dhyanna is my owned contract slave and a gifted writer. A lot of her stories gave us all a lot of pleasure reading. Sometimes her writings are not long enough for the story-part of the site. I will share them in this thread.

I do domme other women as well and sometimes they come up with stories or reports of tasks that are so hot to read that I want to share them. I wil do so in this thread too.

Master Joshua

[MrJoshua(dhy)]

Dear Meester,

To say the least, yesterday was more than interesting.

After we spoke online I packed a different skirt and blouse than I was wearing and also took a pair of heels that I hardly ever wear outside – they have ankle straps and about 3 ½" heels. I also packed some rope and my clamps and an anal plug.

Before going back to the office I put the vibrator in my cunt (the one that looks and feels like a cock) – see I’m trying to do better with the language I use to describe things for you Meester <smile> - and it proved to be much more difficult for me than I thought it would as I walked to and from the car and while in the office. The stimulation I felt was not just from the cock in me, it was also from the fact that I had it in me because you told me to use it and both those things together just kept me wriggling and squirming and all I could think about was lasting the 30 minutes so I could take it out!

As soon as I was in the ladies room I took it out and took off my panties as instructed. Yes, I felt naked without them but since I decided to take the cock out I knew I was told I could no longer wear panties. It’s not that I was ‘exposed’, I know no one would see I didn’t have them on, it was just, well, the fact that I had to take them off made me feel ‘exposed’. Wish I could describe that better.

For the rest of the day all I could think about was what I had to do at the casino last night and what I was planning to do in my room after the casino. I fidgeted all day, my nipples were fairly hard and quite sensitive, I felt all those terribly wonderful little bits of excitement in my tummy and down to my clit. I know I was a bit damp and I kept thinking that I should have worn a slip, hoping that I didn’t stain the back of my skirt. I even went to the ladies room a few times to check but I hadn’t so it was sort of okay. However, just knowing that I might have done that made sitting in my chair all day, and having to get up to go to the filing cabinet, etc., all the more horrible and yet so darn stimulating too.

As soon as I finished work I called my sister to make sure my husband was picked up and everything was okay. Then I started to drive to the City but while driving still had the "itch" to touch myself. I can’t do that while driving, much too dangerous, so I did pull into a rest stop that is about 20 minutes away from the city.

I found a parking spot pretty much away from all the other cars and I just lifted my skirt and began touching and fingering myself and playing with my nipples until I came (cummed is not a word, is it? <laughing>). Took me a few minutes to calm down and relax and fix myself, all the time looking around to see if anyone saw what I did (which I was doing while fingering myself too). I don’t believe anyone did see me but just the idea of someone watching me was so terrifying and fantastic!

I am proud to say that I maintained most of my composure the rest of the way to the hotel although I did keep thinking about what I had to do the rest of the night and that was just as terrifying to me as thinking that someone might see what I was doing in the parking lot.

As soon as I got to my room I showered, brushed my hair, did my make-up, and dressed. I took with me a skirt that is a bit too short on me and while not very tight fitting is fairly slutty looking when worn with the blouse and heels I had to wear too.

My blouse is not shear or what you may call "see through" but you can make out the lace of my bra and, yes, my nipples too when they are hard. Suffice it to say they were hard and obviously on display despite my not wanting them to be. To show some cleavage I left the top two buttons open – following your instructions – and I think I sat on the chair for about 20 minutes or so before I finally got enough nerve to go down to the poker room like that. I felt so awful walking down the hall to the elevator, so self-conscious about how I was dressed, how hard it suddenly became to walk in the heels, and how damn wet I was without panties on and thinking about how I was to sit at the table with all the other players. If I had thought about it a few more minutes I think I would have gone back to my room and just stayed there all night…

It’s such a strange thing to be walking around like that, thinking/knowing people are looking at you. I must have turned every shade of red going to the poker room passing so many people, many of whom definitely looked at me (a lot), just wanting to hide myself, thinking about how much of a slut I must have looked, and without a doubt just how damned wet I was getting how there was no hiding my nipples poking through my bra. It was more than I expected, worse than I expected, and yet the submissive feelings I have just bubbled over and despite my feeling so humiliated and embarrassed it was so much better than I expected…

Topping that off I had to wait about half an hour to get a seat at a table. So there I was, stuck standing around like some sort of hooker or something (in my mind anyway) hoping for a seat as quickly as possible so I wouldn’t be on display.

When I finally got to a table there were two players I know from previous times there and the others I didn’t know. The stares I got from all of them were, well, embarrassing. Even the older lady that was at the table looked at me kind of like "what are you dressed up for honey" <laughing now anyway about it>. The men, typical of them, kept looking from time to time, pretending to be looking at the other hands on the table, but even if they really weren’t looking at my breasts, cleavage and nipples (oh god they really really stood out!!!) I thought they were and that just made it that much more difficult for me to play without wriggling and trying to concentrate on my cards.

There were two men sitting alongside me and following your instructions I kept my legs open as much as I dared without just raising my skirt up to my waist and shouting "here I am boys, like what you see?" <sorry, couldn’t resist attempting some humor here because, believe me, I didn’t find it funny last night having to sit like that. I’m sure there were times that you could see my garters and despite all my fidgeting and trying to keep my skirt down as much as possible having to keep my legs open just defeated my attempts. It was extremely humiliating and I know I was blushing so much all the time I played (three hours) that at least I think I did have one advantage, no one knew when I was bluffing as red as I was <laughing>….

When I decided it was time to go back to my room I had to walk back to the elevators and again, felt like I was totally on display and no matter what else I tried to think about (like a train wreck) nothing made me feel any better and I couldn’t stop myself from feeling so horny that if I were not married I would have jumped the first man I saw.

One thing you should know, at Harrah’s, when you leave the any of the table games you have to cash your chips at the cashier’s cage which is on the main casino floor. To do that I would have to walk from the poker room to the casino and then through the casino to cash in. I have to tell you that I decided not to cash in until this afternoon before I left for home. I just couldn’t walk through the casino like that last night. At least this morning and afternoon there were not too many people there yet but it was still quite a trip for me to make since I had to cash in (or save the chips for my next visit) and while I didn’t wear the skirt and blouse from last night I did wear the heels and a skirt and blouse that weren’t so revealing. It didn’t matter though, just walking like that, in public, just makes me blush and I get so excited, and I don’t know why and I really don’t care why… I just know that because you told me to dress like that I did it and that made it so much better (embarrassing/humiliating) than any time I’ve gone out with some rope or something tied on me under my clothes or a plug in me…

In my room last night I didn’t undress until I got up this morning to take a shower. Instead I tied my ankles and knees with the rope I brought with me and put the cock vibrator in my cunt and tied it in with a crotch rope. I opened my blouse some more and brought my nipples out of the cups and put the clamps on them … hurt like hell but I loved it … then I put my panties in my mouth and used the leather cuffs I also brought with me to lock my hands behind my back.

I had turned the vibrator on and I just kept pushing myself on the mattress and rubbing my breasts on the mattress, hurting my nipples, and when I came it was just so wonderful…. I was so horny all night long it couldn’t last long enough for me… and I think I had two more orgasms before I just laid there, on my back, breathing so hard, rubbing my legs together, god it felt so right!!!!

When I recovered I got the keys and unlocked the cuffs (I had already spit the panties out of my mouth) and took the clamps off. My nipples hurt so much when I took them off but the pain, like almost always, went straight down to my cunt/clit and I actually put my fingers in my cunt and didn’t stop until I came again. Oh, it was not as fierce as when I came while my hands were still tied and I had the panties in my mouth (I should have tied them in my mouth but didn’t, I guess because I was just in a rush to get myself tied up and cum), but it was still oh so damn pleasant, you know, like a lot of little orgasms all in a row, not one really so hard as to rock your boat completely, but altogether making you just cum and drift off somewhere???? Gosh I really wish I could tell you how this made me feel much better than I am….

I took the vibrator out and then locked my hands behind my back again (after I went to the bathroom) and slept that way. Legs tied and my hands locked behind my back.

This morning after I got up and untied myself I felt really warm and cuddly and tingly and in the shower I couldn’t stop myself from touching my breasts and cunt and I had a very very nice orgasm. Again, not as earth shattering at the ones I had when I got back to my room last night, but very very nice.

After dressing I used the TV to sign out so I would not have to go to the registration desk again and downstairs near the elevators I left my bag with the bellhop. From there I stopped by the coffee shop and had coffee and a roll and then went back to the poker room (I played until about 2 this afternoon before leaving for home – and I still have my chips because I just put them in my purse when I got up from the table <laughing>…

The skirt I am wearing today is not nearly as short as the one I wore last night and my blouse is not quite as revealing either. However I am still wearing the heels (I love the ankle straps and how I can not take them off until the ankle straps are undone) and, now that I am home, I have taken my bra off too (as per your instructions I am not permitted to wear panties or bra in the house if I am not alone and I am to be naked if I am alone … right now I am not alone … but I do hope this is correct …yes/no Meester?), and I think I am just about finished with telling you about yesterday and this morning.

I did not touch myself today – yet – but I do want to … I will just have to wait now until I can get outside later tonight (I am going to try your suggestion of going in my backyard where no one will see me so that I may touch myself and cum outside – if I go late enough tonight I am pretty sure that I will have enough "privacy" between two trees we have near the back of the yard … I will also put my panties in my mouth again or use the ball or cock gag … I’m not sure which yet….

I don’t know if I’ve made a lot of sense with everything I wanted to tell you and describe but I hope you don’t have too much trouble following all this.

One last thing though, I really can’t begin to thank you enough for "forcing me" to do this. It was like putting all the cherries on top of the cake for me … <VERY BIG SMILE>

Your kutje

[MrJoshua(dhy)]

kutje,

Master has asked that I write and tell you a story =). Sit back and relax and lets have some fun!

You are tied to a hard wooden table by your wrists and ankles. The table is tilted a little. There is a bright light on your body but the rest of the room is in shadows. I walk in with Master and he has a seat at the end of the table where he can see your shaved cunt and your tits because of the angle of the table. I get Master a drink then I turn to you. I smile and stroke your face lightly. You tremble in nervousness and a little embarrassment as you realize Master and I are dressed and you are totally naked. I kiss you softly and quickly then I move and stroke your nipples lightly. Capturing your nipples, one in my mouth and one in my fingers, I work the trapped nipples alternating pinching hard then biting. You moan in pain and pleasure as the pinpoint bite is relieved by an area pinch. Your body writhes on the table and I release your nipples and attach clamps to them. You moan and I grab one tit and encircle it with rope 10 times then do the same to the other tit. They are now red and swollen and full. You moan and I smile knowing that the rope is not tight enough to cause real pain.

As Master watches I lightly flog your belly and thighs. The skin barely turns pink but you moan again and whisper for me to let you cum. I smile and place my finger to your lips.

"Not yet kutje" I say softly.

My hand slides down your stomach and my fingers gently brush your cunt lips then stroke your inner thigh. I kiss you deeply, my tongue explores your mouth softly and my fingers brush your thigh again as I break the kiss and lick your neck, then BITE it, then lick it again soothing the pain as you gasp and cry out. I lick my way back to your clamped nipples biting randomly as I go then I pull the clamps with my teeth. You cry out again and as you do my fingers again brush your cunt lips and one softly slides in and grazes your clit.

"aaaaaaaagh" you moan loudly.

I see Master watching from his comfy chair and stroking his cock as he smiles.

I growl back at your moan and it is a growl full of lust and you whimper softly and lean your head back and relax your body. My finger slides into your slit and I brush your clit softly then a little harder, then softly again. You whimper and try to rub your legs together to stop the finger tease. I suddenly slide 2 fingers into your wet cunt and you gasp and cry out yet again as my fingers dip in deeply to you. My thumb is on your clit, rubbing hard as I slide three fingers in now. You thrust your hips gently into my hand, back and forth as I finger you fast and deep. You are moaning almost non stop and whispering for me to please let you cum.

"Tell me what you want pet," I say loudly.

Your face red with humiliation you finally shout "can i pleaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaase cummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm goddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.... pleaaaaaaaaasssssssseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!"

I lean over and grab your clit in my soft lips...sucking it and flicking it with my tongue.

"CUM SLUT!!!! Cum for me NOW!" I command.

You buck straight up and cum HARD screaming as you do. I bite your clit as you cum and as your hips fall back to the floor I am sliding four fingers into you. When your breathing slows and you stop moaning I hold my wet hand to your lips.

"Lick it" I say simply.

I smile as you take my fingers in your mouth and lick them completely clean. As you relax more I reach up and jerk the clamps off of your swollen nipples without opening them. You cum HARD again, thrusting your hips in the air as you scream then collapse back onto the table in a heap. I rub your nipples then remove the ropes and massage your tits while you recover. While you rest I go to Master and kneel in front of him. He grabs my hair and forces his cock deep into my throat and fucks my throat deep and without mercy, enjoying my choking. He holds my face to his stomach as I feel his cock swell and he erupts into my throat. I swallow then lick him clean.

I hope you enjoyed this as much as i did kutje =).


sletje

[MrJoshua(dhy)]

I am all alone at night, its a really dark stormy night. I had a very slow
lazy day at home alone so i decide to start cleaning. I tidy up here and
there getting everything straightened up i go in my closet and make sure all
my toys are placed back in the box they belong in but i forget to put the
lid back on or to close the closet door...i go into the kitchen and open the
back door...its is very hot in the kitchen. i start to do the dishes and i
hear something...banging..i look at the door and the screen door is open
swinging in the wind and rain i go to close it and.....SMACK!! i am smacked
in the face and shoved on the floor..before i relize it a man is straddeling
me and someone is closing and locking the door i feel my hair being grabbed
and tugged forcing me to my feet. i am pushed up against the counterand i
begin to tug and swing my hands i feel the other person grab my hands as the
tall dark man has a handful of my hair and his other hand around my neck i
look and it is a long dark haired woman holding my hands i try to scream but
my air flow is cut off even more the man tells me "shut the fuck up you
little bitch, we will do what we want to you no matter how hard you
fight...and the harder you fight the worse it will be for you..so i suggest
you shut up" he grabs a knife from the cutting board and holds it to my neck
i hear the woman next.."mmmmm yes make her bleed, i want to taste the fear
dripping from her" i tiny cut is made on my neck and the woman begins to
suck hard brusing my skin and licking the blood off then she kisses me hard
biting my lip and drawing more blood i begin to sob and she makes fun of me
calling me a stupid little baby cunt and mocking me they drag me to the
bedroom and i tug and fight the whole way i am throne on the bed. they see
my box of naughty stuff.....ropes handcuffs dildos vibs a strap on and a
gag. they start to laugh at me saying " oh she likes this the dirty little
whore" "well dont worry slut we will definatly tie you up and force you to
be our little bitch" i hear the man say "here Daina take the gag..you know
this little whore is gonna be screaming in a min" Daina strattles me and
gets right in my face she says " but James i wanna hear her scream" she
tears off my shirt and lets my big tits free as he pulls my skirt up and
pulls my legs apart Daina sits on my face facing James as he slides up
inside of me...he is a very large man and he stretches my pussy wide "You
are wet you stupid little whore, you like this dont you" he starts smaking
my thighs and Daina is smacking and twisting my tits as she pisses all over
my face " drink it all you dum little slut or i will hurt your ass sooooo
bad" a little dribbles down my chin onto the pillow " what is that??? i
warned you" she flips me over and then hogtie me James lays down on his back
and and pulls me on top of him shoving his dick deep up my cunt he grabs my
neck and begins and begins to squeeze. i feel Daina crawl on top of m and i
try to look back...she has the strap on on and she begins to poke at my ass
i start to pull but i cant move and it goes straight in tearing and
stretching it and i try to scream out but James squeezes harder laughing
seeing the tear down my face i feel them both pumping in and out hard and
fast tearing and strtching me just as i am about to pass out he lets go and
they both pull out he pushes my on my back and then onto the floor they make
me kneel...James stands in front of me holding my head and raping my throat
Daina stands behid me spanking my ass hard whispering in my ear " you like
that dirty cock in your mouth dont u slut, u love ur dirty little ass
throbbing and your throat and pussy being stretched huh bitch? u better
swallow it cunt" James cums deep in the back of the throat and i swallow it
up greedily as my ass is beat till it is raw and red. i pass out on the
floor and when i wake up i am in bed untied and i stare at the ceiling....i
miss them already

[MJs dhyanna]

A Play session in the chat room dungeon

MJs_dhyanna is going to Dungeon
MJs_dhyanna entered the room.
You are in Dungeon.
There are 2 people in the room.
xo~clover~xo entered the room.
MrJoshua(dhy): MJs_dhyanna: I told her I am a bit tired but that you would love to get your hands on her
MJs_dhyanna: MrJoshua(dhy): you are Right Master
MrJoshua(dhy): MJs_dhyanna: if you can make her cum three more times you will reduce the CR with one day
MJs_dhyanna: MrJoshua(dhy): smiles yes Sir
xo~clover~xo: MJs_dhyanna: what is he right about?
MJs_dhyanna: that I want to get my hands on you
MJs_dhyanna: CR is cum restriction
xo~clover~xo: ohh hehe
MrJoshua(dhy): xo~clover~xo: CR is cum restrain, mistress can not cum till sunday
xo~clover~xo: MrJoshua(dhy): why Master
MJs_dhyanna: xo~clover~xo: it is punishment
MJs_dhyanna: xo~clover~xo: ever been with a woman pet?
o~clover~xo: no i havent...i have always wanted to tho
MJs_dhyanna: xo~clover~xo: mmmmmm
MJs_dhyanna: pull your nipples for me
xo~clover~xo: yes Miss
xo~clover~xo: mmmm
xo~clover~xo: they r kinnda sore still
MJs_dhyanna: xo~clover~xo: nods
MJs_dhyanna: what toys do you have?
xo~clover~xo: i have a vib a dildo and a bullet
MJs_dhyanna: xo~clover~xo: ummm you are a little sex slut
MJs_dhyanna: do you have any rope?
xo~clover~xo: yes i do about 5 feet
MJs_dhyanna: get it
xo~clover~xo: yes Ma'am
xo~clover~xo: brb
xo~clover~xo: ok i have everything
MJs_dhyanna: good girl
xo~clover~xo: smiles
MJs_dhyanna: take the laptop to the floor and kneel as you type
xo~clover~xo: yes Miss
MJs_dhyanna: ready?
xo~clover~xo: yes i am ready\
MJs_dhyanna: shove the dildo in your slut cunt
xo~clover~xo: oh yes Miss
MJs_dhyanna: make sure your knees are spread wide
xo~clover~xo: ok
xo~clover~xo: mmmmmm
MJs_dhyanna: in?
xo~clover~xo: yes
MJs_dhyanna: that didn't take long....are you a wet, big cunted whore?
xo~clover~xo: yes Miss
MJs_dhyanna: tell me that
xo~clover~xo: i am a wet big cunted whore Miss
MJs_dhyanna: good pet
xo~clover~xo: smiles
MJs_dhyanna: if I ask you what you are that is what you tell me
xo~clover~xo: yes Miss
MJs_dhyanna: pull your nipples again
MJs_dhyanna: hard
xo~clover~xo: ohhhhh
MJs_dhyanna: harder
xo~clover~xo: owwww
MJs_dhyanna: how big are your slut tits?
xo~clover~xo: c34 rather large nipples
MJs_dhyanna: nods
MJs_dhyanna: what are you?
xo~clover~xo: looks over at Master and smiles... i am a wet big cunted whore
MrJoshua(dhy): xo~clover~xo: indeed you are
MJs_dhyanna: xo~clover~xo: nods
MJs_dhyanna: tie the rope around the base of your little tit
MJs_dhyanna: one time and one tit
xo~clover~xo: yes Ma'am
MJs_dhyanna: hold that tied tit up as high as you can
xo~clover~xo: ooowwww
MJs_dhyanna: take the end of the rope and wrap it once around your neck
xo~clover~xo: ok
MJs_dhyanna: now hold up the other tit too and tie it off
xo~clover~xo: ok
MJs_dhyanna: now drop your tits
xo~clover~xo: ohhh
MJs_dhyanna: sit with your back straight
MJs_dhyanna: tell me what you feel
xo~clover~xo: i cant..i cna hardly breathe
MJs_dhyanna: xo~clover~xo: can't or won't
MJs_dhyanna: imagine it is masters hand
xo~clover~xo: nods..i can miss
MJs_dhyanna: get it as tight as you can without passing out
MJs_dhyanna: wet?
xo~clover~xo: dripping
MJs_dhyanna: shove the vibe in your ass.....on high
xo~clover~xo: yes miss
xo~clover~xo: ohhh
xo~clover~xo: its sore
MJs_dhyanna: good
MJs_dhyanna: what are you?
xo~clover~xo: i am a wet big cunted whore
MJs_dhyanna: say it again and say it out laud
MJs_dhyanna: again
xo~clover~xo: i am a wet big cunted whore
MJs_dhyanna: need to cum slut?
xo~clover~xo: please
MJs_dhyanna: dig your nails into your clit and lean back to tighten the rope
xo~clover~xo: hhhhhhhhhhh
MJs_dhyanna: CUM
xo~clover~xo: oooooooo
xo~clover~xo: omg
MJs_dhyanna: grab your bullet and hold it on your clit
MJs_dhyanna: on high
xo~clover~xo: o god
MJs_dhyanna: CUM FUCKING CUNT
xo~clover~xo: mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
xo~clover~xo: oohhh
MJs_dhyanna: AGAIN
xo~clover~xo: mmmmmmmmmmm
MJs_dhyanna: CUM until you cannot cum again
MJs_dhyanna: lean back again tighten masters hand
xo~clover~xo: mmmmmmmmmmmmmm
MJs_dhyanna: as we fuck your big wet cunt
xo~clover~xo: omg
xo~clover~xo: please
xo~clover~xo: i gotta stop
MJs_dhyanna: NO CUM
xo~clover~xo: mmmmmmmmmmm
MJs_dhyanna: done?
xo~clover~xo: omg i squitred
MJs_dhyanna: slut
xo~clover~xo: yes Miss
MJs_dhyanna: how many times did your nasty cunt cum?
xo~clover~xo: i think 4 Miss
xo~clover~xo: oh its throbbing
xo~clover~xo: can i take thm out Miss
MJs_dhyanna: yes pet
MJs_dhyanna: good girl
xo~clover~xo: ty Miss
xo~clover~xo: i have nver bn this wet
MrJoshua(dhy): xo~clover~xo: you did well hoertje
xo~clover~xo: ty Master

[MrJoshua(dhy)]

Dear Mistress,

I loved the way you have described the torments you would put me through.

The idea of being tied to that board, totally on display and unable to hide myself or stop you from doing what you want to me is something that I think about many many times when I am tied.

As I’ve told Meester, I’ve never been with another woman but have thought about it several times since I’ve begun tying myself up. The images that you’ve given me in this story is so unbelievably erotic for me and I am still visualizing your doing these things to me.

I love how you would bite my nipples and tie my breasts. I can see myself wriggling and begging you to stop from the pain but not wanting you to stop. Stroking my cunt and clit, putting your fingers in my cunt while rubbing my clit with your thumb was "easy" to imagine as I was putting my fingers in my cunt while reading your letter to me.

I saw you biting my neck and then licking and kissing it while working your way down along my tummy, ever so slowly nearing my cunt and I could feel my clit swell thinking about how you would take it in your mouth and suck it and nip it and force me to squirm and plead with you not to stop. Oh how I imagined being so damned frustrated when you would stop before teasing me more and more.

As for the flogging, well, once again that is something I have experienced only in "my mind’s eye" when I have tied myself up. I have no idea how that would feel, but I can imagine that the pain from the whip would (just as from the clamps) go straight to my clit/cunt. Yes, I know I would beg for you to stop whipping me, I know it would hurt, but I also imagine that my pleas would only encourage you to do more and that tied as I am, so open to your touch, I would have no choice but to accept anything you do and that is so amazingly stimulating to me. I can’t really fully describe just how much but I can tell you that even now, while writing this letter to you, I still imagine feeling the strokes of your whip and, well, when you pulled the clamps off my nipples that just sent me over the edge and I not only had my fingers in my cunt while reading what you were doing to me I had them in my cunt just now while once again thinking about it. Making this a very long letter, time wise, to write <very big smile>…

I also loved the way you would make me beg you to let me cum and deny it to me until you chose to make me cum. The frustration of being controlled so completely haunts me almost constantly these days and your letter describing that to me just adds fuel the fire so to speak.

I would love to experience being so totally and completely at the mercy of someone such as yourself or Meester, to shout "can I pleaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaase cummmmmmmmmmm…..", knowing that only my Mistress or Meester may let me cum, I have no control, and unless it pleases you, I will not cum. Oh yes, that is something I dream about…

The humiliation of cleaning your fingers and hand with my tongue and lips I find extremely stimulating as well. Kissing the hand that tortured me, licking fingers that twisted and pulled my nipples, paying homage to the hands that gave me such pain when the clamps were pulled from my nipples…

and then, after having brought me over the brink and near total exhaustion I am forced to watch you suck Master, taste him, swallow his cum, and then, while you lick him clean I am imagining myself watching you, jealous of not having the privilege of touching Meester, forced to only watch and wonder what else you may do to me.

Yes, Mistress, you painted a wonderful picture for me to look at. I still squirm sometimes thinking about it. even today, in the car while driving home, I thought of how you would do those things to me. How much more would you do to me, or would you just leave me, tied and perhaps gagged and blindfolded, while going to bed with Meester… yes, all sorts of things have whirled around in my head because of what you have written and I can’t thank you, Mistress, enough.

Yours,
kutje

[MrJoshua(dhy)]

Dear Meester,

Finally I think things are starting to get back to normal, well fairly normal anyway… the Dr. says hubby may be able to start having sex next week (and then see my shaved pussy)… by the way I find that I must shave every other day to keep myself "bare"… is that normal?

Anyway, that’s what I do to keep myself shaved smooth for my Meester and while I know you like my cunt to be this way it still looks so silly like this…however, I do admit that now that I’m sort of used to it being shaved I am starting to feel a bit more stimulated whenever anything brushes against my cunt…is that normal too? Or is it only in my mind?

I’ve not worn panties now for, what(?), three weeks??? It’s been cold in the mornings and I can swear that I now have a new meaning to winning the cold war! <laughing> Seriously, I’ve only worn jeans a few times since your instructions to me (when I’ve done yard work and other things like that) and while I would think I would get use to the feeling of not wearing them I have not… in fact not wearing panties makes me very self-conscious and it also makes me feel a bit odd when I sit … I don’t know if the purpose of making me go without panties is to embarrass or humiliate me but I do know that like shaving my cunt for you it is oddly stimulating and I find myself wanting to touch myself much more often than I would have ever imagined….

So far this week (again, now that things are sort of getting back to normal) I have limited myself to cumming only once each day. This morning was in the shower, I just couldn’t stop myself while soaping my breasts and cunt… god it was so good!!!!

I also know that I will masturbate later tonight because I was "finally" able to make myself cum outside last night in the back yard (if you recall that was one of your suggestions Meester).

After hubby was asleep I went out through the garage (which is on the other side of the house) at about midnight. I was wearing a nightgown (and nothing else) but since he was asleep I knew that I was not allowed to wear clothes (whenever possible in the house) so I took the nightgown off in the garage before going outside. If I thought it was chilly in the mornings it was very chilly last night (I think the weather report was for the high 50’s last night) and my nipples, although hard by the time I took my nightgown off, became very hard and pointy and I had goose bumps all over them and the rest of me too…

From the side door in the garage I am able to stay close to the house and go to a small area that is near the rear of the yard. Our fence is five feet tall and while it really doesn’t offer much privacy during the day it does give some privacy at night, especially if some naked lady inches her way along the fence and doesn’t just walk out through the yard … at least I think it does <laughing>

I went to the corner of the yard and leaned back into the corner of the fence. I kept looking around to see if anyone was looking at me but there really was no way I could tell so I just kept faith that I was safe and unable to be seen. I was shaking from both the chilly night air and from the way I reacted when I took my nipples in my fingers and started pulling and twisting them. I pulled as hard as I could and very quickly realized that I had to keep my big mouth shut because I had started to make a lot of noise (moans and groans).

I guess I should tell you now, if I haven’t already told you, that I get quite loud when I am having sex and especially when I am being stimulated and even more so when I cum.

Anyway, I tried to keep as quiet as I could and since the police weren’t called I guess I was partially successful, however, the next time I do this there is no doubt that I will need to do something about stifling myself… I’m being serious about this, it was torture trying to stay as quiet as I could while pulling my nipples and then, when I put my fingers in my cunt and rubbed my clit oh my god!!!! I know I screeched and I had to just stop myself before I made too much noise. That may sound funny to you but believe me it wasn’t funny to me. I thought one of my neighbors had to have heard me and I just froze trying to stay still with my fingers in my cunt … not really possible with the way I was feeling then but I did try to stay still…all that accomplished was to make me want to do more to myself and despite my fear of making too much noise I started twisting my nipple harder and rubbing my clit more… when I came it was such a strong wave of emotion that washed over me I actually started to squat in the corner. And, despite all my fears I just stayed like that until I finally calmed down enough and got enough strength to stand up again.

I put my fingers in my mouth to taste myself and I wanted to do it again. I know I was not supposed to but I rationalized that you had told me that if I did it outside then I could have a second orgasm that same day so I took advantage of my rationalization as soon as I got back into the garage. To quiet myself I put some of the nightgown into my mouth as a gag and then, leaning against the door to the yard I put my fingers in my cunt again and started twisting my nipples again. It was not nearly as overwhelming as when I came in the yard but I have to tell you, Meester, it was quite a wonderful set of orgasms… a couple of really really big ones and lots of little ones that followed… sort of like little whispers reminding me of how my cunt needed to cum for you… I know I keep saying this but I hope I am describing all this so that both you and Mistress understand what I was experiencing…

Right now it is late, about 11:45 PM, and since hubby is sleeping in the room next to the den I am not naked, I am wearing (another) nightgown. However as you have instructed I am not wearing panties.

Once I send this letter to you I will check to see if you or Mistress are online. If you are not I am planning to go upstairs to my bedroom where I’ve left some rope and a gag and one of my vibrators in my dresser. I will only do a simple tie (just in case) but having the ropes and gag on (just thinking about tying myself up is driving me bonkers right now) and I want to take advantage of a "good thing" before any of the rules change <very big smile>

Tomorrow morning I am going to go to the flea market (that’s where I am able to buy "things" sometimes – like men’s belts for a couple of dollars, etc. <smile>) and since it is an open market in a large dirt field I will be wearing jeans and sneakers as it is totally impractical to wear a skirt and heels there. Some time tomorrow I will write and let you know what I have been up to and how things are going.

In the meantime (and by cc of this letter) I hope you and Mistress are well and I remain…

Your kutje

[MrJoshua(dhy)]

Have you ever seen someone absentmindedly running their fingers through their hair, or thumping their fingers on a table, or tapping a pencil on a desk, well, this afternoon while I was laying on the coach watching TV I was absentmindedly tapping my clit and by the time I realized what I was doing I was upset because (1) I was trying to avoid any direct stimulation because I’m not allowed to cum and (2) by the time I realized what I was doing my clit was throbbing and my hips seemed to move on their own for more…

I wasn’t naked and I certainly wasn’t actually "thinking" about much at all, but there I was, tapping away through my skirt with my hips slowly moving and my wanting more and more when I realized what I was doing and had to stop myself before it was too late.

Hubby is taking a shower in the small bathroom on this level of the house so I'm not naked or anything like that because he will be back in just a few minutes. Yet here I was, just flicking my clit and getting hornier by the minute…

I hope he is feeling "up to it" tonight because I really don’t want to spend the rest of the day/night thinking about this.

I’ve been much more into masturbation since I started tying myself up, as I’ve told you, but now, today, knowing that I am not permitted to cum for 48 hours (which I guess is down to about 40 hours from the time I read your instructions/punishment) it is becoming more and more important to me to cum. I wish I could just go and tie myself up with a vibrator in my cunt and a plug up my ass, gagged, blindfolded and cum and cum and cum…

I know it is more mental than anything else right now … well maybe not all mental <laughing> … but I am beginning to think this punishment is going to be more difficult than I imagined it would be…

I just heard the bathroom door open so he should be back in a few minutes. Got to go…

Maybe if we put in a really bad movie it would help … but then again I wouldn’t pay attention to it so that might make things worse…

Your kutje,

[MrJoshua(dhy)]

Dear Meester,

Going to work yesterday was, to say the least, an experience unlike any other you have forced on me so far. Maybe I shouldn’t have told you that I generally get quite loud when I cum but then again, if I didn’t tell you then I would not be fulfilling my end of the bargain with my Meester. What I didn’t expect was how you so quickly took advantage of what I told you and how your wonderfully evil mind works.

As I always must do when going to work or anywhere else outside the house I wore a skirt and blouse, bra, garter belt and stockings and heels (not, of course, my 4" heels) as well as a pair of panties that I was permitted to wear for the first time in nearly three weeks only because I needed them to hold my ball gag in my cunt. Your generosity overwhelms me Meester…

I never would have thought of doing such a thing and when you told me that I had to do that and then, in the afternoon, go to the ladies room and make myself cum with the gag taken out of my cunt and strapped in my mouth all I could do was sit, reading your instructions, imagining myself having to do that, and wondering if I would be able to while at the same time "wanting to"

After dressing I went down to the basement and took the gag from the closet and cleaned it pretty thoroughly in the sink in the laundry room. Standing by the sink I lifted my skirt, pulled my panties down, and with the gag in my hand slowly started to put it in my cunt. All the time thinking how I got myself into this position – that is, imagining you standing in front of me, watching me – and despite my reservations about putting the ball in my cunt I started to slide it in and it was not as easy as I thought it would be. Don’t get me wrong, it wasn’t as difficult or painful as putting my anal plug in my ass, not at all, but it did feel big and felt so "odd" to be putting a ball in my cunt that I just had trouble doing it (perhaps knowing that later I had to put the ball in my mouth helped make it a bit difficult too?).

When it was finally in I held it there and pushed it in a little bit further so I could reach down with my other hand and pull my panties up. While adjusting my panties it immediately began to drop and I had to pull the panties up a bit higher on my waist than I am accustomed to and that sort of felt like it would hold the ball in my cunt. The straps for the gag I tried to put inside my panties too and managed to get them going off towards both sides of my thighs sticking up towards my waist.

Immediately after taking my hands away I thought the damn thing was going to drop out and I started to put my legs together to stop it. The ball felt HUGE and I really didn’t think I was going to be able to keep it in my cunt and walk or sit or stand or even drive to work. I tried taking a few steps and while I was deathly afraid of it falling out I was also oh so conscious about how I was walking, or trying to walk, with my thighs pressed as close together as possible like that.

Imagine someone with a bad back, possibly wearing a brace too, that’s how I think I looked trying to keep my legs together while walking.

My very first obstacle was only about ten feet away from me and I didn’t realize it until I got to the staircase to go back up to the family room. It’s only 5 steps but I have to tell you, Meester, they had suddenly become steeper than ever as I tried to get on the first step. The first thought crossing my mind was to take the ball out of my cunt and not do this at all. The second thought was to stand on the step with my legs together for the rest of the day, not very a practical idea. The third thought was to take it out and put it back in when I got to work. And the fourth and final thought was to just keep it in my cunt, as told, or face possible consequences from Meester. I elected the fourth option and despite the constant feeling of the ball going to fall out of my cunt it did stay in. Although there were a few times when walking during the day it was only "in" a little bit and didn’t drop to the floor because of my panties holding it up. Now that gave me two more things to think about.

First, how do I put it back in my cunt so no one in the office would notice (like if I were sitting at my desk and casually put my hand up my skirt to push it in – not very likely!), answer, go to the ladies room, walking like some penguin in pain, then walk back to my desk like a penguin in less pain. Maybe this analogy isn’t the best but that’s how I thought I must have looked walking with the damn thing in my cunt like that.

Second, if the ball falls out and hits the floor how do I explain that I just gave birth to a red ball with straps … I don’t … I just run out of the office and never return.

I tried sitting as much as I could during the day, and although I did have to go to the file cabinets a couple of times I tried to time it so that there were fewer people around and as casually as I could I hobbled over and did what I had to do. I think hobbled is a much better way to describe how I was "walking" Meester (because the steps I was taking were no more than a few inches at best, just as when I hobble myself in the house with rope or chain).

On top of all this I know or at believed everyone was looking at me every time I had to get up and do something and especially when I got to the office. I know because a couple of people asked if I was all right because of the way I was walking. I told them I was fine, just a little stiff from exercising (my thigh muscles – but I didn’t tell them that).

Meester, as embarrassed as I felt (I know I turned all sorts of shades of red – the way I was walking, coupled with the fact that I was so "turned on" and "horny" didn’t help either) my biggest fear (and stimulation) came from knowing that in a couple of hours I had to go to the ladies, put the gag in my mouth and use my fingers to cum for you.

At about 3 PM I couldn’t take it anymore. I had to cum. So off I went to the ladies room and, of course, with the way my luck was going there were two other women in the stalls next to the one I had to use. That doesn’t sound right Meester, I don’t mean there were two women one stall together, just that they were in two stalls alongside mine (damn now I’m confused <laughing>).

Anyway, as carefully as I could I raised my skirt and lowered my panties so I could grab hold of the gag. It was, to say the least, wet!

Now, I’ve tasted myself in the past, so this was not new to me, however, I had never tasted myself all over a ball gag and this was new. I wanted to wait for the other ladies to leave but I just couldn’t. I wanted to put the gag in my mouth and when I held it up to my lips and started opening my mouth my tongue immediately began to lick it. So different from what I’ve tasted like in the past. The rubber of the ball mixed with my own cunt juices. Pleasant? Yes. Erotic? OH YES!

I sat there for an eternity … waiting for the other ladies to leave and praying no one else would come in….

When they were finally gone all I could think about was putting my fingers in my cunt and twisting my nipples as hard as I could. Immediately my legs went wide open and stiff, I began to push my fingers in and out and twisted my nipple so hard I started to scream (as softly as I could) … the ball gag does not silence anyone, if anything it makes some words sort of understandable but most not understandable (at least for me) … there was no way I could keep going and not making so much noise that someone even passing the bathroom wouldn’t hear me.

I had to put my hand over my mouth while I kept pushing my fingers in my cunt and rubbing my clit with the back of my thumb. I know I was getting loud but not nearly as loud as if I didn’t cover my mouth with my hand and when I came, which didn’t take very long, I felt like my whole world was just one big orgasm … one giant cum … and as I tried to relax and come back down to earth all those little whispery cums that I get started and I just leaned back against the wall/pipe/whatever and went off somewhere that I go to when I get like that. It’s a place that I feel like I’m drifting and don’t really know what else is happening around me…

When I finished and was calm enough to get back to work I still had the problem of what to do with the gag. I wasn’t going to put it back in my cunt and I didn’t have my purse with me. So I did the next best thing, I pulled my panties up and just plopped the gag in them. What I didn’t realize was that when I started walking again the ball was rubbing on my cunt and despite the orgasm I just had it kept me feeling as if I were being constantly teased. And this may, at that point, been the worst thing for me, because I knew I wasn’t allowed to cum again and I knew that it would just be a constant reminder of needing to cum again.

While washing my hands I kept thinking that I should take it out of my panties and somehow just carry it back in my hands to my desk and put it in my purse. But before I could decide what else to do someone else, the woman that works opposite me, came into the bathroom. She said hi before going into one of the stalls and I said (I think?) hi while turning a very very deep shade of red, I felt so flushed and so damned horny!

At my desk I couldn’t sit with the ball lying against my cunt. I had to get it out of my panties. So, after looking around to make sure no one was looking, I put my hand under my skirt and as quickly as I could I tried to take the gag out so I could put it in my purse.

Now I believe there is something called "Murphy’s Law", anything that can go wrong will, etc., and of course something did happen.

One of the straps caught on the seam of my panties and I couldn’t just pull it out. I had to put my hand up my skirt again (further this time to get to the strap) and release it from where it was caught. When I did get it out of my panties I put it in my purse, closed it, and then crammed it into my desk drawer as fast as I could. All the time trying to look to see if anyone was able to see what I was doing. The embarrassment of possibly being seen, caught, was so awful and so stimulating I can’t describe to you adequately how I was feeling.

I spent the rest of the day looking around the office and at the clock trying to make time go faster but of course all it did was seem to go slower. And all I did was sit there (I didn’t do any more work) hoping to just get out of the office and into my car where I would be safely away from all those prying eyes that I imagined looking at me.

Of course no one knew what I had done, or if anyone did know there was no indication from anyone that they knew. But the fact that I was feeling so scared and so excited just made me want to get of there as quickly as I could. I could feel my nipples getting harder all the time (at least they felt like they were) and I could feel my clit thumping (can a clit "thump"? … the way I was feeling I think it can … in fact I know it can … many times when I’m tied up and can’t touch myself I have felt my clit quiver and feel how it gets swollen … this was no different and to make matters worse I also knew that I was not permitted to cum again for the rest of the day!!!

My drive home was not pleasant, in the past, before I met you, if I had gotten myself so worked up before getting in the car I would simply park somewhere away from other cars and masturbate. However, not being permitted to cum just made the drive home so much worse for me. I wanted to cum, I needed to cum, and I was not allowed to cum. Is that what they call a cumdungeon? <I know it’s not, I just made up the word … but I think it’s appropriate, no? laughing>…

For the rest of the day/evening I kept going back to the having the gag in my cunt, making myself cum in the bathroom, how I had to walk with my thighs squeezed together thinking it was the only way to keep the gag in my cunt, how I felt about the possibility of being discovered in the bathroom, how I had to cover my mouth while sticking my fingers in my cunt, how I wanted to just do it all over again in the car before driving home, how I sat in the car in my garage desperately trying not to touch my cunt or nipples, how I spent the whole evening thinking about how badly I needed to cum and how I fell asleep with my hand cupping my cunt, so tired by that time, so damn horny…

So far Meester, yesterday I came closest to cumming more than I am permitted. It was a most difficult day/night. I hope I can continue like this because I want to please you, I also want to continue not cumming more than permitted because I am extremely fearful of what you may have me do as a punishment. I don’t know if wanting to serve to please you and wanting to serve because of my fear of your punishments are different or not, maybe they same (in some ways), and maybe I might not do what I am told at times because I want to be punished … does any of this make any sense to you Meester?

Regardless of whether or not my last rambling made any sense, I can tell you that when I was kneeling, naked, in front of you this morning, all these things went through my mind and all I wanted to do was cum again. But you didn’t give me permission (which I thought you were almost going to do – so much for a subs thinking she can think what her Meester is going to do <smile>), instead you had another little task for me and I must find the time to write to you about it later.

I also want to thank you for permitting me "an extra cum" today Meester… your kutje is most appreciative of Meester’s generosity.

Your kutje

[MJs dhyanna]

A fantasy from Masters dirty sletje

Let me give you a little background on this fantasy. First I am in week 3 of cum restriction and am so horny that I think I will explode if I see a naked truth. For those of you that follow my thread in the general knowlege area (My Cum Diary) you know it has been idle more than used lately. But I whine and digress....giggles.

I teach ADULTS at night at a vocational school (I teach medical assisting-anatomy and physiology and lab procedures) and tonight one of my students wanted me too take a look at a boil she had gotten on her groin area over the weekend. This particular young lady is 20 years old, large dark eyes, NICE body and a very sexual creature. She proceeded to drop her jeans and it took every ounce of professionalism to look at the boil, give an opinion and allow her to put her jeans on without following through on the fantasy that flashed into my head. That FANTASY follows:

I look at the boil with detached professionalism but Kelly can tell what I am thinking. My hands shake as I touch the area gently and my tongue sneaks out and licks my lips in spite of my self and Kelly laughs softly.

"You like my cunt?" she asks boldly.

I blush and try to look non commital as I say "looks like any other Sweetie"

A funny look crosses her face and her shoulders square. I suddenly feel intimidated by this girl, something that I have never felt with a younger woman. I smile at her and start to get ready to leave the classroom we are in. She sits on my desk facing me and spreads her legs, her jeans in a heap on the floor. I look at her trembling.

"What are you doing Kelly?" I ask with as much authority as my shaking voice will provide.

"Proving to you that not all cunt is the same. You know you want to lick it....go on" As she speaks the words she moves her thong to the side and strokes her beautiful shaved cunt.

I moan and try to look away. A slap to my face brings me back facing her. I stare at her and she slaps me again. My eyes drop to the floor and her cunt juice coated fingers are pushed into my mouth. I suck on them and whimper. Kelly smiles then shoves them in so deep I gag. She forces me to my knees which brings my face right to her cunt. I gasp and try to look away and she picks up a ruler from my desk and slaps my face with it hard. My eyes fill with tears and I stare at her cunt.

"Lick it bitch." She commands. "I know you want to and I know you are a submissive fucking slut so you will do it or I will turn you in for "corrupting me" "

As she finishes speaking I hear the camera on her cell phone and I look up in horror to see her taking a pic of me with my face just inches from her.

"You...You can't be serious." I stammer as my tears start.

"You better believe it you worthless cunt." she snarls.

She grabs my head and forces my face into her pussy and I start to lick she gently, my tongue barely parting her folds. She moans and I move my tongue to her clit and flick it a few times then I slide it down to her opening and just insert it into her. She moans and forces me in deeper as she rides my face faster and harder. I thrust my tongue deep into her as she bucks and writhes on my desk, her juices coat my face. She holds me firm to her pussy as she cum and floods my mouth. I drink her juice and lick and suck her clean. She kicks me to the floor as she finishes and then she laughs.

"You are a good cunt licker slut. Tomorrow I will return and will bring friends." She giggles.

"Noooo you can't!" I plead.

She laughs as she puts her jeans on and prepares to leave my classroom.



The End =)

[Qmoq]

Yum! Sexy little fantasy Dhy! Purr.

Q x