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I’ve been needing a good cry, so don’t feel sorry for me. I will be alright. My Dom is moving now after he accepted a new promotion at his job that will require him to move out of state.
I was warned, and I knew better than to become so infatuated so quickly… But he was my Dom, and perhaps not for a long time, no, perhaps not over years but he left a mark on me. He made me smile, made me feel proud, I felt at home, I felt that I was in my place. He just seemed.. perfect.
He will be a good Dom for another sub.. But I will miss him, as brief as our time was.
From the way he lifted my chin and stroked my cheek to the firmness in his grip when he grasped my hair and pulled my head back to slap me again… You left me things to remember, from the soreness in my breast to the sweetness in your kisses.
I wish you luck Sir, I know this promotion will be good for you and you will go far in your life, just wish I could have been a part of it for just a little while more, but I am happy for you. We have three more weeks until you must go, I can’t help wonder if it would be less painful to shut you out now… though I know you want to see me again.
I’ll see you if it hurts, I’ll let you decide, I just want to be a good girl.
~Daes
Radiance
05-10-2007, 11:19 AM
your story is sad, Cant you move with him?
annie
05-10-2007, 12:03 PM
Hugsss...
i understand.
suchaminx
05-10-2007, 01:19 PM
HUGS xxxxxxxx
gagged_Louise
05-10-2007, 01:41 PM
Being separated from my Domme at this time (though I've found an eminent Dom to guide me for present) I really understand your unease and distress.
louise, slave in training, seen over by Rhabbi
wingsofanangel
05-10-2007, 02:54 PM
aww hun.
I understand how hard this can be....
I still am not completley over my ex. He knows this.. and we continue to maintain a friendship of sorts. I do hope that you will be able to talk to him and that you will be okay.. its is hard...
anya
nightsilver
05-12-2007, 07:21 PM
I too am curious to know why you can't move with him.
ACommittedSadist
05-12-2007, 08:09 PM
Daes,
I am very sorry to hear that. It is never easy to see any relationship end and D/s ones can be very intense.
Take care of yourself.
angelic.zest
05-12-2007, 08:33 PM
Hugggg! very sorry to hear
MajesticFae
05-12-2007, 10:05 PM
*hugs and kisses*
cariad
05-13-2007, 12:17 AM
Daes, well done for crying out and I wish you the smallest bit of comfort in knowing that your feelings are normal and only show what a beautiful gift you have.
I wish you comfort at this time, and encourage you to hold the memories of your time together with your master as something very precious and do not let bitterness or regret scar it.
Hugs
cariad
Selash
05-14-2007, 10:35 PM
Truly very sorry. I understand the loss of a loved one. Be strong, here at the forum I am sure we could help you through it.
Sir_Russell
05-25-2007, 04:09 PM
I know that feeling from the Dom's perspective and I am moving to her since she just can't live here. If I can answer the why not move with him for you, she has said she didn't know him that long. A move with him could be great but it may not have reached that point for them to both feel comfortable with it.
You will find another one, I am sure but be carefull in the selection, just because he was good for you doesn't mean any old "Dom" will be or that he is real.
Echoes
05-27-2007, 12:09 AM
~hugs Daes~
i wish you ease of pain, that you love and pamper yourself while you heal and as Cariad said...most importantly, remember the wonderful beauty of time shared and the joy together.
it will get better
xo
Eponine
05-27-2007, 08:26 PM
Just wanted to see how you're doing, Daes...
Did He (or you and He both) decide to still see each other in the last 3 weeks?
I feel for you too... hope you're doing well.
nk_lion
05-27-2007, 08:35 PM
I'm sorry I don't have any magic words to make you feel better. All I know is that the more you adored him, liked his presence, or maybe even loved him, the harder it will be once he leaves. But then you should cherish your time together, it's the happy memories that will never leave you, and ask yourself the timeless question: Better to loved and lost, then to never loved at all.
All I can say is that if you pick the second choice, it shouldn't matter if he's leaving then.
I hope that some day you will move on, stronger from this experience into your next adventure in life.
Eponine
05-27-2007, 08:45 PM
Truly, which is better: to have loved and lost or never to have loved at all?
Sometimes i think it's better not to know what you're missing when you're lonely... better than the heartbreak you go through when you think everything is perfect and you know you'll never meet anyone else like that person.
sorry.. not trying to be negative... i know you're supposed to appreciate the memories and everything you had... but the absence burns and burns and burns... until you get over it... which usually takes less time than you think it will- and by then you can smile on the happy memories... and not cry.. just gotta wait it out...
isabeau6
06-13-2007, 03:34 PM
how terribly sad...i'm wondering how she is doing now? and why couldn't she move with him?
ThisYouWillDo
06-13-2007, 04:01 PM
All I can say is, I'm so sorry; but you'll grow from the experience. Know that everyone's sympathy for you here is real and that our hearts go out to you.