*sits down at the keyboard and looks back at what I have already written*
I have received a few comments both here and in PM from people who can relate to my story so far. I remember all to well feeling very alone and confused at times while my life was in transition. I’m sure there are others out there now who feel this way…to these people…you are not alone!!
So…back to my life story LOL
It was right about my 39th birthday, I had been to hell and back
I'm actually beginning to have a lot of fun writing this, I have never told anyone the whole story of good_girl before...not that the story is over yet, I have many chapters yet to live can't wait
So as I near my 39th birthday I know I’m a survivor and I now know what I have been missing in my life. I decided I must be crazy, I had always prided myself on being a strong and independent woman, how could the thought of a man telling me what was expected of me make me happy…but
I had a minor breakdown after my first post, a lot of old emotions came flooding back…strangely one of those emotions was of intense pride, the pride I feel for my daughter chokes me up every time, she has always been so strong, wanting to be there for me when her own life was just as hellish as mine. We are more friends now than mother/daughter and I am proud to call her my friend.
Ok enough sap, tonight I will write about the journey that began my discovery of myself, a much happier
When I first saw this new forum subject my thought was “cool, a place to tell my whole story” and then I began to wonder how I would tell it without boring readers to death. I want back and forth and finally decided that this would have been very useful for me to read others stories when I had first arrived here at the library. So…I am writing this for myself first and then for any newcomers who might find it helpful to relate to someone, as well as for anyone who might find it interesting.
*turns up my speaker volumn and listens to "Adele-Chasing Pavements...getting my note pad again and some more courage* cant forget my note pad *giggles*
I hate having to write anything, everything. It doesnt matter the content i hate writing Lol..but it helps us, it especially help me with my vocabulary and grammar lol oh and spelling ( so all you spelling freaks who's stuck on spelling, i dont think im the chick for you all)
ok now back to my feelings
*pulls out my note pad, a pen, and some courage and begins to write*
this is funny i was almost forced by some of the members in chat to get my ass out there and start this thread.."fuck you all but i love you all just the same" lol
One of the members say that my lil baby blogs would get alittle more attention then her life, i hightly doubt that, she's wayyy more