foxy lady

That's all I got! pfff!!! Nothing more. Now...to all that know me...those are almost fighting words. You can’t say shit like this to me! Simply NOT right! .. eyes wide...nostrils flare as i storm off...like a baby

i turn to my friend and Mentors and even bring the topic up in chat really brainstorming this because…gha!! The audacity of such a BOLD statement~ i will claim equality and prove Him wrong.
i got highly intellectual answers and words of wisdom
1. Both parties matter. One does not exist without the other.
2. What a bazaar question! They each play an important role… both matter equally.
3. A person who is so self-righteous to claim that is a dangerous sign.
4. How can you trust a person with such sheer arrogance?!


So with all my clever armour i come to You.....and all i get is:
Go back it will come to you..a Master matters more than a slave.

this while quietly looking at me...always in that graceful demeanour. so very patient with me. i imagine you smiling watching me..ball my fist and dig my heels -and pull my hair...as i protest, fight for justice and slave rights to matter.....this glorious fuss...my shoulders slump and i feel defeated....and i utter the words i always leave You with...Yes Master.
thinking....
meditating....
reining in my defences...
opening my mind....
letting down my walls
aiming to find the bigger picture.

this morning in the bath with soaked wet hair and legs half veet'ed it hits me.
Your words come true to me.
a Master matters more than His slave.
He may not be the most important Man, artist, employer, employee, witer or friend..He may not be rich or Handsome ~ may not be a politician or a scientist to find the cure for aids....He is just a man.........
but in my world.......where i am His..............to my mind............nothing else matters more to me than You.... in my world You are everything. in my mind~ You are the only one. You own my thoughts my words, my hart, my body. and give this to You...willingly....i surrender to You...free of choice...collar and chain to You...and indivisible link to You by the bond of trust and faith i have in You.
the lesson learned. it is all about the condition of a slave’s heart ~ not about obedience or discipline. but about the emotional mind set- and again You allowed me to discover something in myself i did not know was there. You matter more to me than i matter to myself.