Broken Wings
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, 08-24-2014 at 07:51 AM (999 Views)
I was sooooo new when I came to this site, lost and wondering about all the things I had inside me all my life. I felt like a little kid, wide eyed and naive of all that happens in the world. This site has been extremely good to me....and for me. But now it has torn me asunder, I am adrift without my udder. I know this to shall pass as all things do in life, but I do not know how long it will take.....
I am broken to so many pieces I cannot collect them all. I didn't know I could feel such pain, like a part of me is missing that I will never get back. I feel like it was ripped from my soul, leaving a empty aching space that will always be there. My heart is shredded...it will never be given again in this lifetime. It has seen many trials and stood strong, but I do not know if it will recover this time.
But it has also been wonderful for me too, I have meet and know the most honest, wonderful, accepting people in the world...my Sir having been one of them. I learned so much about myself and what I am capable of, but I KNOW I am capable of so much more. I am proud to have been collared by a wonderful Dom....but not everything in life works out the way we wish it too...*sad smile*. But I am not gone for I have learned through this experience that I am not a complete person without this in my life. I have learned from a good man not to be ashamed or embarrassed by my wants and desires, they are MINE and natural as the day is long. He taught me to free myself in ways that even I had no idea I could do...*small smile*. These were what I was born with and now that after all my years I have found myself truly....I will not let it go.
I have no regrets for this was one of the most wonderful, joyful, enlightening, heartrending experiences of my life, but I would take the ride all over again. I am taking a small break from the site...but I will be here off and on for I have made many a good friend. Enjoy your days and stay kinky....
Yours, la