Desze
Registered User

Desze,

Thank you for sharing and for reaching out to me to offer your words of comfort.

It means a lot to me, but more importantly, you offer me perspective to remember my Sunshine and remind me that she is completely gone.

I am going to backpack the 220 mile John Muir Trail this August and I am going to take the farewell letters we wrote each other at the end and I will leave them at the top of Mt. Whitney.

Maybe closer to heaven and to her.

But I tell myself that her home is in my heart and that she will be with me each step of the way.

I try to take comfort in that, but the fact is that I miss her voice and to see her words on my computer screen.

Most of all, I so much wanted to hold her in my arms....to give her comfort and to fulfill all of our dark fantasies.

I cry less, I talk to her when I have lunch by myself, I do what I can to not be sad, but so much was left undone.

-Tony

Welcome to the site!!

Thank you for your comment, it is very true. However, there is an emotional & spiritual & intellectual side to each of us. While the physical part of us is pleasing and at times satisfying we cannot forget that we are essentially spiritual beings who lust after an emotional and mind connection. Sometimes those three war with each other.....

Well, I hope you enjoy your time here and find what you seek!!
....or it finds you