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A Delicious Distraction
Just to lay some questions and fears to rest, I have not left the library and I have not simply disappeared.
In a previous blog I spoke of redirecting and refocusing my energies and my goals. That is what I have been doing.
More than anything, I have been writing. I set a goal to spend at least 4 hours each day at some writing goal or project. I have mostly been able to meet this goal. I have several new projects in place as well as the old projects that are
Over the past few days I have taken at close look at my goals. I have not been happy at all with the way I have been focusing my energies and attentions. So, I have decided that I need to refocus and then redirect my energies and my attentions so that they better reflect where my true desires are.
What does this mean. Basically it means that I have identified three basic areas of my life where I need to direct the majority of my time, my energy and my attention. This means less
Have you ever been in a place where you can see happiness just out of reach; just out of your grasp yet so close you could see it, smell it, perhaps even taste it. So close that you can physically feel the need to be where you cannot go. A situation that makes you so miserable that you become willing to do anything short of something illegal to make it possible; to have what you want. A yearning so intense that it pervades every waking minute of everyday. A need so deep that every breath
In a previous post I declared that I do not want to get old. That remains true.
It then occurred to me that I needed to take a look at where I am in both my life and my station in the BDSM lifestyle.
This requires a bit of background.
I was introduced into the lifestyle almost by accident. I was a 20 something, young stud in a university town, who was living life large. I was typical. Parties, clubs, etc. etc. This was in the middle 70's, the
I have come to a conclusion.
I don't want to get old.
Now, I understand the realities of life. Aging cannot be halted. But there is a distinct difference between aging and getting old.
I have spent the better part of the last week in Florida on personal business. I have spent most of that time in one of the thousands of planned retirement communities in and around central Florida. Beautiful place. Landscaped, groomed and immaculately kept. All the