Distraught, despair and depression!
Hell!
My master and I have seperated. On Boxing day we decided that things just weren;t going so well, with us living at opposite ends of the country and with the feelings being of different strengths, we agree to just be friends.
He stayed around for a couple of days after, and left in the early hours of the morning today.
I don;t know what I'm going to do without him. I feel totally lost. It's not just like breaking up with a boyfriend, he was my friend, my lover, the man i wanted to spend the rest of my life with, and above all that, my Master.
I know that I'll survive without him, hell, I'm a grown up responsible teacher type person, but it doesn;t mean i want to survive without him!
How do you cope?
I'm thinking it's either alcohol or screwing around, I hate hangovers, so I'm guessing it's going to be the latter. Hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What a way to start 2005!
Sorry, I just had no where else to express this. My family don;t know about the D/s, so to them, it's just another boyfreind!
Another distraction awaits you
Saying no - darn - that is a tough one. While you're feeling
low, I'd hate to see you put yourself in danger. The only
reason I didn't post here earlier, was that I thought
the previous advice was excellent and saying ditto all the
time just seems silly. ;) Meanwhile...
If you'd like something else to distract you,
you are most welcome to come play in
Lord Mobius's Dungeon.
There was some talk awhile back about kidnapping you:
http://www.bdsmlibrary.com/forums/sh...&page=21&pp=15
Check our your sexy picture on post #306.
On post #308, they decided to give you some time to heal.
Anytime you feel like some safe fantasy dungeon play,
stop by and tell Lord Mobius that you'd like to
be:
* abducted
* a willing volunteer - who can come and go as she pleases
* or whatever else strikes your fancy
If you're feeling naughty, he might even send the pirates
or the alien after you.
Wishing you the best, Ruby