This poem is in no way indicating that I am going to commit suicide. Although I have thought about it a couple of times. since I like writing poems, I thought I'd write what I would say in a suicide note. It's just a poem.
Goodbye………
I’m sorry to have to tell you,
But it’s time for me to go.
To all my friends and family,
I didn’t expect you to know.
This life isn’t what I wanted,
It’s too hard to bare the pain.
My problems are a burden,
That I cannot seem to change.
My life is boring, bland and stale,
I am trapped, imprisoned in my own little hell.
I cannot break free no matter what I do,
The bills, the job, the house even too.
I cannot rest, my mind is a blur,
I want to die to take away the hurt.
To my first born and only daughter who acts just like me,
I leave with you my looks and style and shy
Personality.
I know down the road, you will need me more than ever,
I’m sorry that I hurt you and changes
Your life forever.
One day you will marry and have children of your own,
Make the best of your life sweetheart,
And enjoy being grown.
I’m sorry I’ll miss your first born and
The joys that come along,
But you’ll prove to be better than me,
More resilient, more strong.
I love you.
To my first born son,
The most quiet of the four,
I’ll miss your smile but your
Caring heart even more.
I’m sorry that I left you with this
Pain that fills your heart,
Remember that I’ll always love you
And we’ll never truly be apart.
One day you too will marry
And remember what I say,
Be true to your wife,
Work hard for your family
And embrace them every day.
I hope you make it as a pro football star,
Never give up on your dreams son,
For they will take you far.
I love you.
Now to my little one’s, my six and nine
Year olds,
Always do your best in school
And remember what you’re told.
Boys, you are my angels and mama
Was always very proud.
Take care of each other, man up in life
And hitting girls is not allowed!
You both will be great someday,
I know this in my heart.
Mama will be looking out for you,
Just as I have from the start.
I love you both.
To my loving husband and best friend
For fifteen years,
We’ve shared a lot of laughs,
Ups and downs, and shed many tears.
I’m sorry that I left you with this burden
All on your own,
I admit I wasn’t woman enough
To make our house a happy home.
I tried to make it work but past
Hurts were too much to bare.
My heart was too full of hurt
To let you in enough. to care.
Our kids will depend on you now
More than ever,
Don’t let life break you down
And never, ever tether.
I hope you can forgive me,
For my mind was not my own.
I let the devil tear me down,
Taking my life, my freedom and cozy
Home.
You were my lover, my friend,
Sometimes my enemy too,
But no matter what your thoughts of me,
Remember that I will always love you.
To my caring parents who never left my side,
You were always there for me,
Throughout heartache and pride.
You told me growing up to always
Be independent and strong,
To never let anyone hold me back
And remember right from wrong.
I can’t than you enough for all
Your help along the way,
You were an inspiration but
These words I can no longer say.
I will miss you both so dearly
And hope that you can forgive me.
I hope it’s clear why I did what I did,
If not, one day you will see.
I love you both.
To my brothers and sisters and
Close friends too,
I’m sorry that I left you like this,
Without a word, without a clue.
I know you all will miss me
And one day I hope you’ll see,
That in my mind, body and soul,
I felt this was the way it had to be.
I love you all.
Goodbye.
