Life = pain

Why must life be so damned hard?
Its like I'm playing poker with the crappiest of cards
The short end is always mine for the taking
Because everyone in this life of mine is faking
Showing me nothing but all of their fucking lies
While I try but just fail to hide all of my cries
These people they just seem to want me to fail
So upon my soul they harp and they wail
Until I am full of self-doubt and self-hatred
Until I'm so hurt that I just can't take it
Can't take all the pain,
The lies,
And decieving
To the point where I wish that I just was not breathing
So once again I fall down to my knees
And beg God to listen to my tearful pleas
Listen and see how distressed I have been
Look at how much he has abused his own kin
Watch the inner turmoil I deal with on a daily basis
When I see people’s thoughts written right across their faces
They think I am nuts they think I'm insane
They think that there has been damage to my brain
And sometimes I can't help but to think that it's true
To think that I've lost all I once knew
But this is who I am, and who I'll always be
And if you can’t accept that you don’t deserve me


i wrote this at the beginning of the summer when i lost my "sister"
Please let me know what Y/you think

mmmmm wonderful, i guess it is not a poem that one likes per se given the content, but i love the emotion and feeling, i can really feel the emotions, great piece, thank you so much for sharing

Y/your welcome and thank Y/you..... it was one of my darker things (we all have those days heehee)

It was wonderful lil one!!