poetry life

my life flashed before my eyes
as i think of all the pain inside
my heart crashes and beats no more
and i can't face living anymore
i stair at empty faces pretending to care
and think they cant even tell i am not there
my mind fills with all the pain and shutsdown
as i can't think or feel it did not kill me
it killed my soul i walk around locked in my shell
as i think i am living in hell
i take the knife and cut my throat
and let all the feelings go and fight to be free
to die and let the darkness consume me
as the room goes dark and life slips out off me
all the words i wrote and i am not afraid to die
to all my friends if i have any this is my last goodbye

bright lights emotion filled faces
and shocks through me pulling me back
the pain and sorrow of life returning
but i still have the self same yerning
to fly free and as my heart beats again
i moan and the pain and sorrow floods back
the mask i wear becomes my vail
and i put the pills to my mouth and each system slowly fails
my choice my will fling free as the doctors can only stare
i take my last gulp of air
and peace fills me as i will live on for eternety
the sorry and pain die and i finaly get to fly

death was not my end it was my begining
it was my choice so to ever finds this
savour my last breath my last word and know that this is goodbye
and i was never afraid to take my dagger and die
as i slip into eternity i become me and i fly free