My screen name says pretty much everything, except "digital"
I am craving a strong woman (psychologically, imaginatively) to overpower me physically in cyberspace and commit permanent physical harm (in cyberspace, lol). I can be your kidnapping victim, you could be my stalker, but whatever the combo is, I want to write emails back and forth my viewpoint/your viewpoint or something along the lines of that. I want you to tell me how it feels to knee me between the legs and watch me drop; to smack me for trying to touch your skirt when I get desperate; to tease me sadistically about severing my privy members and then what it feels like to do it while I put up a futile struggle. Or what-would-you-have.
On my end, I would be happy to write what all of this feels like on my end; anticipation-wise, in regard to falling for the woman who is destroying me, in regard to the pain, the sense of finality, all that.
After that we can take it from there! More emails may be a good idea, may not, depending what we both want. I do want to have an exchange, and if you're not comfortable with the extremity of the above, just general sexual abuse of my horny self will work. I can give my email; we can take it from there.
I'm a little nervous asking partially because, I will say it at this point, I'm not 100% that this is within the guidelines of the site for a request, though I think it should be and I apologize for not checking first if I am wrong; I figured it was a personal, so... but let me know if I'm wrong.
Personally all erotica and similar type writing must exceed what could be done in real life or would be in some way shape or form; if I wrote an erotica piece about a husband and wife, which I am not a published erotica author, though, while this writing here I'll admit is somewhat shoddy, I am a published author, albeit a lazy one :p (and one of no renown, don't get me wrong here)-- this is to say that the afore-said story would be difficult to market if there were not extenuating reasons for anyone to care about a husband and wife, whom I mean in this case to have a perfect marriage with nothing going wrong atm, rather than any of the plethora of husband-wife stories that are so differentiated from what comes to mind if one thinks of a cliche marriage.
Well, I'm a sub, and maybe it's in who I am; that was all to justify my own tastes, which I'm sure at some point in my life someone has told me never to do, but, lessons are great, more so the recent ones than the ones that I forgot three years ago. xD
I would probably also be willing to inflict personal pain on myself at your direction of how, though I am very inexperienced, and tell you what it felt like. You could punish me at some point that way for something you didn't like. In the real world I feel too little power in my own life; I'm somewhat of a starving artist who feels trampled on by multiple sources of the world around me, some big, some small, the main thing being big. Bowing in to a woman to take control feels like a source of release, at the very least in writing, as I have no real-world experience, largely because I am anything but a control freak, I'm naturally submissive in life, and it is someone else's control over me that I chose, which makes me by extension in control, if you understand. Oh, I do have some real world experience. Just not a lot.
Probably should have read more of other people's ads... I did a while back, not today; I am so lazy :p.
Oh, one last major thing. I am in a relationship. My girlfriend and I properly speaking don't consider it an open relationship, but it is understood between us that internet doesn't count. Presently we are counties apart in the state we live in and neither of us have a license (did I say lazy? She has a valid reason, I don't, lol), so I rely heavily on whatever I can find on the Internet to interest me. So while I want to have fun (and I'm sure that someone or another who was interested thought otherwise at this point, and someone else closer to the inverse), it cannot ever get into the physical world. She and I are rather serious; we talk marriage regularly, though with two degrees she cannot find a job and we don't have the means of supporting ourselves, so past the point of figuring out how to afford a wedding there is the problem of, before or after that, affording living together on our own. Any donations to my wedding fund will be applauded by a group of people at the wedding, provided the donation did not come in pennies :P (JK, no I'm not going to go there, don't worry!)
It is also slightly possible that at some point I will need to break off on account of our relationship.
Other than that, I am looking to indulge a fantasy that would be Hell in real life. I'm probably comfortable with what you're comfortable with. I'm looking for something extreme but well-played-out. If you write, I give you bonus points now. :)
If you want to, you can rip me out of the arms of my lover, or a parallel lover, rip my pants open with a knife and hold the tip right in the center of my legs before making me swear to do something for you. You can take a hammer and put my dick on a block of wood and then whack it however hard or lightly you want. You can tease me for being a wimp when I lie on the ground unable to get up. You can suck it or go down on it while I squeal in pain; you can rip on my sack hard enough to tear a tendon, and visit me in the hospital while I tell the doctor how I had an accident because you said it would be worse if I ratted you out, that you would go all the way. You can do whatever your imagination wants to, and at the moment I've gone erect, so, don't worry, you should have an easy time with me. Leave a post, and tell me if you're interested in these kinds of things; if making a man gradually useless for sex for your own pleasure in role play turns you on. I want you.
