Like magnets... we found each other again...

I am a submissive slave... I've never hidden my alter ego from any person, including my family.

About 4 years ago, I found my soul mate. The only Dom that truly made every part of my submissive tendencies jump for joy. Even living the real world life, I knew he was supposed to walk through life with me. After a couple of years, the typical life events started to put a strain on us. Our real world relationship grew weak, and our dungeon lifestyle was nonexistent. It killed me.

We eventually decided to part ways. I immediately felt like an unowned sub walking blindly in the dark. My soul felt incomplete. My heart was empty. It's like I lost the best thing about me... My ability to submit, freely, to the one Dom that I couldn't imagine being without.

It didn't take me long to realize that my lifestyle was a unique quality. Most guys I knew enjoyed the idea of the kinky sex, but felt my pure devotion was ridiculous. All of them couldn't understand why I'd want to walk behind my Dom and to the left. They didn't understand why I wanted to refer to myself as the third person. They never accepted why I would kneel before them. I had been told that my choice to fully live the lifestyle was me degrading myself. Never once did I believe that.

After 14 months without my Dom, we found each other again. He is the only one I want to be fully devoted to. He's the only one that has taken the time as effort to train me. He's the only one that understands me.

Last night, unexpectedly, I felt his firm grip... His devotion... His desire to once again own me. I don't think words could ever describe how complete I feel again. It's euphoric. It's amazing.

Sigmund Freud had said... A sub cannot be what they are without their complimenting half. Jus ss a Dom cannot be what they are without their sub. Yin and yang. The two complete a balance. They are one.

I have never experienced such devotion, trust, love, and committed as I have in this lifestyle. It is far more complex than any vanilla relationship. It requires more of everything for it to work. It's phenomenal.

So... Being as I was an extremely active member years ago... And then faded out of this site... I am beyond ecstatic to say, I'm back. I'm whole again. scarlet has been set free again.

I look forward to interacting with all my fellow kinksters. Dom or sub... All of you have always been great.

Enjoy what you are... Embrace it... It is the best thing I ever found out about myself. And I hope everyone here holds zero shame or regret for what they are.

It's good to be back :)

Oh scarlet, I remember reading your posts and responses 4 years ago. I was so new and wasn't brave enough to post anything in those days.
But you are one of the people I looked up to, learned from.

I am so happy your are back, but more so, that you have taken your place again, at your Dominants feet, the place of rest.

This is really wonderful news
xxx

scarlet, I was not around years go when you were on the site...I was still trying to find myself and accept all that I wanted to be inside. I am extremely overjoyed that you once again found that one who completes you in all ways. It is truly a wonderful feeling to have your soul touched and completed by that other person, the one that understands even before you say it...feel it.

I am not long on the site and accepting who I am inside, but I was lucky and blessed enough to find my magnet...*grin* the positive to my negative. I look forward to reading your posts as just ine said she did and learn just like she did from you...as I learn from her and so many here who accept everyone as they maybe.

May you spend many wonderful days and nights, following behind, at his feet or doing what makes you both who you are....one being.....

I was so very fortunate to met mi darling Sensei here, nearly two years ago, he alone was and is able to draw out the submissive part within me. Despite the geographic and time zone differential we have managed to spend time with each other, discussing, communicating with total honesty, deepening the dynamic between us. We were fortunate to be able to take our initial interaction from o/l to r/l, to unparalleled heights of total love, passion and mutual admiration.

He has encouraged me to grow, to become who I am, with loving domination. I respect him totally, when he speaks I listen not just hear. He nurtures my submission within his hands, I totally trust him without question. I know he respects me, I know he loves me because he has taken on great deal of responsibility having me as his sub, in his collar.

As mentioned within the previous posts, yes our relationship is very much deeper in complexity than any vanilla relationship I have experienced. He is my life, I am complete in his arms, totally devoted to him. I am so totally blessed so very happy and content it is beyond words to describe.

Welcome back, Scarlet!

i remember you well. It's funny, an old thread was bumped very recently, i saw your name, and it made me pause and think of you. i'm glad to see that you're back and happy and fulfilled.