guidance and suggestions appreciated
Hello, I'm new-explorer, and I guess it would be obvious by my name that this is all new to me...or is it?
In past relationships I had always felt that something was missing, and I always blamed myself for it, I felt that I wasn't good enough, always tried to do better. I have come to realise now that I was just never with someone who could accept what I was offering, can't really blame them...I didn't know what I was offering either.
About a year and a half ago I ended a 13 year relationship and began MY life, I started talking to people and looking at things on-line, about 6 months ago a light bulb came on for me and I realised that I am submissive.
In the last several months I have talked to anyone who could offer me any kind of guidance in learning more about myself, I have become so much more secure in myself than I have ever been, although I still feel I have a long way to go.
I very recently met someone who is at about the same place as I am, he has recently discovered that he is interested in exploring his dominant side. I guess at this point I am just wanting to learn as much as I possibly can, and hope that the bond that has already begun to form for us grows to something I can't yet even imagine.
Any guidance and suggestions are welcome as my eyes are getting square from looking at this monitor.:eek:
Hello A/all ....am new here
Hello everyone. I am schiavo, its Italian for enslaved. I am currently a 30 year old, owned slave to a wonderful man whom I've had the great pleasure of serving the past two years.
I have been active in the lifestyle for about 5 years now. I think most of us whom identify as submissives or slaves can see a pattern of our need and want to please throughout our lives. At least I have found this to be a common trait amongst subs and slaves. I say this because I, like many, have always had a desire, a real need to please others. It wasn't until I started exploring chatrooms about 6 or 7 years ago that I began to notice there were others that shared common interests/needs to serve and please. It was around that time that I started researching the lifestyle and reading up on a variety of things. Also, around this same time, I began to realize that I could no longer push down and away this need in my life. I felt I was dying without it. I began learning small things here and there. Realizing all through my learning process' I was beginning to grow and open.
Like many, I have come across those who are not "good", for lack of a better or more appropriate way of putting it, dominants, but I've also found many that are sincere. I feel rather lucky and blessed to have been accepted by my Dominant. He isn't one for a lot of formalities but He is one that has accepted me for me, with all the drama and chaos that comes with me and is apart of me at times, He is still here with me, He still wishes to own me. He desires to have a second slave and He is currently looking. I wish for Him to be happy and will be glad to serve Him with a sister.
I tend to become long winded when writing things and apologize if I have done so here. I am open to answering any and all questions others may have for me and am also okay if there are none to answer. I am simply glad to have found this site and to be allowed to explore it when time allows.
Thank you A/all. May each and every day be pleasant and bring you and Yours happiness.
schiavo(enslaved))