Trans girl slave seeks true sadist

Hi I'm Anna, I'm a 27 year old submissive masochist trans girl slave and I'm making my first post here to see what the community is like and whether or not I will have any more luck here than I did on fetlife. I am very eager and willing to please with few hard limits, I admit I do not quite have the smoking hot body you are probably used to seeing on shemale and trans porn stars (yet!) But I am working on it with a very strict diet and exercise program, as well as, ya know, all the hormones lol. My problem is every dominant I have ever encountered were all way too worried about pushing me too far. I understand that safe sane and consensual is the standard but what I really really crave is someone who will make me feel I truly am suffering for their amusement and that they're genuinely turned on and happy I am in pain or being degraded. I need a real sadist, like I said in the title. If this sounds like you please DM and we will go from there if you are into it, thank you for reading this and I hope to hear from some of you!! <3 <3 <3