FixIt and i have been in one sort of argument or another every weekend over the past 5 weeks. Right now, the collar is off, because He ordered it that way. i guess He's right. i think we are moving a bit too fast.

i was in the lead for 10 years. i wanted to be in a D/s relationship with Him, and introduced Him to this lifestyle. In the beginning, it was easy. Now, i find it difficult when i'm upset about something, to talk to Him. I can't seem to get the words out in a way so that He understands that i'm not attacking Him. He thinks i'm attacking, and tells me to stop, and i can't make myself comlpy because i feel that i'm being treated unfairly (as if He doesn't seem to want to hear my side at all), and everything just gets worse.

Every argument brings the heavy possibility of Us splitting up. i'm very afraid.

To add to the strain, our son is in trouble with the law, and we've had to give up a group of friends because of it. Our son has made a couple of statements that have lead us to believe that he was molested by one or more of his new friends, who are older.