I'm 31 years old living in Stockholm. I was thrown head first into this because I lost my virginity to a masochist. Before that I had always felt shame over all my sadistic tendancies. My parents are hippies which meant that they had a very judgemental view on what love was all about, and S/M didn't fit into the mold at all. From my part there was no hesitation. I had always been into S/M my whole life. I just had never been able to put words on it or come in contact with anybody in the scene. This was years before the Internet.

Emotionally I was a mess up until about 23. I was emotionally abusive and overall a complete idiot. I made my problems everybody elses. My life was fast and hard. I had no trouble finding submissive girls, I just had problems taking care of them. Needless to say, I caused a lot of pain, and even to myself since I loved these girls.

I matured, found and married a wonderful woman who became my slave. She wasn't the slave who taught me the art of being a good Master but she got the full fruits of it. Nothing lasts forever and we just recently separated. I think it's fair to say that we grew apart, even though we shared a wonderful six years together and still love each other. Even though I still miss her life overall is very good now.

Fetish-wise I'm into humiliation, piercing, watersports and rubber. In that order.

Right now I'm looking to growing emotionally. I want to "cash in" on my emotions by exploring them to their fullest. That's where writing comes in. My wounds are a bit fresh to start anything new at the moment so I'm just flirting around.

I'd never heard of on-line domination until I came to this board. It's definately something I'd like to explore more, (thanks for the guided tour Suchaminx).