I think she must have had so much on her plate too though; her son had also just died while she was having her baby, she may have had some post partum depression and also the stresses from long term court battles and then the trim spa thingy.

I am not sad in the meaning of crying because she means something to me as a person that I felt I know, I feel somehow she was never able to be herself.

I always no matter how stupid and out there her actions were or her words or her manner of dress was, that there was this little child hiding behind this overblown sex symbol. She never seemed finished, like a cartoon. I saw some how this fragility in her and also saw how her life seemed to be this train wreck that could have no other possible ending.

Perhaps she might have actually appreciated ensuring she wouldn't fade away and grow old. She built everything around the eternal sex siren image and growing old must have been intolerable to her too. Better to burn out than fade away, her death ensures the conspiracy theorists and it already has started, the star watchers and gossip rags will keep her fame alive for a very long time. In the end maybe that would have made her some how validated in a way her life never did.