This is a really long thread

I found this site a couple of weeks ago and have been hooked ever since.

I've had bdsm fantasies ever since I was a kid. Generally I just regard it as what I do but every now and then have gone through phases where i've thought that maybe I should try having more "healthy" fantasies (i.e. ones that don't involve being chained up & tortured) - it never lasts . Unfortunately all my past boyfriends have been very sweet guys who laughed it off when I asked them to tie me up

So now the fun task of overcoming my hangups and trying to find out if this is really something I want to get into begins