Innate or Learned?

[Fox]

In my lifetime, I have learned that I am a 'control freak'; I seek power over my environment so that it can be shaped in the way I choose. Is this learned behaviour? In part. Is it innate behaviour? In part.

The point is, this controlling behaviour is exemplified in every aspect of my life.

I have learned to accept that this is how I am, and that I cannot always be in control - and sometimes I fight this. Is this resistance of mine innate or learned?

Sexually, I have experienced both Dom and sub roles ... and as a sub, I tried to top from the bottom. (By the way, I believe the best Doms are those who know what it is like to have subbed)

To me, D/s is psychological ...
Bondage is foreplay ...
SM relies on the physical to force psychological control ... resistance to the pain, is part of the experience - for both.

To whit, a brief description of a real life experience:

I had just picked my partner up from her aerobics class. She was in light summer sundress.
My hand left the gear shift, and lifting the hem of the dress, exposed her belly and cruised down to the neatly shaved skin below. She sighed at my touch.
The fitness centre is about fifteen minute drive from my townhouse on the banks of the river. We cruised at 60 klicks. I spotted the semi trailers on the overpass ahead, and lowered the ragtop.
Diana’s eyes widened as she realized what was about to happen.
“Fox?” she begged as I pulled my car closer to the driver’s window of the first truck. I played with my slave girl as we crept past the cab, my hand visibly buried in her exposed pussy.
“You prick,” she whispered, her lovely face a bright crimson. She closed her eyes. I laughed and winked at the truck driver, his mouth open at the sight.
My finger entered her now wet passage. She came almost instantly.

No physical pain involved, lots of emotions, and complete control/dominance over not one but two people.

The DESIRE to do this ... to exercise this power ... was NOT learned. Nor was her desire to let it happen.

'Nuff said. I'm going on holidays.