Its must be such a bittersweet time for you.

I know it must not be easy at all, but I certain you have a bright future ahead of you and there is an amazing Dominant waiting to take you under his wings and cherish you. Don't ever give up hope, you deserve to be treated like a precious gem. I agree, take some time to cope and get to know exactly what you want. You cannot give yourself fully to someones trust if you don't even know and trust yourself. I know 3 Doms in or by Toronto that are each very wonderful in their own ways.. when you are ready... let me know.. perhaps I can give you a referal.

Anya