oh sorry to the first response i didn't see it i'm a little blind lol but thank you as well. Believe me it's not so much as being told no that's the issue as much as i don't know how to deal with the longing, as the urges continue to get stronger. i've been told no plenty of times and i always obey no questions asked. And i do understand your issues with consent, but i guess to me that never played into effect before because everything W(w)e do is done with the understanding that the real me consents fully, mind, body, and soul...even if the play me doesn't. i really appreciate everyone's views and insight and should anyone else have anything to say about the topic i'd be more than happy to hear.