Excellent response! I actually have the same kind of thoughts, thoughts that would be too ridiculous to even attempt as well. Even since I was a child, I've always had sado-masochist thoughts. I remember hurting myself when I was about 5 or 6, creating a captivity fantasy even with an inexperienced mind. I feel better knowing that others have confronted this and learned accept it because after all bdsm is a symbiotic relationship. Now that I think about it, within a bdsm relationship you can trust your partner more. There is also a greater degree of respect and communication which is actually quite healthy.

Thanks!