Thank you all for your advice. I did manage to find a cybermaster(baby steps kiwi baby steps I say) and I'm more happy now that I was when I was actually getting sex. Its like afuckingmazing. I love doing tasks for my Master I love fantasizing about what he does. All of it is amazing.

I'm very surprised at how well my Master knows me. He seems to know things about me that I don't and I'm perfectly fine with it cuz he's the Master. I never knew being submissive could make me this happy. Its exciting very very exciting