Hard Session
By
snowflake

Again i fall deep into my depression,
so badly in need of a good hard session.
One so i can feel the pain drive in so deep,
so bad thoughts and dislike for me i won't keep.

Hating myself once more as i rock and tense,
When it will all end i can't take the suspense.
i do things to get punished grabbing at straws,
Whether they punish or ignore is total draws.

i wish them to be angry and do things to me,
but normally they cuddle why can't they see.
It is pain that i struggle for at this moment,
for lashes and welts of bittersweet hits sent.

Through their touch and the wheeled of their hands,
i want to feel each painful strike as it lands.
i crave that pain so fierce, strong and so deep,
as i want my pain to drift off and go to sleep.

Oh please i beg take me to my place that most fear,
before i shed even one more pain staking tear.
Catch me before i fall to deep into my depression,
Please oh please give me one more hard session.

hugs
snowflake