Hi, I'm pretty new here but I wanted to make a post and just ask some stuff.
I have most of my adolescent/"adult" life (I'm 23 so not that old..) thought about dominating a girl.
I imagined lots of things I'd do and lots of things I would make her do.

But recently I found out that I also have a pretty serious submissive side.
For the last few months my best friend and I have been in a sort of dom/sub relationship, however I think she/he doesnt really want to take it as serious as I would like to.
Recently some stuff happened and I had to face that I'm submissive too and that has left me feeling a little confused about who I am in that respect so I was hoping that maybe I could get some advice on how to deal with these feelings..

After realizing that I am, I am left wondering stuff that I cant answer anymore, like if the things I imagined doing I was really hoping them done to me?
Since I have no experience in being a dom maybe it was a fabrication of my mind to keep me from realizing I want to be dominated..
Have you had any thougths like these?
Also recently I have really felt like I want a proper mistress or a sub to play with myself.. How do I deal with the desire?