Good morning all
It's over 6 months since I posted that. We are still in a cottage with no doors, still dealing with Hurricane and health issues but I am glad to say that we have begun to recover the D/s dynamic that wasn't really missing or dormant but definitely effected. Master and I made some adjustments and over and over we made adjustments and we finally found the niche in our lives to fulfill that part of us. I feel that what remained in me as the desire to please but no connection to it has been fixed and it seems to be that he was waiting. He says all I really needed was a good beating. We went to motels, he took me to a party, he found a way to string me up at home...(although my 9 year old nearly caught us so maybe a quieter beating next) I guess if this were a life choice then it would have faded away forever, but it is so much deeper for us both and like Twisted Tails said it has endured