whoa buddy.. you seem to have some demons of your own, there.. and if you need to talk about something that happened to you, which, it seems obvious that you are trying express a need for attention, you will always find someone here willing to listen and offer their best advice..
i was a little offended by your post the first time i read it.. but, then i saw that you were hurting and frustrated that you have noone to talk to about whatever it is that is befouling your world view.. so, if you need to talk, ive been through hell like you would never want to experience.. i offer my services as a listener..
these are not the people who ostracize you.. thats why you lashed out here.. you know these people accept everyone regardless of their flaws..
how old are you?