Quote Originally Posted by Misschief View Post
you mean get over being confused as to why humiliation gets you off, or get over these ingrained, uncontrollable sexual proclivities that will be with you for the duration of your life in some form?

there is no shame.. embrace it with a trusted lover.. go slow, keep a sense of humor, and plenty of reassuring talk helps.. "don't be so nervous.." my man said this to me earlier when i was using a strap on, something i NEVER thought i would enjoy.. i am a lot shy and a bit nervous, but making him cum from penetrating him from behind was unbelievably arousing.. I was wet down to my knees..

i cant imagine how hard it was for him to ask me to engage in pegging with him.. i didint know what exactly it meant, though i had an inkling.. he ran out that night and bought a strap on for me.. by the second time using it, i had him cumming all over his stomach strictly from the penetration..

i feel silly walking about the apartment with a floppy dildo swinging in front of me.. but whenever he tells me he wants me to get "my toy" i am excited to try again..

i am submissive in every sense and act, even when i am in mundane society.. it was easy for people (especially men) to take advantage of me in my youth.. it was pretty traumatizing.. but i still cannot escape how utterly arousing those memories are, of being taken against my will, or told to shut up and held down by my throat when i protested.. it was something i desired on a level i wasnt ready to come to terms with at the time.. now, i am able to vocalize these things to my lover and am in no danger of being led astray by those who do not have my best interests at heart, or worse..

dont think. " i wish i could get over this bdsm stuff," and think, "i wish i could get over whatever it is thats preventing me from indulging these fantasies in a safe, sane, and consenting manner." may take a long time, but if you think that bdsm is the problem, you will never be satisfied fully.. its a part of your sexual personality..
Very well said, and I'm glad to hear that you and your partner seem both to know what you are doing. I like that he is leading from the bottom, at least sometimes, from what you describe.