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Am I sad and pathetic for coming here month after month to mourn you...to remember you...to night-dream of what could have been? Maybe I am a sad little monkey for mourning your passing. But this is not about me and how others perceive me or how they may judge me. This is about letting the world know who you are and were....in my memories and my mourning, you come back to life for a brief moment. If people can feel my emotions.....really feel what I felt and still feel for you, then it means that your life endures beyond the short life that you had. Maybe all they need to know is that a man fell in love with a women when neither of them was looking for love. We were both lonely people searching across the darkness of the night on the internet....looking for something exciting and titillating. Perhaps the fantasy of our darkest dreams were found together...here. Despite that lustful, emotional trap....we found an unexpected love. A deep understanding of each other...our flaws, frailties, weaknesses....and none of that mattered. We accepted one another...warts and all and saw past the emotional scars. Seeing past the loneliness....seeing someone worthy of hope, love and acceptance. I miss you....I miss wondering how your day went...the sound of your voice telling me about YOU.