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I am so happy right now. Who knew that living alone could make me feel so lighthearted? I haven't been this happy since.......well, since the last time i lived alone. *grins* I guess i'm just not the marrying type. That's okay though, a good friends has pointed out to me that it doesn't mean i'm broken it just means that i'm me. And that is by no means a bad thing. It is so wonderful to bo surrounded by friends and family who want nothing more from me than for me to just be me. I am taking this ...

OK, so just to give an update so that i'm not getting anymore advice onthis subject,(thank you to those who tried to help. i do appreciate it) BD has moved out. Turns out that we just really, really don't like eachother and it has just been pure stubborness that has kept us from admitting it up to this point. He seems to be okay. I'm okay. it's amazing but we are acting better toward eachother now than we were when we thought we were spending the rest of our lives together. I have long wondered ...

So, i don't think BD is interested in bdsm at all. In fact i am getting the distinct impression that he thinks i'm a little twisted for being turned on by it at all. Seems like he's barely tollerating topping me. I told him what i liked and he did it for me once. I think it kind of turned him off, so i'm just gonna let it go. He tried that's all a person can ask for right? I kind of wish i'd never said anything about it. Having tasted it a little and then knowing that i'll never have it again is ...