The Good, The Badd, and the Ugly

I fade away


I wonder..
how sweet the pain will feel,
how good the burn would be,
how fast it would all flow away?

Hard, hot silver,
against my skin.
tearing away at my soul.

The world has never ceased to let me down,
why should it stop now?
why stop now?

i fade away.....

Head Games



i curl up naked

like excited, frightened prey.

squeaking "what are you going to do me?"

Your eyes, fierce and amber

You lean in close to my ear

whispering "anything I want"

my eyes widen, my pulse explodes,

every nerve ending zings.


Without a word

You crouch next to my head.

Your ...

Mold


There is no end in site
where it starts, where it begins....
I reach down deep within myself,
and drown myself in sin.

It slowly numbs my mind,
It locks me deep inside.
I carpet myself in lonliness,
but I no longer hide.

I smile through insanity,
I wonder if it shows?
Completely covered in my mold,
but I am not alone.

Bad


I don't sleep
but no one knows.
I stay nice and quiet,
and pretend,
that I'm okay.

Today is bad
I feel bad....
gripping the ledge.
Don't let go,
don't let go,
don't let go.

Alone
inside my head.
Bad
its all so bad
i am bad.

I breathe
i breathe,
i slowly breathe.

I stay away from sharp
metal objects. ...

Mine

Without a word, I slowly climb the stairs, hearing your quiet footsteps behind me. I step into the closet, ignoring the silent plea you make with your eyes. I face away from you and grin to myself, knowing I have you right where I want you.

I rummage through the boxes of packed winter-wear, pulling out an item here and there and placing it in a pile. I finally look up into your eyes, your sad little eyes, knowing they will be bloodshot and surrounded by dark ...