Mairead

I'm going to preface this blog with one fact: I went pants shopping today. I hate pants shopping.

Self-esteem is a bitch. And I'm working on building mine up, but it's a bit of a process. Due to a couple of hormonal conditions (now medicated), I gained a lot of weight in a short period and I'm still trying to come to terms with my new figure. My new mantra seems to be "curves are sexy, curves are sexy".

Also, I'm going through a huge transition. I'm re-figuring out my identity. For the first time in my life, I'm not a student. And for the first time I have a membership to a gym, which I've actually been using. I'm also living alone for the first time, which I'm loving. Oh, and I just started paying off my student loan debt, which is a grown-up experience, but not so enjoyable. And all of that, plus trying to figure out my sexuality!

So essentially I'm trying to discover who I am and rebuild my self-esteem at the same time. It's a lot that's going on, and I seem to be on a roller coaster. Some days I'm flying high and feeling smart and sexy and wonderful (and usually bratty). Other days, I'm feeling so low, I question if I can be sexy or attractive or appealing to anyone.

Anyway....I'm not sure if I had a point with all of that, but I've thought about blogging this for a while, so it's going up.

*waves*