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Am I really that obvious ... I will need to work on that... : )

Em,

We have known each other for a long time.

There is nothing really that you can ask or say that will offend me.

If it is something that relates to Misty/Sunshine...that is fine too.

Despite my grief that I express here, I have come to accept her death and I have moved on in my own way....safe for this one place where I have my memorial to her in the words and devotion that I express to her.

However, if you are asking me if you can serve me sexually in the way that Sunshine was going to....the answer is YES!

FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THAT IS HOLY, YES!!!!

Now you need to send me a photo of your breast so that I can make sure that I have the right size coconut shells for you....right???

Well, for you, I would let you skip the grass skirt and just have you run around bottomless......with coconut shells to cover your breast.

So my words seems to have distracted you from the original question? LOL. Nice to see that the years of inactivity on my part have not dulled my ability to use my words to provide women with stimulating conversation. What part about my little descriptive prose struck a nerve within you???

You really wouldn't want me to torture you to get the information out of you. The decades of sexual frustration let loose upon your tender, delicious body. The feel of the nipple clamps biting into your tender, erect buds. The slow draw of the leather tendrils of the flogger dragged across your shoulder and down your back. The light tapping of the tip of the riding crop on your inner thigh and labia.....warning you to surrender your thoughts to me lest I draw them out of you blow after blow with the rise of my arm, delivering my lustful desires upon the canvas that is your flesh.

What words of mine are you considering???? That you are willing to join my cult and to wear a grass skirt without any panties while being topless all of the time!

Scary if you think there is any wisdom to gain from listening to my rants...hehehe. I am working on letting go, but I accept that there will always be a part of my heart that I have set aside for my Sunshine. The key is to not let that get in the way of my relationships that I have with people who are flesh and blood. I cannot let the ghost of a dead girl cloud my future. I just strive to honor her memory and our love by never forgetting her.

I am in therapy to deal with the grief of my divorce and I am starting to confront the pain of Sunshine's death.

Something that I rarely talk about because there are so few people who would understand and she was my secret mistress....though online and on the phone.

I am trying to let her go, but I cannot.....or will not.

Going to try this week in therapy to let go....yet to remind myself that letting go isn't forgetting her or to stop cherishing her memory.

How are you dear?

Are you happy?

Have you found someone in your life?

What has become of you over these years?

Tony

Em,

Thanks for stopping by and thinking of me.

This year has been one of adjustment.

Getting used to being a single parent...paying all of the bills all by myself.

Figuring out little ways to save money to make sure that I have the money to take care of my daughter.

Fortunately, I seem to be holding my own and saving money for my daughter's college fund and for my retirement.

Been working a lot of hours to make sure I earn what needs to be earned.

I have been seeing the same woman for the past 14 months.

Vanilla sex life, but a good one filled with intimacy that I never knew existed.

I have, for now, traded my desires for BDSM sex for a vanilla one, but in the process, have discovered emotional intimacy.

What used to turn me on was the idea of kinky sex....the different acts, the fantasy of multiple or different women.

That still makes my passions burn bright, but I am very content with what I have now.

There is still room to explore, but not as intensely as I had dreamed about before.

I count myself lucky to have found the woman that I have.....we talk daily, text often through the day, we talk about all things big and small....but we talk.

Something that I never did in my marriage.