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On a trip for business and won't be back for a month or so. We'll still talk on the phone and email, but i'm terribly upset and i want Him back so much it hurts. Any suggestions on how to deal with this? Not having Him here just makes me feel empty and worthless.
He should be tasking you and you should be 'reporting' your progress and results both by mail and on the phone.
I'm a fan of keeping a dominating "presence" in absentia.
As far as feeling empty and worthless, do the things you know he would ask of you, that make you feel full and valuable, regardless of his ability to directly monitor you. I have no doubt he expects to return to a "full-value" submissive.
Thank You, yes He has me keeping a journal everyday and i'm to keep the house and He says He'll call and we'll talk every day. It's just that we've been together for so long and we've never been away from eachother for this long. It just feels scary i guess. Thank You again, i feel a little better.
I understand what you mean. A couple of years ago Master went up to MI for His cousin's wedding and to visit His family. He was only gone a week, but it felt like He was never going to come home. He took the cell phone with Him and this was before W/we had DSL, so I couldn't go online to vent to my friends how badly I missed Him, because I was afraid that I'd miss His call.
Master loves to play with my hair. One day while I was at work I was in my office and a couple of my employees was in the room with me and one of them started playing with my hair and I just burst into tears, because I was missing Master so much. He had given me tasks to do while He was gone and I was to report to Him every day when He called me. The tasks helped, but they also just made me miss Him all the more. But one thing that kept me going was to remind myself how proud He would be of me when He did come home and saw for Himself how well I'd completed the tasks assigned to me.
I know that it can be difficult, but keep as positive as you can. Keep doing what He commanded of you before He left. Mark off days on the calendar and keep telling yourself that soon He will be back home to you.
my boyfriend was away last month for three and a half weeks, and i swear it almost killed me.
just try to remember that it's for business - without him going away there would be no money coming in, that he didnt choose to be away, and that hes probably finding it just as hard as you are.
i found myself getting very emotional when he was away, and trying to be deliberatly hurtful to him on messenger and on the phone - do not do this!!!!! it caused so much stress and hassle when we could have been just enjoying chatting with each other and sharing our days.
i hope you manage your time apart - and think of how amazing youll feel when you're back together!
Oh believe me i would never try to hurt Master. That would only make Him angry with me and i'd end up hurting myself. When He's upset with me it's the worst feeling in the entire world. i'm working very hard while He's away to keep Him proud of me, and He tells me every day that He is which makes it easier. i'm just a very clingy person and when He's not here it just doesn't feel right. Sleeping is the hardest part. i usually either sleep curled up at the foot of the bed so i can get up to make Him breakfast without waking Him, or He'll hold me in His arms on cold nights or just when He feels like it. When i'm bad i either sleep on the floor or in a kennel, but i'd rather be in the kennel with Him in the room than alone in bed.
I so know what you are going through. My husband/Master is away about half the time, every month, sometimes more. It wasn't always like that (only in the past two years), in fact for the first 4 - 4.5 years of our relationship we were practically joined at the hip - some not so kind people nicked us Siamese twins, lol. When He took this new job/client, it caused some tension between us - I wasn't happy about Him being away, and I don't exactly approve of the client. The separation anxiety - I thought I was going to die the first few times, two weeks seemed like such a long time. When it comes to Him, I am terribly clingy and needy.Quote:
Originally Posted by PropertyOfMasterJoey
It doesn't get easier, but you do learn to tolerate it.
Two things help me cope: 1) I throw myself into work, our son, I see my friends, I catch up on things I tend to low prioritize when He is here, I do things to make myself more pleasing to Him when He gets back (which can include anything between shopping for lingerie, visiting the spa or learning a new language or skill).
And we do talk every day on the phone, several times.
and 2) Its important to Him. He is a man who values pride and honor very highly. He takes great pride in His business and what He has made of it. I voice my opinions to Him - but in the end I always support His decision. (Just like He does when it comes to my career.) If I asked Him, dead serious, to drop it on my account - He would. But it would kill Him inside and I could not live with that. More than anything I want Him to be happy and content - for that, as far as I am concerned, price is no object.
You are not alone, hang in there.
xxx :bigkiss:
Adriana
Hey E/everyone :-) thanks for being so supportive of me so far. It's been tough but having a place to vent helps. Wow it's just so weird being alone here. i mean, it gives me more time to focus on my theatre company so i guess that's been a sunny side to my situation. i'm playing aemelia in The Comedy of Errors by the bard himself and it makes me laugh cuz she's a nun. lol at least i know they weren't type casting. Master and i are thinking about playing with that character when He gets back :-P
Wow today has been really hard. i want Master. i live in Texas so i have Ike to worry about and i absolutely hate storms. i don't live right by the coast so i don't have to evacuate but i live close enough that we're gonna get hit with power outages, storms, and maybe some flooding. Master says i'll be ok but i'm so scared and i don't feel good. my stomach is churning and i feel bad cuz i know Master would want me to be brave cuz it's only a storm but i've never been through one alone and i'm freaking out like a little kid :-(
So thanks to all of Y/you who have put up with my constant nervous posting. This is my fourth day locked up in my house with minimal power due to the storm. As i mentioned on another post i'm one of the lucky ones. There was relatively very little damage to the yard and i do have a generator so the fridge/freezer, laptop charger, and tv work, but i'm sharing the generator with my neighbors who weren't so lucky so i can't hook up much more. i've had no way of contacting Master aside from email which is slow and He can only check it at night. i've been keeping the house clean to give me something to do and to maintain my sense of worth but with only me here there's very little cleaning to do. So i've pretty much been online...constantly...bored out of my skull...which hopefully explains why i'm posting so much and i apologize if it's irritating. But really i'm going to lose it. i found a stray kitten in my yard today and i couldn't just leave it out there so i took it in. i emailed Master to see if i can keep it. i hope i can cuz i sorta already named it. Bad idea yes but i'm clingy and it's so so so so so so so so cute. i named it Cinnamon :-P Anyways, once again forgive the rambling. i swear, lock me up with nothing to do long enough and i turn into a 5yo with ADHD.
Your master has not only tasked you, he has taught you. Be the person he has taught you to be. When he must be away, you are his agent, his representative in his home. Is all as it should be? Have you inspected it as tightly as he would? You have purpose, but for a short time, it must come from within you, where he has instilled it. You CAN do this.
Thank You very much. Generally i manage much better when He goes but this is the longest and the first time in my life i've been through a storm like that alone. Thanks for thhe support it means alot.
so could you keep the cat?!
im really glad that you were not right in the path of that storm.
Ive never had to go through anything like that you are now with your Master being away, becuase to be honest ive never had one in real life, but i can only imainge. Im a clingy person also to an extent, so whenever my boyfriend would go away it would upset me but id throw myself into work, school/college, friends, a new skills like some have said.
Hope all gets better!
MASTER LET ME KEEP THE CAT!!!!!!!!!! *jumps around the room excitedly* tehe yay :-) He said it's cute that His pet has a pet tehe it's so cute! i'll post pictures of him later
yippee dances for yu sisa
i was estatic when mine let me keep my "pony" cat, she is just adorable
i also had to deal with a period of time when i had to live away from my owner
he allowed me to come here to offset my lonelyness and explore my submission with the helpful people here (our solution for a sudden lack of dominance in my life was kind of unique and u can pm me about it at your liesure boo)
stay strong and focused, it really helped me to have phone contact with mine when our work schedules permitted, (he wouldnt go on-line back then)
i will pray for your re-unification and happiness
hugs and kissess
denuseri