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Broken spirit
Broken doll
Here I lay cut open
Here I lay sprawled on the floor

Perfect smile fading
Chestnut Locks fraying
Crying eyes sewn shut
Here I lay sprawled on the floor

Tear me open
Tease my fear
Haunting words deafening my ears
Here I lay sprawled on the floor

Unclothe me, leave me naked
Beat me, leave me embarrassed
Scream at me, leave me shaken
Here I lay sprawled on the floor

Porcelain face cracked and broke
Hands around my neck, you’re starting to choke
Brilliant light guides my way
Here I lay sprawled on the floor

Death not taken
My spirit awakened
Its all over, you’ve run away
Here I lay sprawled on the floor

All nearly lost
Child is scarred
Innocence marred
Here I lay sprawled on the floor

Burned, sacrificed, left alone
Fear you gave me
Hate and anger left me numb
Here I lay sprawled on the floor

You keep me prisoner no more

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Turned Away

You get frustrated with me
Worried about my fears
Never stopping to consider all my fallen tears
I can't explain what I'm feeling or why I'm so far away
Being reached for I turn and Hide
Part of me wants to let you
Do all the things you feel
But the lack of reality lingers near
Asked whats wrong and a distant response
a smile put on while mascara stains my cheeks
The pain you bring alive
all the haunting past
I almost give into you
Then the memories flash back
The hurt, the mystery, the details I can't recall
they all come to mind causing me to fall
why can't I be
everything you want
yours all the way
What you want is all of me and the power to control
Bowing to you
agreeing its okay
give me just a moment....
I always turn away.

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The Love Giver

All that was wanted was love
Love is all that was given
The love wanted was pure and gentle
Love you thoughts was the color puple
love, continually poured out, raining on a perfect alabaster canvas
streams of liquid crystals fall from mourning pools
Inside dark and gloomy.
Constrictive webs being tightly weaved, suffocating pleadings.
all being hushed with a kiss
Love still longed for
Rasped apologies for being imperfect
Hoping for forgivness
Twisting the hatred within
Bouts of guilt and sadness
evident in crippling depression
No remorse from the love giver.
Red roses.... they bid thee good-bye
Finally the love giver has taken
Now the reapers turn to cry.
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Coma

Watching you lay still in your empty void
memories of you go flying by
listening to each rasped breath
visions of you enter my head

screaming shaking pleading ... my hearts bleeding
losing my mind, the grip with reality slips, I need you.

Serene sleep takes over you
angelic grace paired with an angels face
symphonic voice rests in my ears
memories lined in lace, being charred by disgrace

screaming shaking pleading ... my hearts bleeding
losing my mind, the grip with reality slips, I need you.

A flinch so small means the worlds to me
slow breaths taken are you music you see
the confints of your void you break free
seeing improvments my heart cries with glee

Eyes so beautiful you opened today
Small miracles preformed, monumentous in a way
I need you my friend, please just stay
Let us share one more memorable day
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Wrath

Calming devotion to a love so sweet
expression of sense depleating defeat
satisfying desires indulgingly meek
Filtering clouds by showing how weak
defening silence lingers here still
abashed by the darkness, lighting wills
crashing of inspirations, falling apart
billowing anger steaming through art
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The Cat Lady ( a dark humored poem)

I don't want to be the cat lady
The one everyone thinks is a little shady
She just sits by herself deteriorating in her wealth
she stews a bone, while she sits by her phone
to it she clings waiting to hear some rings
she smells just like piss and she lets out a hiss
Everytime another minute goes by she just sits and she cries
she'll never marry cause she's a little scary
Really shes just misunderstood
BUT honestly she is quite good
She lets out a groan as she realizes shes forever alone
one day she'll die
because time passed her by
Then they'll lay her to rest
For her .... thats the best..
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Transparent Browns

I hide behind the make up and I hide behind the hair.
Hide the fact I'm frightened, pretending I'm not scared.
Behind the chestnut curtain are the eyes I wish to hide
If they are seen in the light, then all my llies are found
You can see within me, see my soul and read my heart
My mind is then broadcast to you and you know how I feel
The sadness resides within them, this you see too.
Do you ever stop and wonder, if I wish my life were through?
Through my facade I can be what I wish
Someone always happy
A smile upon my lips
Truly deep and dark I am
My thoughts eroding my mind and leaving how I feel trampled on
Stashed somewhere else inside
I want everyone to see how I am but they'd only lock me up in the chains of fear and confusion
No one will understand me or my loud confessions.

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Thats all folks... a few of my personal favorites from my collection of hormonal teenage years....

Anya

Everyone has really nice work :)

We are a talented bunch!

Anya

lol.. that looks funny... now that its not in a thread...

Anya

All very well done and create a perfect visual image
:wow_nbs:
A glimpse inside the one who writes and that
is what shows real depth and emotion by
merely the written word.
:wave:
Exceptional work Anya!!!

thank you!!!

Your comments are very much appreciated. I love to write.. and I don't really care if its good.. but its always nice when its appreciated or helps someone to see something from my point of view.. or... really.. just touches them...

Sera (anya)

Awesome!!! You are an extremely talented woman. i wish i had that kind of talent, even a wee bit of it.:)

Hard to know what to say about your poems anya, but I guess beautiful wouldn't go astray. They certainly give me something to think about.

You're one heck of a writer- thanks for sharing.


Tojo

thank you very much frankee and Tojo. I love to write. I haven't done it in sometime.. I don't know if thats good or bad.. I used to find it as an outet.. as well as my art work to.. release everything I was feeling... I don't know whether I have coped so well I don't need to express myself through various outlets.. or whether I am bottling things up again.. but... atleast I know I can always come here and express it.. and its appreciated.

Thanks guys. <3

Sera

Awesome writing!!! Your words bring out so many different images and thoughts. Excellent :)

thank you pixie!!!!!

Sera