Gregsta's first assignment
My first assignment was to describe the inspiration behind my poem "Precious Angel" and here it is. My god I feel so much like I'm back at school.
*flicks spit bomb at Widget*
It gives a whole new perspective of getting the cane.
*shoots rice at silke through pen blowgun*
*looks around and places apple on Super Bitches desk and darts off to next class*
Precious Angel, the story behind the poem
I joined the library forums on the 17th of April this year. I had often visited the story page to read the stories but had never the ventured past that. I decided to have a look at the forums and was instantly hooked you might say. The people that posted seemed friendly and the advice sound. I have had experience in real life with my wife in BDSM activities and became involved with a group of people but we both pretty much felt burned by the whole saga, to the point where my wife now won’t have anything to do with BDSM. She knows that I still have an active interest and encourages me as long as it doesn’t impact on her.
By joining the forum I thought I would at least be able to communicate with people of a like mind. My orientation when I joined was as a switch, although I had Dommed with my wife. It is much easier to be a dominant switch when you are forced to play by yourself and makes for some very interesting conversations in your head believe me.
Every where I looked on the forum, people were talking about their Sirs, Masters, Mistresses, their online relationships, their real life relationships and here was little old me alone and feeling wretched. Not even anyone to talk to about how I felt. I had always viewed online relationships with suspicion and thought they could never work. I was also of the view that the people who took part in them were weak minded fools who led sad pathetic lives. How wrong I was. Enter the personals. I couldn’t believe I was putting up a personal for an online relationship and berated myself for even contemplating the idea.
Now everyman and his ego likes to think that when he puts his details out there for all to see he will be inundated with offers from ladies willing to throw themselves at his feet and worship his cock for hours on end. Please note ladies this applies in real life as well. (I hear a few of you saying “So what’s new.”) I was of course no different, after all the forum has sixteen thousand plus members so someone out there would be interested, wouldn’t they. Four days went by and nothing. Ok I thought I’ll give it a bump by posting a little more about myself and still nothing. I was crushed. Here I was being honest, open and telling it like it was and not even a god damned enquiry. I liken it to fishing without hooks or bait.
Even though I was crushed I felt I really didn’t have anything better to do so I may as well hang around the forums and continue posting in the vain hope I would meet someone. I posted poems full of angst and pain to relieve my suffering and let the world know that I was not a happy camper. My self play began to get a little self destructive, I now can appreciate a little of what self cutters must go through. It took about two weeks from my initial post but then out of nowhere a little ray of light appeared in the form of a PM in relation to my personal and would I be interested in emailing her. From memory it was about four or five lines long and was like water in the desert. Would I be interested? I nearly set the keys on fire replying.
My angel lives in the U.S. and is in a similar situation to me. Things started off fairly slowly and then just picked up pace. One day she sent me an email calling me Sir and it was like she hit a switch in my head, no pun intended. Since then, I have been inspired to write poems for her as well as stories, one I have submitted for publication on the library called “Crossing Diana” so keep an eye out for it and give me some feed back as well as the poem “Precious Angel” here on the forum.
She just naturally brings out the Dom in me and all those other manly chest beating qualities we have as men. She did it without even trying and I think her influence has made me a better Dom and person now than I ever was in real life. She is so demure at times that it makes me want to sweep her up in my arms and protect from all the world can throw at her. The naughty twinkle in her eye makes me want to do unspeakably naughty things to her body and perhaps her mind in the nicest BDSM way of course.
It is my hope we meet in real life one day but for that to happen I fear I will have to win the lottery to fund the trip, but you never know. Perhaps we can grow old together online. At the moment all I can say is that I am ecstatically happy to have her.
