I see this suggested often and every time I do, I literally cringe. The very thought of keeping a journel freaks me out entirely. I think it's in large part due to the fear of having anyone read it and judge me as a result of it.

Yes, there's some serious trust issues there for sure and I know that writing out what's in my head would likely help me to resolve tons of things but I still cannot do it. Even when I do try, I write an edited version of what I really want to say so it's not even an honest entry.

I buy them, have tons of empty, beautiful journal books in the hope that I can start writing in it. It never happens and goes in the stack of all the other unwritten journals on the shelf.

I once, successfully filled a journal when I was 19 about what was going on in my life at the time and I still love going back to read it.

It's just a weird mental block or something seriously holding me back. Even as I write this, I think about all the responses that will suggest I write slowly, take my time, write small general things to get the ball going, etc.... and my angst already grows lol

Anyone else have 'journal trust' issues?