Hi.

I am new to this forum, although I have occasionally checked here a few times. Sorry, but this may be a bit long. I have a tendancy ot typing too much.

I am F, currently in a relationship with my BF, who from time to time takes a Dom position with me & has me as a sex-slave instead of a gf. I personally have become very willing & love it. However, I find some frustration in him maybe pushing more of his creativity on me. I think because we have a relationship he isnt full out exploring what his mind can think of. I recently had a chance to explore outside of being with him & found that guys, can be much more dominant & forcefull than he has been & I KNOW he can be more forceful, he has written about more harsh & daring things, yet he seems to ease off with doing them to me.

He was my first sexual experience only about 6-8 months ago of any type & we quickly jumped into a BDSM lifestyle, but lately he hasnt extended it more or pushed newer ideas. Hes had me tied & whipped & clamped with a variety of things. Hes had me electroed a bit, had me pleasure other females & dance & strip for other guys. Hes used me for sex without caring if I came or not many times, but I know he can do more & want him to do more. I keep telling him he can do whatever he wants with me, but he doesnt seem to push very far & I am getting frustrated.

Even moreso now after I was recently treated like a meaningless sextoy by a group of guys that I met up with. At the time I was just meeting up with what I assumed was one guy for sex, nothing crazy. It was my idea, that my BF had agreed to, since I willingly let him fuck others, so I went along looking for a guy to fuck, as I had never had this oppourtunity, even though he has & still does freuquently. It soon turned itno 6 & turned into more than just a little fucking. Even though at time I was scared & hurting, I did it, accepted it & handled it by myself. After that though, I realized Joe was not using me to my fullest potential. I also realized at that point, I want much much more as far as humiliation, pain & torture can go. Problem is if I told him what these guys did to me, it might scare him a little & he may not be so willing as to let me look elsewhere nextime on my own. But I want him to try using me as much as they did. Joe has a couple friends who want me bad & he knows I have an interest in them too. He has slowly started letting me share myself. So I will probably get to play with them eventually & I know one of them thinks exactly like Joe does, so I am hoping he will treat me as that gang of guys did since I dont have an emotional attachment to him. Whereas before I was "his", even though he could fuck others. So he is getting a little bolder in letting me play with others, but I want HIM to play with me the way they do. What can I do? Its not like hes a complete stick-in-the-mud. In fact before we got together, if he had told me the type of things hes done to me now, I woulda ran away screaming as I was very much a frigid goody-goody. But now hes awoken the slut or "fucktoy" inside of me & he just isnt doing enough to satisfy my need to be used. HOW can I push him more, I know hes got it in him, he can tell stories about it, but he seems almost scared of hurting me or doesnt want to push me too much. Whatever it is, its damn frustrating.

Hil.