Taming the beast- my transition from Dom to sub

[Chris the Great]

This is my journal to document my transition from dominance to submission. First, i should introduce myself a little. My wife and i have been married for 15 years and we've been BDSM lifestylers for several years. We began as a Master/slave relationship complete with a blood-signed contract, and after a year or so we relaxed into a D/s S&M agreement where I was the dominant male. Everything was fine until I began drinking again, and occasionally i became an overly dominant ass when drinking heavily and i lost Her trust. I'm still drinking, but not as heavily. We decided it was time for a change a couple of weeks ago and now i am Her submissive beast and She is my dominant Princess. We agreed on some basic rules and guidlines, and i was looking forward to the break from the responsibilities of dominance.

One of those rules was that i could not be aggressive sexually and take Her any ol' time i wanted. Instead, i have to be gentle and ask permisssion. Last week i forgot the rules, got carried away and continued aggressive advances even after She said to stop. She scolded me and insisted that i get 4 stripes from the cane (actually a plastic mini-blind rod that was once one of my favorite implements to wield). i obeyed and took my punishment, but to my surprise there was nothing fun or sensual about my punishment! I am a grown-ass man and a fairly big guy too! Strypi is only 4'9" but She laid into me with that cane real proper, and i *CRIED* Then She made me sit up on my knees and face her while She explained the rules to me. i was embarrassed, ashamed and ANGRY. i had to ask for a cool down break. i put on my Pantera Pandora radio station, cranked up the volume, did the dishes and pouted for an hour before i was able to apologize and thank Her for the punishment. That was a range of emotions that i never expected.

Since then i have been behaving much better. We rented a hotel room for a night and i got to be "let out of my cage" for the full moon. We had a full session complete with a paddling, the flogger, accupuncture of my penis, and then She let the beast ravage her. We decided to celebrate each full moon in a similar fashion.

That's all i have to report for now. Feel free to comment and i'll update this thread often if She approves.

[Strypi]

I think that you have done a great job here, My beautiful beastie. I will enter a reply here for every journal entry you post.

You were very honest and I am proud of you. However, you did not forget the rules. You thought (or maybe hoped) that I would give in to you. You were testing the line to see if I would allow you to cross it. I will not.

I happen to like the aggressive advances...but when you are drinking, those behaviors grow and mutate. You turn into someone hateful and abusive, and you frighten me. You are MUCH bigger than I.

You are a tough man! You truly have a beast inside you. I love you for who you are, and that includes the beast. But the beast needs to direct that energy away from this Princess, except when it is appropriate to do otherwise.

Together, we will get you tamed. You are taking great strides already!

I must admit, I am enjoying seeing you all marked-up...

*strokes your cheek*
Goooood beastie.

[Chris the Great]

Strypi reddened my ass real proper in a session today with a leather riding strap, and i enjoyed it. She could have been a little rougher though. She is trying to use all of my old spanking implements that are really too large for Her. We'll need to purchase or build some new ones soon that are more suited to Her. I am enjoying pleasing her more each day.

[Strypi]

Goood beast.

[Chris the Great]

She took that last post as a challenge (not quite intended), but I look forward to our session tonight. *house to ourselves*

[Chris the Great]

Princess Strypi just instructed me that i am Her submissive and not Her 'sub' as I have indicated previously here and on Facebook. i will not make that mistake again. Thanks for the correction Princess.

[Chris the Great]

For any of you wondering if this couple is for real, please see the following pics and decide for yourselves:

Vampire paddle


my bruised/bleeding ass


Strypi REALLY accepted my challenge, and She laid into my ass tonight tougher than i ever did as Her dom! It was a wonderful session that brought tears to my eyes. She used 2 different paddles that i built, the mini blind rod, some PVC pipe, and the flogger. She used the flogger up and down my back and legs and i really enjoyed that. Everything else was really painful, especially the vampire paddle we bought tonight. It brought tears to my eyes--i cried like a a bitch and it made me bleed! I asked Her several times if i could call her a name, and She agreed... i called Her a sadistic cunt, and it didn't phase Her at all. She knew it was true and She reveled in that fact!

Thank you Princess for putting me in my place. i worship You!

[Strypi]

My beautiful beastie, you're so good at taking a beating! Your ass is magnificent, and even better with all those marks. My favorite part of the night was when you begged me to stop flogging your nipples, with tears streaming from your eyes...and then you took one more.

Gooood beastie.

To comment on the "submissive instead of sub" thang...

You are my submissive, not my sub. To me, "sub" is what goes beneath. You are not beneath me. Some subbies are, and that is fine.

Beating a giant beast such as yourself takes a lot out of a girl!!

[DrZoidberg]

Transitioning from a dom to a sub requires balls. My hat off to you.

[Chris the Great]

Transitioning from a dom to a sub requires balls. My hat off to you.

Thanks DrZ.

Had a short session last night. Had to be quiet due to a house guest. It was enough to raise more bruises though. We've found that PVC pipe is both quiet & effective. I think Princess is having no troubles with dominance or sadism.

[ksst]

This is a fascinating journey/ journal you have written. I'm very much enjoying it.

[Chris the Great]

Strypi turned my ass black and blue the day before yesterday. She laid into me with almost every implement we own! Previously, She had allowed me to critique her spanking techniques since i do have a lot of experience. i told Her that She could use a lot more force instead of sharp little taps by swinging Her entire armand not just Her wrist. She's really getting the swing of it. *terrible pun* It was an enjoyable session.

Yesterday we were about to have sex. When i started to raise Her shirt She resisted. Without hesitation i reached for my 4" folding knife from the bedside table, flipped it open with a flick of my wrist, gathered Her shirt, and put the blade to the fibers of Her shirt. When i saw the shock and fear in Her eyes, i bowed my head, folded and put the knife away and apologized for my insubordinate behavior.

IF THE ROLES HAD BEEN REVERSED...

...and they were only two weeks ago, this would have been acceptable and enjoyable for both of us. There's not much we haven't tried. We've enjoyed lots of edge play including: knife play, breath play, bondage and restraint, needle play and piercing, humiliation and the list goes on. So my insubordinate knife incident was not unusual activity for us, but it was highly inappropriate now that i have agreed to submit. i am certain that i will be punished severely and fairly.

She is already a better Dom than i ever was, and being submissive is definitely going to be a struggle for me, but i am beginning to enjoy the concept of submission. i am little ashamed to admit that i am enjoying the beatings too.

Tchus y'all

[Strypi]

Beast...

You are misbehaving now, and this night's bad behavior will be noted.

Insubordination. I have instructed you multiple times, and you have flat-out ignored me.
Back-talk. When you acknowledged that I said something, it was argumentative.

This is unacceptable.

We will discuss these issues later.

[Chris the Great]

Sorry. Parlay?

[Strypi]

Sorry. Parlay?

Penalties? Yes!

Thoughts on fitting penalties?

[Strypi]

Beast,

You expressed that you wanted this be your journal thread....and I agree that you should have it for that purpose. I will only reply to your entries from now on.

I apologize for embarrassing you and as soon as I can figure out how to delete that post I will do so.

[VeniVidi]

...how to delete that post...

Suggest you edit and replace all with a period or something similar.

[Chris the Great]

Penalties? Yes!

Thoughts on fitting penalties?

Since You asked, i think the public humiliation on this thread is more than enough punishment since humiliation was an agreed "hard limit". Anything further would only add injury to insult. But it is your decision. Also there is no need to edit Your post--the toothpaste is already out of the tube and can't really be put back.

[Chris the Great]

i'm not submitting very well, i keep forgetting. As an alternative to a collar, Princess is getting a pair of studded, leather, locking arm bands for 24/7 use. Maybe that will help me to remember my place. i am disappointed in myself :-(

[Chris the Great]

...in the meantime, look what She gave me! The locking cuffs and the triskele ring both used to belong to Her and i am proud to wear them.

my cuffs and ring

my cuffs and ring (closeup)

[Strypi]

Since You asked, i think the public humiliation on this thread is more than enough punishment since humiliation was an agreed "hard limit". Anything further would only add injury to insult. But it is your decision. Also there is no need to edit Your post--the toothpaste is already out of the tube and can't really be put back.

It is now understood that there was a misunderstanding about the understood word "Parlay". We will not address this, there is no issue here, my beautiful Beast.

i'm not submitting very well, i keep forgetting. As an alternative to a collar, Princess is getting a pair of studded, leather, locking arm bands for 24/7 use. Maybe that will help me to remember my place. i am disappointed in myself :-(

You are going through the same thing that we all go through. I want you to pleasestop beating yourself up when you make a mistake. As with all of our decisions of this nature, we will talk in depth and in private about it. Suffice it to say, we will get through this big change together, my love.

...in the meantime, look what She gave me! The locking cuffs and the triskele ring both used to belong to Her and i am proud to wear them.

my cuffs and ring

my cuffs and ring (closeup)

I am so happy that you like your new ring! That ring means a lot to me, and I hope you will grow to treasure it as I have. It looks stunning on your hand, too!

[Chris the Great]

i am afraid my spirit is about broken. Yesterday was a bad day, and today is not much better. Sorry folks, it wouldn't be proper for me to share details. this is a LOT tougher than i expected and i don't know how much longer i can continue.

[Chris the Great]

Last night Princess Strypi and i had a session, and i was punished for my poor behavior earlier this week. i'll tell more about that in the next post. Right now, i need to tell you about the most embarrassing thing i've ever experienced that happened today. After our session Strypi took photos of my bruises and welts, including photos of my punishment caning stripes on my cock using my Droid phone for the purpose of sharing here on this thread. We took all kinds of precautions to ensure that the camera was set to auto upload to the correct (private) Photobucket folder we created. This morning at work, I checked my Facebook timeline and saw a post from me that said: ***myname*** has just uploaded 8 photos to the *** photobucket album. The post contained a direct link to our BDSM folder that contained 16 revealing photos of my bleeding & bruised ass, welts on my back, and stripes on my cock, and it was now publicly available on my Facebook timeline and also on my Twitter feed! i forgot to turn off the auto share feature on my Photobucket Droid app! Shit! i almost puked at my workstation.

i frantically deleted the post and tweet, then i downloaded the photos back on to my phone, deleted the Photobucket folder, created a new Photobucket account separate from the one i share with friends and family, re-uploaded the photos to the new account, and deleted them from my phone. OMG!

So, i have provided new links below to the photos i previously posted here.

Vampire paddle

my bruised/bleeding ass

my cuffs and ring

my cuffs and ring (closeup)

[Chris the Great]

i've only been allowed 17 minutes left on the computer, so this will be real brief.

i've behaved terribly this week: i was argumentative, i pouted, i ranted--all things that are unbecoming of a submissive. Strypi set me straight last night. We talked about my behavior and She helped me to find ways to cope with my emotions.

Here's a few photos of the results of our session and my punishment:

My welted back

my striped cock and welted thighs

my red ass

full body shot of the damage

Thank you Princess Strypi for your patience and guidance!

[DrZoidberg]

I'm enjoying reading about this.

[subdudeme13]

I love this blog! Keep trying beast! You deserve to be broken, you have earned it!

[ksst]

I love the pictures. I'm sorry they were sent around inadvertently to the wrong people. I have a phobia of that happening to me.

[Chris the Great]

Princess and i were laying in bed and watching movies this afternoon, and She was refusing my sexual advances. In fact, She told me to stop at least a dozen times. i laid on my best charms, talked to Her in my sexiest voice and touched Her in ALL the right places. i was controlling Her pulse, Her breathing and Her mind with the stroke of a single finger, and it was amazing to know that i could still do that! i know that She was enjoying all of it, but i also knew that i was misbehaving. then i made a comment that i shouldn't have. i said, "i'm hungry. i want a donut... maybe i could fuck the donut." It was funny, but disrespectful. She responded well. She said, "Stand up, drop your pants, and bend over."

i did as i was told and she laid into me with the PEX pipe (a 2 foot piece of clear polyethylene pipe--it is quiet and VERY effective) at least forty times. i had to beg for a break several times, and then i asked "how many more?" and She said "four more". i asked if i could have them one at a time and She conceded. When She finished i thanked Her for putting me back in my place, and i told Her that i still wanted a donut-She laughed, thankfully!

She told me that i was bratting, but i had to admit that i was actually doing more than bratting. i was attempting to control Her, sexually, and that was out of line and unacceptable behavior for a submissive. i also had to admit that i would probably do it again! To that, She said she would punish me harder next time. With my head bowed to show respect, i told Her that punishment probably wouldn't stop me and She laughed.

We also discussed how i should refer to Her. i have been calling Her Princess since She was submissive to me and that hardly seems appropriate anymore. We are going to try "Mistress" for a while and see how that works out. We have to work on what i will call her publicly though. We work in the same building and see each other often during the workday so this is an important consideration.

i am now broken, and i am starting to enjoy submission more and more.

Later y'all.

[Chris the Great]

Mistress says it was only 24 strikes with the pipe. i wasn't trying to exaggerate, but it sure felt like forty!

[leo9]

I am filled with admiration for your courage in sharing this, the good and the bad, and for your Mistress' patient determination to train you into the man you want to be. I have long believed that D/s can be a character-building experience for both parties, and you are giving a detailed case-study of it. I wish you both all of the happiness you are working so hard to win.