Taming the beast- my transition from Dom to sub

[Chris the Great]

Mistress learned last night that being the dominant one is not as easy as some might think. Its reassuring to know that i'm not the only one having difficulties.

[leo9]

Mistress learned last night that being the dominant one is not as easy as some might think. Its reassuring to know that i'm not the only one having difficulties.

Hard work sometimes, isn't it, Strypi?

In the immortal words of Peter Parker, with great power comes great responsibility.

[VeniVidi]

The rewards of that hard work are what makes this lifestyle far far better than 'nilla though.

[leo9]

The rewards of that hard work are what makes this lifestyle far far better than 'nilla though.

Absolutely.

[Chris the Great]

Last night after a few beers i realized that i wasn't feeling very submissive and i asked Mistress Strypi to paddle my ass. She instructed me to pick out the implements and i chose the PEX pipe and a hairbrush paddle that i built myself from a nice piece of walnut. She tuned me up well, focusing on my bare ass cheeks just below my waistband. She hasn't ever beaten me there and it hurt real bad- bringing tears to my eyes. i had to ask for several breaks during the 15 minute session, but i am really trying to get better about being still and not hollering out during the pain. When She finished She asked me, "How do you feel?" and i responded, "submissive."

Afterwards, i asked Her if i could make love to Her, and we had passionate & sensual sex. During sex is the most difficult time for me to behave correctly. When i am ramming my cock into her ass, pussy, or face, i instinctively move her into the positions i want. i place my hands around her neck, grab handfuls of her beautiful red hair, grab her breasts forcefully, and generally and naturally dominate during sex because she enjoys it probably more than i do. However, we both know this is not appropriate behavior for me. Our after-session sex last night was different. i asked for sex instead of taking it, i caressed Her instead instead of manhandling Her, i asked her to change positions rather than placing Her how i wanted, and i asked which holes i could have instead of fucking all that i wanted. i am super proud of this major accomplishment! i think She should paddle my ass before sex every time to remind me of my submissiveness.

All of that being said, i am more eager than ever for the next full moon on March 8th. Strypi believes it will be good to "let the beast out". When the moon is full, i plan to ravage every hole She has, and take Her however i want! We agree though, that it would not be proper for me to strike Her body in any manner, but i think some bondage would be amazing.

[Chris the Great]

By the way, i failed to mention that right now i have week-old bruises on the front and back of my thighs, and after last night i have fresh lumps and bruises along with older marks on my ass. i am sitting painfully at my work desk and loving every minute of it!

[Strypi]

Yes, I expected this to be easy....NOT!

I knew of the challenges, and accepted them. It is not easy going from slave to Dom. The main challenge: dominating someone who you enthralled yourself to.

I am proud of my Beastie. Darling you are doing very well, especially with this being so early in the switch.

I love you!

Now, tickle my feet!

[Chris the Great]

As a Dom, i never cared for the idea of tasking. i thought it was silly and demeaning, but last night Mistress Strypi insisted on two tasks for me. First, i had to sit at Her feet cuffed and naked, and tell Her all about my work day. i had to end each sentence with "Mistress" which was a little awkward but not difficult. For my second task, i had to get on my hands and knees and masturbate by thrusting my hips and fucking my hand. i then had to ask permission to orgasm. Initially, this was a little humiliating and humiliation is a 'hard limit' for me. But when i saw how much She was enjoying watching me i really enjoyed putting on a hot show for Her. Apparently humiliation is only a soft limit and i enjoyed pleasing Her.

Thank you Mistress for pushing my limits.

[subdudeme13]

Yo! beast!

i love this blog. Fun to watch the transition!

Pushing limits! Yum! Enjoy!

[Chris the Great]

Thanks to a/All for the support in this thread and in our journey!

i am sitting here naked and cuffed with my leather locking wrist bands, with my cock and balls bound--i really enjoy binding my genitals. i've been trying to express to Mistress Strypi how much i've been enjoying tasking (to my surprise) and i've been begging for more to push my limits. She has suggested eating my own semen from a plate, and i've been begging Her to urinate on me in the tub. i used Her bath water that She urinated in and She watched me urinate on myself in the same tub! It is really starting to look like a good evening is in store for me. She also proposed that i should tolerate intrusion by Her strap-on (yet to be purchased). To that i responded that i am really enjoying Her taskings and i belong to Her for Her pleasure.

She instructed me to document my feelings here in my journal right now (30 minute time limit), so here goes:

Right now, i am really beginning to wildly enjoy being submissive. i am looking forward to more pushing of my limits. What i considered to be hard limits last week are now more than negotiable. i want to know what i am capable of and what She is capable of. i want to fully give myself to Her, however She wants. i want to be submissive 24/7. She didn't paddle me last night and instead initiated tasking. She thinks that i need to heal a little first, but there is no pain in my skin and i miss that pain. i want it all, to be dominated, to feel pain, to be humiliated, and most of all to please Her, entirely. i am enjoying the attention, the pleasure, and the opportunity to please Her. Maybe i am being selfish, but i want it all.

What do y'all think? Are there health concerns with bruises on top of old bruises. She is concerned about blood clots, etc. but i heal quickly---probably a good trait for a submissive to have!!! lol

[Strypi]

So, I instructed my beast to jot down his feelings while they're raw...and he has asked me to do the same. I made sure that he is OK with me posting this here, in his thread.

I am so proud of you, beast. You have crossed a milestone here. I am happy that you have discovered that it is OK to perform a task, and that it isn't demeaning at all. I am thankful for the fact that I got to see this first hand. Your openness to the tasks that I set forth for you to perform for me pleases me so VERY much! You allowed me to help you to trust me as your Mistress, and that means more to me than you know!

The fact that you have done an about-face with your opinion about what tasking means and the pleasure that it can bring to you shows me that you've discovered your inner submissive. This is beauty.

I am anxious about the prospect of pissing on you. This will be a big deal for me, as your former slave. I plan to do this soon.

I love you, beastie. You are precious to me, and I appreciate you and all that you are doing for me!

[Chris the Great]

i'll let the photos speak for themselves...



She is getting really good at this!

[~faerie~]

thank you for sharing with us all. i applaud your honesty and candor. Strypi seems like a wonderful Mistress. i look forward to hearing more about your journey.

[Chris the Great]

We've had an extremely busy week with no personal time at all. i haven't had a session or a task in several days and my bruises have all faded. i am not feeling as submissive as i should, but Mistress Strypi assured me that i will get some attention today.

[Chris the Great]

As She promised, Mistress Strypi tuned me up well last night, and brought me to the poi.nt of weeping and sobbing, but I only had to ask for a break once. i feel much more proper now. She used very light implements including a paint stirrer, a belt, and the handmade hairbrush paddle so there is little bruising but there is still some pain this morning. My knees didn't fare so well though. She had me kneeling over a beanbag chair, and today i am limping at work from the pain in my knees. She even placed a pillow under my knees for padding but that didn't help. i am going to have to take my beatings standing like a slave instead of kneeling like a submissive, or i could lay face down i suppose. i hope for more of the same tonight, but tomorrow is the full moon and i get to be a beast! i plan to ravage every hole She has!

[Strypi]

I don't like you being on your knees. Yes, it is a wonderful feeling to have someone kneel before you, but knowing that your knees are suffering, at your age and all
...I just don't like it. We will work something out when we get settled into our new home.

I am proud of the way you handled this beating! You did very well! Good Beast!

Now, I know you haven't had time to do so, but I am anxiously awaiting your entry about the latest session!

[Chris the Great]

Thank you Mistress for your compliments. It has been almost a week since that beating and i can't remember all of the details, but i DO remember experiencing sub space for the first time!

When She first began beating me She instructed me to say Mistress after everything i said. So She asked me, "What's my name?" and She began swinging the paddle against my ass, hard. i uncontrollably yelled, "Mistress Strypi, Mistress". This continued for about 15 minutes and suddenly my breathing became slow and calm, the room seemed quiet, my eyes closed, and i felt as if i were floating. The paddle didn't even cause me to wince, and when She asked me to say Her name while swinging the paddle at my brused and lumpy ass i was able to respond in a smooth and loving tone. i think this is the sub space i've always heard of!

This was supposed to be our last session before the full moon beast unleashing that i had been anticipating all month, and Mistress said i had earned it. Anticipation be damned, we both caught a sudden nasty illness that made any lunar celebration utterly impossible :-( Mistress promised me a make-up day but it won't quite be the same. If She agrees, i would rather wait for the next moon.

[gracieflower]

I've really enjoyed following your journey thus far. Thank you for sharing!

[Chris the Great]

Thanks! i've been enjoying the challenge and i've enjoyed writing about it too. Maybe someday when we've mastered this switch, we might switch a third time for the ultimate challenge and learning experience.

[Chris the Great]

We are out in the middle of nowhere on FM 748 storm spotting and waiting for storms to develoo in the Texas panhandle and Mistress Strypi pulled over and instructed me to cut a switch from an elm tree and a flogger from a yucca bush. I'm cumming in anticipation. i'll post pictures of the implements and damage later.

[Chris the Great]

Did i mention i am cuffed AND collared? :-)

[Chris the Great]

We stopped at a conveniencande store in Miami TX (population 588) while i was wearing my cuffs and studded colar and Mistress Strypi was wearing a white tank top withthe words "husband beater". That was fun!