First up, welcome. I hope you have a great time here.

As for whether you should choose a straight or kinky life, well you know who has to decide that??

None of us can make the decision, even if we knew your full circumstances. Don't believe otherwise.

Myself I'm happily married for 15 years to a 'straight' woman who's very sexy & just wonderful. I love her very much.

I also have a girl I have an online relationship with, mostly as a mentor & supporter to her, but I do 'own' her in some ways. I also act as a kind of mentor/friend to a lovely lady I plan on meeting in r/l for some fun.

No sex play, just a little bondage, & an intro to D/s. Maybe that's wrong, maybe it's cheating, but it's what I do.

Good luck in your decision- don't throw away a potentially good relationship for a kinky life, but then don't live your life in misery....


Tojo