Kate,

I know you have already tried talking but did you tell your husband about your Master.

No one but you can ultimately decide what to do. I myself have been in a vanilla marriage for many years and am still happily married though she wants nothing to do with anything kinky. I made my choice years ago to live with that decision. I felt I would be much better off because of our love for each other than to shit can her because of her lack of kinky desires. I have a beautiful family because of that decision.

With you being young you need to do what I can't or don't have the guts to do, tell your husband about your Master. If he accepts that you need both him and your Master then your decision becomes easier, doesn't it? If, however, he does not, then you have to choose how you want to live your live. You're way too young to be miserable for the rest of it or, worse yet, later to look back and say I wish I had.

It is a tough decision but if I've learned anything from this community, the desire for this life style does not subside easily.

I wish you the best of luck but remember communication is the key to any relationship.