Quote Originally Posted by Psynymph
so i'm thinking i'm going to have to approach the subject again with my husband and maybe have a showing. maybe have my Master dom me for my husband.....lol....yeah i know fantasy world!!!!

thanks E/everyone for Y/your comments!!!!
There is nothing to lough out loud about this possibility, Psynymph. Maybe this is what it needs to get your husband to accept a part of you that is very important to you.
After all you are married, in good and bad times, should help your partner and stand by her all the time. And this definitly includes your lifestile. At least I think so.
You said that you really need the BDSM lifestile. Well, so a totally vanilla marrige seems to be out of the question.
So, maybe, when your husband sees you and your Master playing, he might prefer to do this job himself instead of leaving this to others. You will have to help him then, since he will probably need this as a new thing to him.
If it does not work, well it will kill your relationship for good, probably. But to my oppinion this is better than an ailing relationship where you are the permanent looser or where you will have no other chance than cheating.
So if you have to pull out, pull out with a bang and not a whimper.

I wish you all the best and I really hope it works out for both of you!